when you're gone i'm swallowed by the past and everything else that's lead up to now

you're my shield, you help me absorb the now and live how i want to live

but as soon as you go quiet the ghosts start screaming in my ear once again

and threaten to take me up once more, a dangerous path i can't fall down a second time

but they tug and they pull and they lure and i wait for you to pull me out of the depths

i said i'd never need you but it's funny how i've tethered myself to your soul without realizing

i'd never tell you because i don't want you to feel like you're trapped in place

i know what it's like to have no way out, for the sake of yourself you sacrifice someone else

i could never put you through what he put me through. it's torture all on its own