I really really really hate school right now because I've been having this problem, that, like, if I get too overwhelmed and I feel like I can't do everything in a certain allotment of time I just completely shut down. I panic to the point of not being able to pick up a pencil and do stuff. 

I'm so scared of disappointing people if I fail but I know I can't do it so I just fall apart and wait for the time to pass.

And it's really self-destructive, like, I know I can do it, it's just a part of me just says I can't and it's impossible and I should just put it off longer. And it hurts my head, and everyone's mad at me, and I just feel like I'm forgetting how to properly function. I hate school. I hate it, hate it, hate it so bad right now.