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Samaira:drawer, drawer

Samaira entered her room chanting only one word. Her pain seemed to have reduced after she talked with Sidhansh. And only one thing was going in her mind.

What is in the drawer?

Samaira:got it

She opened the drawer and pulled out a yellow box.She confusingly looked at it and opened it the next moment only to gasp seeing the thing inside it.

Samaira:oh my God,it's so beautiful

Samaira adored the beautiful golden bracelet .She touched it softly and adorned the stars and pearls.It was a golden bracelet beautifully decorated with moons,stars and pearls.The moon was made with small white stones. It was shinning like diamonds are embroidered on it.The design was simple yet elegant.And Samaira knew exactly that she loved it .

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Samaira:I should probably thank Ansh for this

Samaira smiled while still adorning the bracelet. Her gaze fell on the red paper inside the box.She picked it up and opened it. Reading it,she froze and her eyes turned moist.

It read:For my angel.

Samaira's eyes filled with tears and her vision turned blurry.She slumped on the bed and threw that paper away.It made her remember something or specifically we should say someone .She forgave that person but that doesn't make her forget the pain she got from her.She was far away from her so she can't even complain it to her.

Mom

The one word itself brought back so many memories, emotions, pain and anger.One person who can solve everything and was enough for Samaira to bring a smile on her face.Yes,she didn't cried so much on hearing her mom's death but that doesn't mean she doesn't love her .Though her mom thought of her as a burden but she always respected her mom and maybe cared also.The one person she wanted to apologize to her yet she is not sad even if she didn't apologized before going.Just one thing she against her mom .

Why didn't she meet me before going forever?Why?

Samaira:Samaira, calm down......calm down,you don't want another panic attack

She thought to divert her mind before her anxiety rose and just then ,her gaze fell on something on her finger.She gently caressed it again and again to reduce her anxiety.A smile swept on her face remembering the person who gave her this.

It was simple yet unique ring like the person itself. It was his friendship sign but also a stress reliever for Samaira which she didn't told him.Whenever she would feel anxious ,she would caress it .

Samaira:shit,how can I forget this.....my phone

She started searching for her phone only to see it kept on the side table.Samaira immediately stood up and went to pick it up.She searched through her contacts and finally stopped at his name.

Boy:hello

Sam:he-

Before Samaira could complete ,she heard a knock on the door.She immediately cut the call and went towards the door to open it.

Sana:hi,can I come in?

Samaira opened the door and saw Shehnaaz standing there.Samaira saw the concern ,care and empathy in her eyes but didn't found any pity.Wherever she had told her past to someone,they would pity her and show sympathy and she hated that.She hated pity.

Why her eyes doesn't have pity like others?

Samaira:sure

Samaira moved aside and let her come in.Shehnaaz gave a nervous smile and entered inside.She looked around and her gaze fell on the bracelet.

Sana:This bracelet, Sidhansh had bought when we had gone on a evening walk....it's beautiful

Samaira:yes,it is

Samaira bit her lip in nervousness. Her heart wanted to ask Shehnaaz about her dad but she wasn't going to say it.She was adamant on her decision making her heart sad.

Sana:you know you can ask me anything?

Samaira:what?

Sana:anything Samaira

Shehnaaz finally turned around and looked at her properly.She was biting her lips while her arms were crossed on her chest. She was avoiding eye contact knowing well that Shehnaaz was right.

Samaira:how's dad?

Finally

Shehnaaz innerly shook her head in disbelief. Both father-daughter cared about each other so much but still they didn't wanted to ask it.Like,how stubborn one can be?

Sana:honestly, he is not in a good state but luckily he is sleeping now

Shehnaaz said while shrugging her shoulders and sat on the bed.Samaira also walked towards her and sat beside her.

Samaira thought that now Shehnaaz is gonna say something or scold her but she didn't uttered anything just kept looking at the other side.Samaira now nicely observed her,her eyes were puffy indicating that she had cried,she was biting her lips due to nervousness, her eyes held a lot of sadness ,concern and something else.Like she was remembering something.

But what?

Sana:you still think of me as an outsider?

Samaira:what?NO.........ofcourse, No naazu,I consider you my family

Samaira gasped hearing her question and her eyes grew wide .Ever since,she had actually started knowing Shehnaaz she felt a connection towards her and considered her family.It was the first time she was feeling motherly vibes from someone except her mom.There was Maria but she always gave her the vibe of a friend or maasi.She always thought that there was no one who would really make her feel these mother-daughter stuffs ever.But Shehnaaz made her feel it.

The way she cared for Samaira though not knowing her completely, the way she was concerned about her health,the way she encouraged Sidharth to make more efforts.Shehnaaz didn't knew it that Samaira notices this all also,but she does.

I wish I could tell how much I love you and even my heart is also paining from going away from you

Sana:Samaira you said that I am your family but you never believed it nor considered it......cuz if you did,you would atleast share with me a bit ,just a bit of your past with me

Shehnaaz was sad, anger not only from Sidharth but Samaira also .She had actually started thinking of Samaira and Sidhansh equally and just wanted to fill their lives with love and happiness that they had missed in their lives.But never in her dreams,she had thought that something so worst would have happened with Samaira and she would hid it from everyone including her.

Maybe ,I am not so close to her afterall it's just one two weeks of us knowing each other

Samaira:naazu, I do consider you my family but it was something ,I didn't knew how to share it with anyone....... I shared it with dad because someone had given me the confidence and promise from me to do so......I thought that after knowing it,you would think of me as a broken,weak girl who needs to be protected 24×7 and show me sympathy and trust me ,I don't want that.........I am independent and I am capable of protecting myself

Sana:why would I think of you like that,you are not broken......infact you are a fighter,you fought that all alone ,you are a survivor, a fighter but definitely not a broken,weak girl......I understand you ,Samaira what was going on your mind but atleast you could have tried once telling me,I-

Samaira:don't say it please that you understand me,you weren't in my place enduring all the abuse

Samaira didn't let her complete and interrupted in-between of it.She didn't cared it was who ,she just hated this sentence.She knows people say this just to make the person feel better but in her case,she just hates it.Because it is fake. How would a third person understand a person's pain without actually going through that situation?And she doesn't want this fake concern.

Why do people say this?It's fake.

Sana:I understand you because I have experienced it.......I have experienced how getting a.......abuse feels like

Shehnaaz said after taking a long breath.She didn't wanna say it because she knew just by saying this,all those bad memories she left behind would start coming back in her mind.She only know how she has controlled herself after hearing Samaira's past because it made her remember her past also.A tear escaped her eyes just remembering a flash of that.....of her abuse.

I hate him,I hate him so much

Sana:and especially when that abuse is from someone close to you,one person whom you were supposed to consider as your protector but he only became your destroyer, your abuser........everytime he would abuse me,I used to feel like crap,I used to think why God even gave me this life.....the innumerable times ,I thought of dieing, of suicide but then there I was a stubborn one,I didn't wanna give up also........so choose the painful way,the hurtful way knowing well that it would leave marks on me,not just physical marks but mental also........and it left,there was also a voice inside me saying to fight against him but could I fight ,hurt the person with whom I grew up,my-

Shehnaaz stopped immediately realizing she was gonna say the real identity of her abuser .She couldn't let that happen and ofcourse, she couldn't tell it to anyone and especially not Samaira. It was the first time she was opening up to someone and telling about the abuse.

Never in her life she had said this someone and neither she was planning to do so.Maybe the situations were so similar that it made her spill her past also.Samaira's past has already affected her so much and now she couldn't tell something that would affect her mental health more.

Samaira:who, naazu?.......who abused......you?

Samaira said between her hiccups.She can't believe that the strong woman sitting infront of her has also endured something so painful like abuse .Her heart started beating loudly the moment she heard that someone abused Shehnaaz. Her tears instantly started falling from her eyes.She knew Shehnaaz was hiding something but never had the slightest idea that it was this.

Sana:someone

Shehnaaz said and immediately stood up wiping her tears.She didn't waited for any other word and reached for the doorknob. But she turned around and hugged Samaira tightly whispering something in her ears.

Sana:I know you were here for a reason or should I say someone ,so please stay for that someone........it's just my request,the end decision is yours

Shehnaaz said shocking Samaira once again and patted her back before going towards the door.She left her room but not before saying one last sentence.

Sana:make the right decision, Samaira

Shehnaaz closed the door and took a long breath.She wiped her face once again not wanting to show anyone her teary face.She started walking towards the living room but stopped on reaching when she saw a dark human shadow there .

Sana:who are you?

Sidhansh:naazu,it's me

Sidhansh said and switched on the lights making Shehnaaz relax.She walked towards him and hugged him.

Sana:I missed you kiddo

Sidhansh:I missed you too(chuckles)

Sana:By the way,how did you enter?

Sidhansh:oh,I had a spare key

Sidhansh said and slumped on the couch.Shehnaaz sat beside him and ruffled his hair.Just his presence can make her calm and relax and dude,she loved it.

Shehnaaz, you really love the Shukla boys a lot

Yup,that's true

Her heart said to her which she totally agreed.She saw at Sidhansh who had threw his jacket on the right side of the couch and was looking at her.She raised her eyebrow asking him "what".

Sidhansh:where's dad?

Sana:oh,he is sleeping

Sidhansh:and Sam?

Sana:she is also sleeping

Sidhansh:But it's just freaking 9:00 pm, naazu

Lie.Lie.

Her mind shouted at her and Shehnaaz bit her tongue. She didn't wanted to lie but there was not any option left.Well,the first was truth Sidharth was actually sleeping but Samaira wasn't. She didn't wanted Sidhansh to go to Samaira now because she knew Samaira needed some alone to think about her decision.

Sana:yeah,both were very tired so both of them slept

Sidhansh:ohh okay but why are you sad?

Sidhansh took Shehnaaz completely off- guard with his sudden question.She made sure to wipe her face before coming out then how did he get to know.She nervously looked around to come up with a excuse.

Sana:no,why would I be sad?

Sidhansh:then why your voice is so low like you just cried now?

Sidhansh asked while looking at her suspiciously, it was not just her voice it was her eyes also.He had observed her red,puffy eyes since the time he had entered his home and she was not that excited also after seeing him after 12 hours.

Sana:oh,I just have a little cough so my voice is low

Sidhansh:and your eyes which are red,what about them?.........don't tell me you cried because you have cough

Sana:well,I actually did

Sidhansh:Are you serious?

Sana:yes and it's a big issue ,kiddo cuz of my voice,I wouldn't be able to shoot some pending add shoots of mine......my work is gonna be affected a lot

Sidhansh:don't worry,about that......I am sure ,it is gonna be okay soon

Sana:I pray so but before that,Mr. please care to explain why you came back so late......it's freaking 9pm,kiddo.....I gave you permission till evening, not night

Sidhansh:I know,I know and I am sorry......actually Rahul's mom was making some cookies so she told me to wait until they were made so I could eat them and also take some home

Sana:You would do anything for cookies,right?

Shehnaaz said while keeping her hands on her hips and angrily looking at him.But before she could say anything or scold him, Sidhansh stood up and ran towards his room not before shouting something.

Sidhansh:YES,ANYTHING

Shehnaaz chuckled while shaking her head in disbelief seeing his childish acts.She wished that he never grew up and always remain her kiddo.But then her mind drifted towards the current situation.

I just hope Sidhansh's words come true and everything becomes okay,soon
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Samaira sat on her bed still thinking whatever Shehnaaz said about herself and her abuse.Her mind still couldn't process that Shehnaaz also went through that hell even much worse than her.Here,she was thinking that only she has gone through worst situations in life but there was also someone who had went through much worst situations than her.

She said someone she grew up with?who?

Before she could think anything,her phone rang breaking her thoughts.She answered the call knowing well who it was.

Samaira:hello

Boy:WHAT HELLO ,SAMAIRA?........YOU SCARED ME,WHY DID YOU CUT THE CALL LIKE THAT

Samaira moved her phone a bit away from ears not wanting to turn deaf from hearing his shouting.She has lived with these two boys but still wasn't habituated with their shouting.

Samaira:geez,calm the hell down

Boy:fine,tell me what happened?

Samaira took a deep breath before saying it finally to him.She was nervous?He'll yes.

Samaira:I told him

There was a moment of complete silence before he finally spoke. Not asking what and to whom because he exactly knew whom she was talking about.This was their level of understanding and comfort.He directly asked her.

Boy:what was his reaction?

Samaira:he hugged me and-

Samaira paused for a while as if deciding how to say it to him.She hated to accept that he knew her father better than her.She didn't knew it was his level of maturity or because he was a boy so he knew it.But she finally decided to say it.

Fuck it......just tell him,Samaira

Samaira:and told me that it's completely my decision if I want to stay or leave and he cried......he cried for me

Boy:he loves you

Samaira:hmm.......I just told him one lie

Samaira just hummed and told him the thing which was disturbing her since the time she told him the truth.She just lied to him about one thing.She thought it was okay if she doesn't tell him about this but now she was feeling guilty.

Boy:about what?

Samaira:I told she left the hostel

There was complete silence again and she exactly knew why it was.He was controlling his anger so that he doesn't burst his anger on her.He hated this thing of her,he hated Samaira supporting her.

Boy:why didn't you told your dad that how big-hearted his daughter is and what a noble job she has done?(sarcastically)

Samaira:Adi,please not again......she needed help-

Boy:there are millions of people Samaira in this world why only you have to help her,why you have to help your abuser?

Samaira closed her eyes for a second and rubbed her forehead. She was also getting annoyed now hearing his questions.He also know that she was right in some way but he didn't wanted to accept it.

Samaira:because she was not normal and she needed mental help,idiot

Yes,she agree that maybe she was doing wrong by helping the person who caused her pain,who gave her painful memories and who abused her but she wasn't able to ignore it also when she came to know about Aurora's illness,her mental condition. And at that moment, she decided to help her .Though,it took several days to make him agree but she finally succeeded.

Samaira:how is she by the way?

Boy:Fucking great(sarcastically), her all treatments are done just the results are left

Samaira:I am seriously asking, Idiot......don't give me sarcastic answers

Boy:fine,first one was sarcastic but the second one was serious

He hated when she came up with this idea ,he was planning to send Aurora just to one place and that is prison.But Samaira pleaded to him not to do it.He was also feeling bad for Aurora but his concern ,protectiveness for Samaira was more.He was scared thinking what if she hurt Samaira again after getting perfectly fine so didn't wanted to take any risk.But when Max told him to do it for the sake of humanity, he couldn't deny it.

Samaira thinks that she is mature now but he only knows that she is still not mature .

Boy:but the day she gets perfectly fine and normal,I will be the one to send her prison that day only

Samaira:okay if you will send her to prison ,you will have to send one more person to prison also

Boy:who?

Samaira:her dad

The main cause of her abuse and the main cause of Aurora's abuse leading her to her mental illness.
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