*Marks POV*
I don't know how much longer I can keep this up, but I have to for the millions of people who count on me. Not stressful at all I think sarcastically. I hate forcing a smile on my face everyday, I hate fake laughing, I hate saying everything is 'fine.' But it's not. I dont want my
fans or anyone else for that matter to worry about me. I am suicidal, I haven't told anyone because I can't take the risk. I was hoping the last time I tried committing suicide it would finish me off but it didn't. People just think I can't drink alcohol, or I will go into cardiac arrest. The actual truth is I wanted people to think it was the alcohol that almost killed me. I didn't want people to know, and I still don't. I love my fans I really do, they are how I got here today. They make me smile with their happy comments and tweets from time to time but I always feel like I am dying little by little each day. I don't know how much longer I can hold out. I sigh and go to the recording studio and put on a game, put a smile on my face and said, "Hello everybody my name is Markiplier...."