Chapter 7 (rewritten)
Rhea stood in the center of the Cullen's living room, staring out the large windows that overlooked the forest. The world outside was as beautiful as it had always been, yet everything felt different now. Her senses were sharper, her perceptions more intense, but a gnawing sense of loss had settled in her chest ever since she had been turned.
She had been so close to achieving her dream—becoming a veterinarian. The studies, the late nights spent working with animals, everything had led up to this moment. And now... now, she was frozen in time, forever changed.
The Cullens had become her new family, but Rhea hadn't known any of them before her transformation. They were strangers who had given her shelter and support, understanding the complex grief she was facing. Carlisle had been the one to explain that, despite everything, she still had options. He had done it himself when he had been turned centuries ago. Yet the more she thought about her situation, the more hopeless it seemed.
Alice appeared beside her, as silent as ever. Her bright, golden eyes sparkled with understanding, as if she could read every thought swirling in Rhea's head.
"You're still up early?" Alice asked, the soft smile on her lips betraying a mix of concern and patience.
Rhea shook her head. "I don't sleep, Alice," she murmured. She hadn't expected that. Not sleeping. Not ever again. But there it was, an endless cycle of thoughts, memories, and feelings with no escape.
"Right, I know..." Alice said with a quiet laugh. "It's just... it's strange, isn't it? To not have that feeling of rest. Of waking up in the morning, feeling like you can start again. It's easier to pretend like the day is starting anew instead of one never-ending cycle of morning and night."
Rhea smiled faintly. "Yeah. Strange."
Alice didn't press the matter, knowing that the last thing Rhea needed was to be reminded of what she had lost. Instead, she chose a different direction.
"So, have you thought about what you're going to do?" Alice asked, her voice light, but with a gentle edge that showed she was waiting for Rhea to open up.
Rhea hesitated. "I don't know what to do. I was almost finished with my veterinary studies before I was turned. I worked so hard for it." Her hands clenched into fists, though she didn't need to worry about the usual human frailty. "But now... what good is that? What use is it to be a vet if I can't even live like I used to? I can't even touch animals the way I did before."
Alice tilted her head thoughtfully. "You might be surprised. The world doesn't stop just because you've changed. And you're not like other vampires. You're different, Rhea."
"I don't feel different," Rhea said softly. "I feel... broken."
Alice's gaze softened. "It's okay to feel that way. You're allowed to grieve. But you don't have to give up on the things you loved. Look at Carlisle—he's been a doctor for over three hundred years. He's managed to find his way, even with the challenges."
Rhea shook her head. "Carlisle can pass as human. I can't. How could I ever work with animals again? I can't even be near them the way I used to be."
Alice studied her for a moment, her eyes distant as if seeing something far beyond the present. "But you're not alone. The world is bigger than what you see right now. You've still got your knowledge, your passion, and you have the abilities to do things others can't. You just have to find your place in this new life. And maybe that's not a bad thing."
Rhea turned away from the window, her thoughts swirling. "I was almost there, Alice. I was almost living the dream."
Alice stood, moving closer, her voice steady but full of conviction. "Maybe you're still on the path, just a different part of it. Think about it. If there's a place you can still fit, a place where you can use your skills... Maybe a wildlife rehabilitation center? Maybe even working with creatures that most humans wouldn't think of—your abilities could make a difference."
Rhea's brow furrowed, considering the idea. She'd always loved animals, even wild ones. The connection she felt to the creatures of the world had been one of the few things that grounded her, made her feel human, even as a young girl. The thought of helping animals again was a lifeline she hadn't considered before, buried beneath the overwhelming weight of her transformation.
"I could try," she said, slowly, letting the idea settle in. "Maybe there's something I can do. Even if it's small."
Alice gave a small, approving smile. "Exactly. Start small. You don't have to rush into anything. Just take it one step at a time."
Rhea's shoulders relaxed, the first real sense of peace she'd felt in months sweeping through her. It wasn't a perfect solution, and the road ahead wouldn't be easy, but it felt like a start. And for the first time since her transformation, the future didn't feel completely bleak.
"I think you're right," Rhea said. "I don't know where it leads, but I want to try. I'll find something... for me."
Alice nodded. "You will. And we'll be here for you, no matter what. It's not about what you were; it's about what you're going to become."
Rhea smiled, a soft glimmer of hope in her eyes. "Thank you, Alice. For everything."
Alice's grin widened. "No need to thank me. We're family. That's what we do."
As Rhea watched Alice leave, her thoughts began to settle into something resembling clarity. She might never be the person she was before—she might never walk the same path as she had before her transformation—but maybe there was still a way forward. Maybe the dream she had once had, the one that had slipped through her fingers, wasn't entirely gone. Maybe, just maybe, she could still find her place in the world.
...
Rhea stood by the doorway of Carlisle's study, hesitating for a moment. She had spent the last few hours in deep thought, letting Alice's words settle within her. There was something in her—something she had almost forgotten—an old spark, a drive, a passion for animals that had once defined her.
With a deep breath, she knocked gently on the doorframe.
"Come in, Rhea," Carlisle's calm voice called out from inside.
Rhea pushed the door open and entered, finding him standing by the large windows, his eyes scanning the thick woods outside. Carlisle was always so composed, always in control, and for a moment, she envied that calm demeanor.
"Hey, Carlisle," she began softly, unsure of how to start the conversation. "Do you have a minute?"
He turned from the window, offering her a warm smile. "Of course. What's on your mind?"
Rhea took a few steps forward, her eyes flickering to the floor before meeting his gaze. "I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do. About... what I *can* do, now that things are different. I don't know if it's even possible, but I want to keep working with animals. I was studying to be a veterinarian before I was turned. I don't think I can go back to that world as it was, but... I don't know what else I'd do."
Carlisle's expression softened with understanding. He stepped toward her, his voice measured and kind. "Rhea, I know that the change has been overwhelming. But you're not the first to find a new path. You can still contribute to the world in meaningful ways. You just need to think about how your abilities and experiences can guide you."
"I want to help, Carlisle. But the world I knew... it's gone. There's no way to blend in. Not as I am now." Rhea paused, her hands instinctively clenching. "I want to be around animals again, but I can't just go back to school. Not as a vampire."
Carlisle gave her a reassuring look. "You're right. It will be difficult to simply pick up where you left off, but that doesn't mean you can't find a way. Have you considered working in a veterinary clinic specifically for wildlife, perhaps? There are animals out there that need care, and your heightened senses could help more than you realize."
Rhea tilted her head, considering the idea. "Wildlife... I never thought of that. I always focused on domestic animals, pets, the ones people can have in their homes. But maybe that's a possibility. There are sanctuaries, rescue centers, places where the animals aren't domesticated. I could work with them without attracting too much attention."
Carlisle smiled, pleased with the direction her thoughts were going. "Exactly. And many wildlife rehabilitation centers, particularly those for endangered species, are run by private organizations or researchers who are more concerned with helping the animals than maintaining secrecy. You could blend in without raising suspicion."
Rhea let out a breath she hadn't realized she'd been holding. "I can't just walk into one of those places like a normal person, though. It's not like I can pretend to be human again. I'd be... different."
Carlisle placed a hand on her shoulder, his expression thoughtful. "It's true that you cannot hide your nature completely, but it's not the blood you've lost that defines you—it's your will, your mind, your heart. If you pursue your passion, people will see your determination, not your appearance. Don't focus too much on the limitations of your new form. Focus on what you can offer, what you can change."
Rhea looked up at him, his words slowly sinking in. "You really think it's possible?"
"I do," Carlisle replied with certainty. "But it will take patience. And you must be prepared for the fact that the world may not always understand. It may not always be easy. But you have the capacity to make a difference, Rhea. You have knowledge, compassion, and a heart that still longs to do good. That's what matters."
For a moment, Rhea stood there, processing what he had said. Her heart, though it was no longer human, still yearned for that connection—to make a difference in the world, even if she couldn't live the way she once had.
"Maybe you're right," she said, her voice steady, though a flicker of uncertainty still lingered. "I don't know if I'll ever feel like I did before. But I can try. I can *find* something, even if it's different than what I thought it would be."
Carlisle smiled at her, his eyes warm with pride. "And that's all anyone can do. You don't need to know everything right away. Just take the first step, Rhea. That's all it takes."
She nodded slowly, a weight lifting from her shoulders as a sense of direction began to form. There was still a future for her. A future where she could make a difference, even as a vampire. She might not have all the answers, but she would find her place.
"Thank you, Carlisle," she said, her voice thick with emotion. "For everything."
He gave her a small, reassuring nod. "You don't need to thank me. You're part of this family. Helping you is simply what we do."
Rhea stepped back toward the door, feeling the weight of the conversation settle in her chest like a quiet promise. "I'll figure it out. One step at a time."
As she walked out of the study, a strange sense of peace followed her. The path ahead was still unclear, but she wasn't walking it alone. For the first time since her transformation, Rhea allowed herself to believe that the future might hold something good.
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