last night i got

an hour and a half

can't figure out

quite where i'm at

past demons

haunt my dreams

i'm worse off

than i seem

i was 

healing for a while

now i'm just

acting like a child

guilt's eating

me alive or

got nothing left

to strive for

past blew a hole

right through my future

life pulled together

by only sutures

i took a drive

back to his home town

got halfway there

then turned around

time turns flames 

to embers

but i'm still stuck

in last november

so what was all this for

i need a point to make

i can't stand to go to sleep

but i don't want to be awake