i say "i'm not mad anymore"

let your pictures fade

at the bottom of a drawer

memories laced with shame

though the seasons pass

i still feel an anger

a churning, sickening fury

each time i hear your name

i'm a new person now

but i had to kill the one you knew

because you rent her down to ruins

it was a stupid ruthless game

and i still swallow memories

acrid and bitter to taste

standing in the refidgerator light

swarmed by haunting shadows

and i cry and i cry and i cry

and though i say i've moved on

you still follow me around in

flashbacks and echoes

so now i've met someone new

but you find joy in my sorrow

and your voice lingers in my ear

but i guess that's how it goes