Sana:Home sweet home

Shehnaaz yelled after entering her home but she didn't felt that warmth she had felt living with Sidharth and Sidhansh. She lived in his home the whole weekend and today returned her home or should I say house.

Was it really my home?

Home is not just a place where you live ,home is a place where the people who love  live.

She didn't understood this quote ever  but today she could feel the true meaning of the quote.

Shehnaaz sighed and threw her bag on the couch.She slumped on the couch and opened the calendar on her phone.She marked 22nd as final rehearsal day.Two days before the launch day.

Sidharth had talked with Jenny and decided to see her final rehearsal on that day.Shehnaaz kept looking at the screen and felt a wave of nervousness hit her.It was her first time as a model and first time she would walk on a ramp.

Sana:you can do this Shehnaaz, relax and stay calm

She stood up from the couch and went to the kitchen to prepare some coffee for herself. By the time she reached the kitchen,her head had started hurting .

Ofcourse it would hurt,you  haven't taken the pills from two days.

She kept the milk on the stove to boil and quickly took out two pills from the bottle and gulped it down.She could feel her throat burning but after sometime she felt relaxed.Her headache stopped.

Sana:finally....ooh shit,how could I forgot that

She quickly took her coffee mug and picked her phone from the couch.She sat in her balcony and dialed a number while drinking her coffee.

Sana:hi dad

Sana dad:hi Shehnaaz

She could feel the tiredness and hoarseness in her dad's voice though she hadn't talked to him much since she shifted.Her dad didn't changed a bit,she thought and chuckled.

Sana:how are you dad?

Sana dad:I am good ,how are you?

Sana:I am happy,very happy

Sana dad:happy much,aren't we?.....so what's the good news?

Sana:I got an opportunity to become a model for Dreams new collection....and the launch is on 24th....so I want you and mumma to come here on 24th

Sana dad:wow ,that's great bacha,congratulations....Dreams is really a big company, I have heard about it....but 24th of this month?

Sana:yeah dad

Shehnaaz crossed her fingers and hoped to get an positive reply.Because was she ready to get a negative response, yes or no?Maybe no

Please dad don't say no ,please.

Her mind kept chanting those words and desperately wanting to hear a yes.But the next words of her dad were enough to break her heart.

Sana dad:I will come but I can be a bit late....because Ajay is also having an important meeting with our international financiers on that day

Sana:ohh okay....so you won't come?

Shehnaaz wanted to scream and show how  angry she was but her voice came out as a whisper,  a sad whisper.

Sana dad:After Ajay's meeting finishes ,I will try to come bacha....but I don't know when the meeting will finish,you know it's his first time meeting with international financiers....so I can't leave him

Isn't it my first time ?

She wanted to say this but these words didn't came out.

Sana:it's okay dad,I understand and by the way  Shefali will be there...don't worry about me

Sana dad:I am sorry bacha but your mom can come....you talk to her,I think she will surely come

Sana:sure (sarcastically)

Shehnaaz had already lost hope that they would come to her special occasion. She so wanted her dad to come and see that sweet, happy smile of his while she would be on the ramp but now her that wish is just a wish.

Shehnaaz disconnected the call and sighed.Should I call mom or not?

Will she come if I ask her?

These were thoughts ringing in her mind .Her heart and mind was on a constant battle on what to do.Finally deciding to just ask her once and maybe she would agree.

Sana:hi mom

Sana mom:hi bacha....how are you?why didn't you call me from so many days?atleast you would have messaged me

Mom and her questions

Sana:I was a bit busy mom

Sana mom:itni bhi kya busy ho gayi tu ki apni mom ko call karne ka time nahi milta tha

Sana:mom actually I got selected as a model for dreams new collection so ussi ke liye busy thi

Sana mom:you are doing modeling also ?

Sana:I am not so interested in modeling but I thought to just give it a try once

Sana mom:ohh okay,so how's it going?

Sana:it's going great mom and we have the launch on 24th......so I got two invitations and they said that I can give them to anybody......so will you come?

Sana mom:24th ,right?

Sana:yeah

Sana mom:actually baby,Ajay is also having his meeting on 24th and you know na how nervous he becomes before an important occasion....he is so freaked out now that he is telling me to come with him on that day(chuckles).....though I refused him a lot of times but he didn't agreed....don't get me wrong baby,but I also want to come to your launch day but I can't leave Ajay

Ofcourse she knew, that's the one thing she had common with Ajay that whenever there is an important function or occasion related to them, both would be hell nervous.

Sana:it's okay,you be with him....he would really need you

Sana mom:I knew my baby would understand and best of luck for your launch day

Sana:thanks mumma, bye

Shehnaaz heard a small bye from her mom's side and cut the call.She frustratedly threw her phone on the couch.

Sana:Why mom,why always me?.....isn't it my first time?.....is it only his first time?

She didn't realized when tears started rolling down her face.She clutched her hair in anger and pulled them.

Sana:mumma can we go to the zoo please

A 6 years old Shehnaaz asked her mom who was busy in washing utensils.

Sana mom:sure baby but let your brother come from his cricket practice first,okay?

A frown appeared on the little girl's face heating her mom .She wanted to go now .She quickly changed her expressions and said.

Sana:okay

Sana mom:good,now go and watch some cartoons till then

Shehnaaz sadly went towards the couch and sat on it.She switched on the television and stared blankly at it.

The television was ringing but her focus was on the door.Waiting for her brother so that she could go to the zoo.The bell rang causing her to jump from the couch and ran towards it .She opened the door and let him in.

Sana:mumma can we go now,see bhai also came

Sana mom:okay let's go to zoo

Ajay:but mom we had went to the zoo yesterday, I don't wanna go again

A 9 year old Ajay said that , he didn't wanted to hurt Shehnaaz but unintentionally his words did hurt Shehnaaz and broke her heart.

Sana:mumma why didn't you take me yesterday with you?

Sana mom:baby you were playing with dad so I didn't disturbed you

Sana:but I want to go now

Sana mom:But I can't leave Ajay here and he don't want to go

Sana:but -

Shehnaaz's mom didn't let her complete and interrupted her.

Sana mom:baby we will go tomorrow, I promise

The small Shehnaaz kept looking at her mom in hope that she would change her mind.But her mom's words didn't change and Shehnaaz lost hope.She sadly went to her room and closed it.

Sana:why mom,why?I wanted to go to the zoo

(Flashback in italics)

Shehnaaz abruptly stood up and shook her head in order to get away with these childhood memories. She couldn't help but feel pity for herself .

What has she been asking since childhood? Love and a little time.Since her childhood she had only craved for love and wanted her parents to give her time like Ajay.But again she felt heartbroken, dejected and hopeless today .

Shehnaaz you are not that 6 year old baby who would crave for love and cried if she didn't get it.

Her mind mocked her and she quickly wiped her tears.She will not cry now .Why cry for someone who doesn't care for you?

She quickly got up and picked her phone and dialed a number.

Sana:hi Jenny,are you free today?

Jenny:Yup,I am

Sana:wanna go clubbing?

Jenny:sure anyways my friend had opened a new club and it's totally free for me and my friends

Sana:are you sure?

Jenny:yup sweetheart ,you only get dressed up as a hot ,sexy bitch and meet me at xyz club

Sana:sure(laughs)

Shehnaaz cut the call and immediately went to her room to get ready.

Time for some actual fun.
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Some drama is coming up🥴.........

As I told I was a bit hurt with you all so I couldn't write at all and took a break.But now I understood it's just useless saying it so just leave it.😔

Anyways,I had thought to update yesterday but I just couldn't write properly.Yesterday,completed a month on Sidharth's departure😭💔. My mood was so bad yesterday and I just couldn't think about anything except him🥺.Though I did study cuz studies are important. I was in so much pain.....I miss him ,it hurts so much thinking that I would never actually see him and Shehnaaz in any project💔, I wouldn't be able to see his tweets again,I would never be able to see him again bigboss....it hurts🥺💔

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