Warning-This is a heartbreaking part and it might make you sad and make you cry as well,I guess😟

I gave the warning cuz I understand you'll state now but think from the story's POV also....this part was needed and I can't skip it😵

But I promise few parts will be sad but not this heartbreaking,It will mixed with happy moments also🥺❤....and another question, do you want me to change the plot?🙁

P.s.If I change the plot ,it will lose its uniqueness but still if you want...you can tell 🙂
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Shehnaaz and Sidharth were sitting outside his room .They didn't knew what to do .Sidharth was again and again looking at the door.

When Sidhansh asked the question, Shehnaaz answered it with a nod.After that Sidhansh didn't said anything and again locked himself in his room.

Sid:I shouldn't have said this to him

Shehnaaz raised her head and looked at him.Her eyebrows furrowed in confusion not understanding what he meant.

Sid:I shouldn't have said him the truth

Sana:Sidharth you can't hide it from....I know his reaction is something we hadn't expected to be like but that doesn't mean hiding was a good option....if we would have hid it,he would be more hurt

Sid:I just hope he wouldn't be traumatized

Shehnaaz looked at him in shock.She never wanted Sidhansh to be traumatized.

Traumatized. Itself was such a big word.It doesn't only mean shock.In that shock ,people stop doing things and stop thinking. The word itself made her shiver .She sighed in frustration and prayed that he was fine.

Suddenly the door opened and Sidhansh came out of his room.Shehnaaz moved towards him but Sidhansh backed.A frown appeared on Shehnaaz's face but she understood his state.

Sana:are you okay,kiddo?....you scared us so much,never do that again kiddo please

Sidhansh:I am fine,I am going downstairs

Sidhansh said it and looking at her blankly which scared Shehnaaz. She was not able to find any emotion on his face as if every emotion just flew away from his face.And he was not fine.

Sid:why are you going downstairs?

Sidhansh:dad I want my time....I gave you your time and didn't said nor asked anything....so I also want my time

Sid:watch your tone Ansh,I know you are not in the state to think properly but don't disrespect me

Shehnaaz held Sidharth's hand and squeezed it signaling him to not shout at him now.She knew Sidhansh was not able to think properly and just taking his sadness,pain ,feelings in the form of anger.

Sidhansh:I am sorry dad....can I go?

Sana:yes kiddo you can go

Sidhansh looked at her and gave her a faint smile before going.He exited the house and Sidharth turned towards her and looked at her questionly.

Sid:why did you let her go?

Sana:Sidharth I know you are worried for him but let him take his time and maybe by going downstairs he will feel better

Sid:I don't know Shehnaaz but one thing I know that I will not leave him alone

Saying this Sidharth picked his phone and went downstairs. Shehnaaz also left behind him.
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Sidhansh reached the building compound .He sat there on one of the benches and looked down.

How his life took such a drastic 360° turn.His mom left him for forever.

Many thoughts were revolving in his mind along with different questions. Why did she leave him?Why didn't she came to him when she knew that one day she would.....die?Doesn't she wanted to meet him?Does she hate him?

His mind was not able to possess the news till now.He was not understanding anything but yet one feeling he knew he was feeling was,Guilty and Empty.

Guilty of thinking about his mom in that way and blaming her all the time,Guilty of not being there with her in her hard times,Guilty of talking to his dad in that tone.Hell,I am a bad son.

He ran a hand dissappointedly through his messy hairs.He felt something wet on hid cheeks and realized that it was his tears.He quickly wiped it before anybody could see it.

Boy:hey,wanna play football?

Sidhansh looked up and saw a boy maybe 12 or 13 years old looking at him with a football in his hand.

Sidhansh:sure

Maybe this could help me and distract me from all this.And also maybe I can make good memories unlike in my old home ,he thought.

Boy:My name is Aditya,I am 12 years old and you can call me Adi

Sidhansh:Sidhansh,you can call me Sid

Adi:are you new here?

Sidhansh:yeah

Adi:okay,let's go...other boys will be happy seeing you

Sidhansh just nodded at him and followed Aditya.Aditya stopped infront of the small ground and Sidhansh saw a group of four boys of same age as Aditya. But one boy seemed to be of his age.

Aditya:hey ,everyone....we have a new player

All the boys turned and looked at Sidhansh.They were quite tall than Sidhansh.If it had been any other boy accept Sidhansh,he would have been scared and ran off seeing them.Sidhansh looked at them with an emotionless face.

Rayan:Hi,I am Rayan and I am 12 years old

The boy said while moving his hand forward for a handshake.Sidhansh held his hand and handshakes.

Aman:Hi,I am Aman and I am also 12 years old

Avi:Hi,I am Avinash,14 years old and I am Aditya's elder brother

Sidhansh handshakes with both of them and also smiled a bit.He looked at the last boy who was of his age.

Raghav:Hi,I am Raghav and 10 years old....I am Rayan's younger brother,I am so happy finally I got someone of my age

Raghav grinned at him while Sidhansh gave him a small smile.He seems a sweet and funny boy.

Sidhansh:Hi guys,I am Sidhansh and I am 10 years old....nice to meet you all

Aditya:so let's start the game

Rayan:Sid will you do goalkeeping ?

Sidhansh had just once tried goalkeeping and after that he had never done because his couch wanted him to focus only on kicking and Goaling.Maybe I should try, it will help me improve my game,he thought.

Sidhansh:okay

Avi:have you ever played it?

Sidhansh:yes,I am a player in my school football team

Raghav:wow,that's so good Sid...I also want to join but Rayan doesn't let me join(pouting)

Rayan:because you still need practice dumbo (smacking him)

Raghav dramatically screamed as if Rayan stabbed him with a needle making Rayan glared at him. Others chuckled seeing Raghav while Sidhansh just smiled.A perfect distraction for me.

Adi:let's start

A heard of "yays" and "yes" were heard.The boys took their position while Sidhansh went towards the net for goalkeeping.

Aman:are you ready Sid?

Sidhansh:yes

Sidhansh looked at them while they started kicking and defending the ball.Sidhansh tried concentrating on their game but his mind was not able to be silent.Again pulling Sidhansh in those thoughts.

What if his mom was here ?Would she be happy seeing him play?Would she cheer for him like mothers would do?

His was not able to stop these numerous questions coming in his mind.He was so busy in his thoughts that he didn't noticed the ball coming his way and when he noticed it .His eyes grew wide and he titled his head so that the ball didn't hit his face.

Aman:yayyy,goal

The others groaned while Aman jumped in excitement. Sidhansh looked at them and made an apologetic face.

Sidhansh:sorry guys

Raghav:no problem Sid,I think it was just his luck

Aman rolled his eyes on hearing Raghav's comment. The boys soon resumed their game and this time Sidhansh concentrated at the game.

The first ball came and he stopped it from making a goal.The feelings,the pain which was inside Sidhansh converted into anger which he took out in the game.He continued stopping the ball but in that process he gained a few cuts and scratches.

Sid:Shehnaaz I am not able to find him

On the other hand ,Sidharth and Shehnaaz came down and started looking for Sidhansh.To their dissapointment,they couldn't find Sidhansh as he was in the ground which was outside the building.

Sana:calm down Sidharth, he will be near only....we will find him

Sid:we have to Shehnaaz, I can't lose him

Sana:we will not lose him,never

Shehnaaz heard some boys shouting and moved towards the ground where the sound was coming from.She looked at them and then spotted Sidhansh among them.

She was shocked seeing his state,He was drenched in sweat,he was breathing heavily while his knees had scratches and cuts.Her heart broke seeing the boy in so much pain, both mentally and physically.

Sana:Sidharth come here

Sidharth heard her shout and moved towards her.He was himself shocked seeing his Sidhansh in that state.His eyes had tears seeing his condition but when he noticed his eyes.He saw anger,a rage.

Shehnaaz started going to towards him but Sidharth stopped her and signalled her in a no.He pushed her on the wall and held her shoulders not letting her go.

Sana:Sidharth let me go,can't you see him in so pain

Sid:I can Shehnaaz but you didn't noticed the anger in his eyes....he is letting out his feelings in the form of anger

Sana:but this is wrong (in a cracked voice)

Sid:let him realize it himself

Sana:no(whisper)

Adi:Aman don't you think you are going hard on Sid

Aman:nope dude,it's okay....and also he himself told he was a part of his school team so he is trained

Aditya sighed in defeat while Aman again took the ball from Rayan and kicked it hard towards the goal .

Sidhansh saw the ball coming towards him in full speed.He took his position and kept his hands in such a way that he could stop the ball.He did stop it but the force from which the ball hit his chest was much more making him stumble back.

Aditya:I think we should stop now

Sidhansh:no,continue

Aditya looked at Sidhansh who stood up from the ground with a determination and a different emotion in his eyes which he was not able to recognize. Maybe anger,but why he is angry?He thought.

Avi:I think we should stop,see it has started drizzling also and soon rain will start pouring heavily

Raghav:but it's just drizzling bhaiya, please let's continue....and I am winning also

Raghav failed to notice Sidhansh's state and the reason behind why Avinash and Aditya wanted to stop the game.He was just concentrated on his game and wanted to win it.

Sidhansh:yeah guys,let's continue....it is just drizzling

The two boys sighed and continued playing.Soon they started playing vigorously and the rain started pouring heavily.Their shirts and hairs ,whole body was wet but they didn't stopped. Raghav once told to stop but Sidhansh encouraged him to play.

The rain was pouring heavily and the ground already turned too wet and mushy.Yet the boys continued playing.

Sidhansh continued stopping the ball from making a goal but in that process he was hurting himself. Maybe he noticed it but he ignored the fact.He was punishing himself by hurting himself.

Sana:Sidharth still you want me to stand here and watch him

Sidharth who was looking at Sidhansh with so much concentration ,turned towards Shehnaaz and gave her a helpless look.From that time he was looking at Sidhansh trying to figure what exactly was going in his mind.

By seeing Sidhansh's face and eyes he knew two emotions that Sidhansh was feeling - anger and guilt.But guilt of what?

Woman:Raghav and Rayan have you gone insane,why the hell are you playing in such heavy rain....come inside and other boys you too

Rayan and Raghav made a fearful face seeing their mother angry and ran behind her.The other boys followed not before patting Sidhansh's back and saying "Good player" to which Sidhansh just nodded with a small nod.

He looked infront and saw that now he was alone,all alone in the ground.He saw the football lying infront of his foot and kept his eyes on it.But his mind was somewhere else.

What if his mom was alive?He had thought that whenever he grew up he would try to find his mom and met her again.Try to make all those memories again. But now everything was ruined.His wish was left incomplete. She was gone.

Aati ho to baarish lete aana
Jee barhke rone ka dil karta hai
Rehti hai ye khwaish honthon par hi
Jab bhi ye dil mera jo bharta hai

His all wishes remained incomplete now.Now he will not be able to create those sweet moments again.Tears started flowing from his eyes and mixed with the rain drops.It seemed like the sky was also seeing the state of poor boy and crying.

Kuch khawab likhe hai khaton mein
Tumko sonp doon
Iss dard ki zameen pe main
Khudko ronp du

He kicked the ball hardly and the ball stroke the net with such a force.He clutched his head his ears not wanting to hear his mom's voice.He hadn't spent a lot time with his mom but he remembered her voice.And now those were ringing in his ears.

Waqt ki thi humse kuch narazgi
Keh na sake hum wo baatein aaj bhi
Jinko liye ho gaye hum tum juda

He so wished he had spent some time with her .He was not able to say how much he loved her,how much he missed her ,how much he regretted thinking about her in that way,so many words he was unable to speak, so many unsaid words.If only they weren't separated, he would have told all those words.

Phir woh laamhein tum lete aana
Adhe adhure jo chuthe the
Taare bhi woh saare lete aana
Jo humne dekha tha ki toote the

He wished to bring back all those time,to complete all his incomplete wishes.Sidhansh's face was red with crying but his tears didn't stopped as if today they were destined to not stop.He looked up at the sky.

He could only see two things.Rain and emptiness.

Kuch chal raha hai sath sath
Aur hai kuch thama
Gam beh raha hai aas paas
Aur hai kuch jama

He was in so much pain and shock that he was not able to think what he should do.Did he deserve this?Did he really lost his mom without properly meeting her?Is it a dream? He just wished it be a dream.A bad dream from which he would woke up.But dreams doesn't look so real.

That's the difference between dream and reality.

Aati ho toh baarish lete aana
Jee Barker rone ka dil karta hai
Rehti hai ye khawish honthon par hi
Jab bhi mera ye dil jo bharta hai

Rain was a symbol of love and happiness but today it was a sign of sadness.Only sadness.

Sidhansh couldn't control more and slumped on the ground but before he could completely fell on the ground ,he felt two hands wrapped around him.He layed his head on her chest and sobbed.

Sidhansh:why she left me naazu ?
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Yesterday I completed 1 year on wattpad💜💜...I didn't knew how time went by but I am glad that I started writing☺❤

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After so many days ,I have wrote something. Please do tell how it was and motivate me.I only know how I indulged myself in writing so that I didn't think about anything else and just wrote continuously. Fearing that I would breakdown so I didn't stopped once🥺🥺

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