I know I had told I will take time but maybe I took a lot of time.....I am sorry for keeping you all wait for so long but I hope the part will be worth the time💕💕
Thoughts and flashback in Italics

Warning-Mention of abuse ⚠️
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Two days later

People often do things in the heat of the moment which lead to something so intense that they never thought of.For them ,it's just the heat of the moment but for others it becomes the best or worst moment in their lives .But do we actually think before acting in those heat of the moments?

Hell no.

And that only happened with Sidharth. He still wasn't able to register what he did .Ofcourse it was a heat of the moment for him but he couldn't help but blame him for doing that .He wanted to say sorry to Shehnaaz but again something was stopping him from within.Was he really sorry?

To be honest,no he wasn't and that was eating him up from within.Why wasn't he sorry?Why was he not feeling bad for kissing Shehnaaz, his friend? Whenever he thought about that kiss,he didn't felt guilty instead a warmness and smile creeped his heart .But in this one thing was very clear to him, Shehnaaz was not just a friend to him,she was much more than a friend to him.

For Shehnaaz, she was in heaven and her heart in her own dreamland. She couldn't help but just think about that moment making her heart flutter everytime.She was acting like a teanager who kissed the first time with all those red cheeks,butterflies, sparks and shy smile. The best moment of her life .

But sadly she couldn't say the same thing for Sidharth. She knew he was feeling guilty because in these two days,she saw him acting nervously around her and mainly avoiding her.This act of his really broke her heart and made her think .

What if he regrets the kiss?

What if he will never talk to me ever?

What if he doesn't feel the same ,I feel for him?

It was another normal morning in their home but nobody knew that actually it isn't going to be a normal day for them.Everything is going to change from today .

Samaira:good morning

Sana:good morning

Sid:good morning

Samaira greeted both of them as soon as she entered the living room.Samaira again noticed their distance which she was noticing from two days .She knew something was wrong between them but didn't want to interfere also as it's their matter.But one thing disturbed her.

Why is their distance affecting me?

Shrugging these thoughts, she sat on the chair and remembered something .She looked at Sidharth and asked him.

Samaira:dad ,have you booked my flight?

Sid:flight? For what?

Samaira:school is reopening so I have to go back to hostel (confusingly)

Doesn't he knew about this?

Sid:no you are not going back to hostel and about school,there are many good schools here......you can continue your school here

Sidharth said without looking up from his laptop .He wasn't letting her go this time .She is responsibility and now he is going to fully take care of his responsibility.

Samaira:and who are you to decide this?

Samaira said calmly but anybody could feel the anger in her voice.Her anger which she was trying to hold from so many days was finally coming out and this time she wasn't going to stop it.He really wants her to do everything according to him whether it's going to the hostel or staying here.

Hurt flashed through Sidharth's eyes.His daughter was asking him who was he ?He really had thought in these days that she had atleast forgiven him a bit but he was wrong.He stood up and walked towards her.

Sana:Samaira-

Shehnaaz was thankful that Sidhansh was not here and had gone to his singing class.She could  feel the tension in the room and thought to calm it down before anything bad happens but Sidharth interrupted her .

Sid:your father

Samaira:father.....oh,yeah my father,so where was this father when I was screaming to not take me to that hell hole ,I was shouting and saying that it's not my fault......when everyday I was standing infront of the hostel gates and hoping that my father would come......Where were you? When I was crying every night because my father was not there to hug me and kiss me goodnight, where were you? Where were you when I won my first skateboard inter-school competition?WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I WAS GETTING AB-

Samaira stopped immediately realizing what she was going to say,her deepest and darkest secret.She touched her cheeks where she could feel tears rolling down .She knew her eyes would have gone red from anger and pain.She finally said it and opened her half heart infront of him.

Sid:I.....I.....am.....was

Sidharth fumbled and stumbled feeling the intensity of her words.She was right,he wasn't there where she needed him the most.His heart churned thinking about the words she spoke,thinking about her waiting for him.His angel whom he claimed to love so much wasn't there to hold her all the times she fell,wasn't there to clap on her success.And this was his fault. His biggest mistake.

He was going to fall but Shehnaaz who was standing close to them, rushed towards him and held him.

Samaira:You abandoned me,dad

Samaira couldn't hold it anymore and immediately rushed towards the door.The room was becoming more and more suffocating after she revealed her feelings.She didn't knew why exactly she did it but also knew she didn't do anything wrong .

Sana:Sidharth

Shehnaaz gasped as she felt Sidharth falling down.She held his shoulders and sat on the floor beside him.Sidharth sat on the floor with a blank face while tears rolled down from his eyes.

Sid:she thinks I......abandoned her......I didn't abandoned her Shehnaaz,believe me

Sana:I know you didn't but your actions maybe made her feel that

Though Shehnaaz didn't knew about the whole matter but she had a little idea of it.One thing for sure she knew was that whatever the matter or situation was ,it was not just Samaira but Sidharth also who suffered.

Sid:I've lost her

Sidharth whispered to himself but Shehnaaz also heard him.He was completely broken now and all of his hopes of asking Samaira's forgiveness was gone now.He even didn't know how he will face her now.

Sana:no no you haven't......you still have one chance,go and talk to her.....tell everything that is in your heart and listen to everything she speaks

Sid:I-how?

Sidharth looked at her dumbstruck,how she still have the hope that everything will be fine?He looked at her and saw her eyes which till now had hopes in them and trust in him.He was not able to understand, he had lost his hopes but she still believes in him .

Sana:I trust you and I know everything will be fine......just go

Sidharth didn't waste a moment and stood up with a determination to make everything okay .He moved towards the door but stopped and turned around.

Sid:I promise I will bring her back

Sana:this is the last chance ,Sidharth

Yes,the last chance and I will not lose it
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Cold winds blew moving her hair strands gently with them and drying her tears .She sat blankly on the edge of the terrace.The winds were cold like really cold but they didn't mattered or affected her as if she didn't felt anything. Her mind was just recalling what she said downstairs. Long away gone the anger ,now it's just the pain and sadness.

Chills ran down through her spine finally feeling the coldness.She moved her hands to hold her knees but realized where she was sitting so left it and held the railing.While her eyes blankly stared at the houses.

Boy:Promise me you would tell him everything before you leave

The words of her bestfriend rang in her ears and she only let out a deep sigh remembering them.How right he was as if he had saw the future.

Samaira:I think it's time(whisper)

Sid:Samaira, are you crazy?

Sidharth shouted as soon as he entered the terrace area and saw her sitting at the edge of it.His inhaled a sharp breath just thinking what if her hand slipped or her leg .

When he came out of his home ,he didn't knew where to go and find her .But suddenly he remembered the terrace and thought whenever he was sad or angry he would go there and quite often he found Sidhansh also there.So if Samaira was even a bit like him,she would also come there.

Whether it's the father's instinct or coincidence......I am glad I was right

Sid:why are you sitting at the edge,what if you-

Samaira:I fell ,right?.......you know,dad I don't fear death now

Her voice was cold and shiver ran down Sidharth's body hearing her reply.His girl has so grown up now that she doesn't fear death even.He didn't knew how to react .He just emotionlessly walked towards her and was going to sit beside her but Samaira stopped him.

Samaira:I don't fear death because there's nobody whose responsibility is on me or for whom I have to live but you have dad.......you have the responsibility of Sidhansh and for whom you have to live so I'm not gonna let you sit here

Samaira turned around and jumped down from the railing where she was sitting.She sat down leaning on the railing of the terrace followed by Sidharth who sat beside her.

Nobody said anything, Samaira was waiting for Sidharth to say something but he didn't uttered a word.She waited and waited but no words came out.Annoyingly,she only decided to break the ice.

Samaira:nothing to say?no anger?no justifications?

Samaira asked mockingly and saw Sidharth just shooking his head.

Sid:I am not such a pathetic person ,you know ,Samaira who will give excuses even after realizing his mistake......it was my fault, my biggest mistake and I have accepted it and I also know a sorry is not enough for the things you have gone through but I still want to say something to you

Samaira:what?

Sid:a chance,I need one last chance to prove to you that I am really guilty and I want you back and this time I will not hurt you,I promise......just one chance please Samaira

Sidharth voice choked saying the last sentence making Samaira look at him.She saw his brown eyes which were now red due to crying,his messed up hair and finally his disastrous state.She was already broken and seeing someone else breaking because of her just made her want the ground to open up and swallow her .

I can just cause sadness to others, I will destroy everyone's life

But he also ruined your life,Samaira

Her brain angrily said making Samaira inhale a sharp breath and she turned the other side.She was breaking down from within but still held her in position. Her hands tightened around her legs pulling it more close to her chest.

Two persons can't break down at the same moment, right?.......one has to act strongly

Samaira:one chance ?

Sid:I know I have hurt you a lot but it's still not late,just one chance Maira

Samaira scoffed hearing his words.Still not late.She looked at him with red eyes.She could feel her angry coming back again and she didn't stopped it because this man deserves it .

Samaira:not too late,really?..........you wanna know how late you are ,let's begin with beginning,that day when you both shouted at me for hitting the girl at school ,it wasn't my fault really........she first hit my bestfriend and pushed her so instead I pushed her unaware of the fact that she would hit a rock and bleed.......and when I realized after seeing her,I myself took her to the medical room and apologized to her but she being a bitch complained to the principal and rest you know

Samaira chuckled bitterly remembering her past while Sidharth sat there numb.He blamed her for something which she didn't do intentionally .He cursed himself why didn't he gave her one chance to say her side of story.

Oh god,what did I do?........how could I do this to my little girl?I am sorry ,bacha

Samaira:you know back in childhood if someone would have told me that my dad won't trust me and after few years,I would hate him........I would have beat that person for uttering such bullshit but now this is the reality

Sid:you hate me?

Samaira's eyes snapped towards him hearing his question.The answer of which she hadn't found till now though at times she had said it and also felt it but it was sometimes. Her mind was screaming at her to say yes but she didn't knew what to do.Hate was a big word,right?

Samaira:I don't know.....maybe yes sometimes(whisper)

Sid:I want to know everything Samaira, everything that has happened with you in these years and how much I have hurt you

Samaira:are you sure?.......you won't be able to hear it

Is it so bad?

Sidharth thought and his heart churned just thinking about it but he was determined. He want to hear it ,he want to know how much he has hurt his little girl,his bacha.Innerly he wanted to smile hearing her concern but stopped himself. It was not the time to smile.His heart warned him again and again not to say yes but he finally did say it.

Sid:yes

Here it goes......

Samaira:the first year of hostel nothing much happened except my crying everyday ,studying and waiting at the gate every evening in the hope of you coming back.......I met Maria as my caretaker, firstly I was uncomfortable with her also but she made her place in my heart eventually......she would comb my hair everyday in a new hairstyle saying that she had always wished for a baby girl whose hair she would style in different hairstyles,the first year was bitter sweet but the next year

Samaira do you really wanna say,are you ready?

Yes

Her brain asked her still unsure of what she was doing .She was keeping her darkest secret infront of him but she was ready for the consequences whether it will be positive or negative.

Samaira:the next year ,I got a roommate.......her name was Arora ,she was five years older than me......I was still not over with the crying zone and missing you both and Sidhansh and would cry every night which didn't settled well with her and then when the abu-se started

It was late night,Samaira was bundled up in a corner with her head in her knees and crying remembering her mother.She was missing her mother,her mother's warmth and cuddles.

Samaira:I miss you ,mom

Her cries were soon converted into loud sobs which broke Arora's sleep who was lying on the bed .

Arora:didn't I told you to stop with this shit

Samaira flinched hearing her loud voice and her sobs stopped remembering what happened last night.

Samaira:I am sorry ,I am sorry......I will not cry now

Arora:but you did and broke my sleep bitch and for that you will get your punishment

TSHHHH.TSHHH.

The sound of slaps echoed in the whole room .Samaira's face was now facing the other side while she held her cheeks which had Arora's imprints now.She didn't get enough time to cry feeling the pain when she felt a sharp pain in her hair which were being pulled .

Arora:not anymore sound ,little girl

Samaira:first it was just the slaps,few punches and hair pulling but later it converted into many things like kicking,punching my stomach severely, slitting my hands sometimes with blades......at first she did it because of irritation but later she started doing it for fun

Samaira had just returned her room from her English class, her last class .She closed the door behind her and saw Arora sitting on the bed smirking at her .A shiver ran down her spine and she started shivering .It has been already terrifying for Samaira to share the room with her and she only knew how she did it.

Arora:welcome back,little girl......come here

Samaira:I-why?

Samaira nervously asked her ,she could feel her breathing getting heavy already.

Arora:I said come here(sternly)

Samaira quickly without thinking rushed towards her not to make her angry.But the poor soul didn't knew what was gonna happen to her.

Arora:Good girl so since I have seen you being a good girl from so many days......I'm impressed and I want to reward you

Samaira:reward me?

Arora:yes......apna hath aage karo

Samaira confusingly looked at her and she being the innocent, forwarded her hand.Arora smirked and pulled a thing from her back making Samaira's eyes go wide .

It was a razor blade.

Arora:so liked it?

Samaira:no,please.....No

Each floor had six rooms but sadly no one was there in the rooms of their floor.They all were attending their classes. So no one heard her pleading.

Arora didn't heard her pleads and slit the blade on her hands making two straight lines with blood.

Samaira:ahhhhhh

Samaira:I didn't knew what to do if I tried to fight her ,I knew I was digging my own grave because after that she would hurt me more.......I couldn't tell the authorities also because she had warned me not to say them and Maria,she kept asking me what was wrong but I didn't told her thinking she wouldn't trust me and think I am lying.....it continued for two years until Maria came one day and said me to pack my things......she took me to her house ,away from the hostel,away from Arora......I can't say how grateful I am to her for that and that time also, I wasn't able to say because I was numb.....completely numb

Samaira was silently sitting beside the window and looking outside of it,at the surroundings. It was peaceful and she enjoyed it.

Maria:Samaira breakfast is ready

Samaira flinched hearing her loud voice and turned towards Maria nodding.It's been two days ,she has started living in Maria's house.

Maria noticed her flinching but didn't knew whether to ask her about it or not.

Maria:Samaira, are you okay?

Samaira:I am fine

Samaira said nodding .Till now she had learnt to hide her emotions and just keep it to herself. She didn't talked to anyone except Maria when Maria intiated a conversation. She just sat in her room whole day ,looking out of the window or studying.

Maria:you can tell me anything, Samaira.......but please don't keep your emotions bottled up

Samaira:it's nothing Maria,let's go

Again,she didn't told Maria and she was not even planning to ever tell her also.

Samaira:I lived with Maria in her home for the next 2 years and then when I came back to the hostel ,Arora had left the hostel

Samaira let out a deep breath which she didn't knew was holding from when.Her breathing started getting heavier as the panic attack finally overpowered her which she was holding when she had started telling about the abuse.

Stop,please stop.

She couldn't breathe,her heart started beating fastly as if it would come out of her chest.Her stomach knotted making her feel nauseous, adding more to her panic.It felt as if someone was choking her to death.

No.No.No

She couldn't do anything, her body didn't feel like it was in her control until two arms wrapped around her.She immediately recognized his arms ,how could she forgot the embrace which she had yearned from so many years.She didn't protested instead she just moved more close to him and wrapped her hands tightly around his waist.

Sid:I am sorry, bacha

Samaira didn't said anything just sobbed and fresh new tears rolled down her cheeks.Her breathing still heavy.

I did it.

She gave up .She finally had a break down.In her dad's embrace.

Kyun koi paas hai,door hai
Kyun koi jaane na,koi yahan pe
Aa raha paas ya door main
Ja raha jaanu na hu kahan pe

Yeh Dooriyan.........
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