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I think this is the longest chapter I've ever posted. Almost 3600 words. Enjoy and let me know what you think ❤️

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We were lying on Wooyoung's bed, his body between my arms as I caressed his back without a worry in the world. We hadn't really talked yet, but in that silence I felt at peace. Wooyoung kept looking at me, our eyes locked into the other's, never satiated with one another's sight. Sometimes Wooyoung broke the eye contact to kiss me, his lips leaning on mine with sweet awareness making my heart beat faster than ever.

"Have I changed a lot?" I broke the silence after a while.

I was afraid he wouldn't find me attractive anymore. I was afraid that those months in prison had affected my skin, showing in the end those nine years of age difference between me and him. But Wooyoung didn't even give me time to worry about all that, he firmly shook his head.

"You're thinner, but you still are the most handsome man I've ever seen in my life" he kissed my chest this time, just above where my heart was pounding like crazy.

I took his face between my hands pulling him closer, kissing his lips, trying to let him feel what I felt, I couldn't let him go, not after all those months apart. I felt like a man standing in front of a fresh spring after being deprived of water for so long. I couldn't have enough of him.

"I missed you so much. I thought you forgot me" I whispered between soft kisses.

"How could I? I was so scared, I thought I would never see you again. I felt so -" he stopped.

"So?"

"Guilty" he stated, he pulled away and lowered his head like he was ashamed for something.

"Ehy, don't! Look at me Woo, please. You don't have to feel guilty, you did nothing wrong"

"But I did!" he looked at me again and oh! those sad eyes "I was so scared that I couldn't see past my nose. But after last time, when you left, I realized how stupid I was. I hurt you, San. You were giving me your heart and I hurt you. I was so blind, so scared, I tried all I could to keep a distance, to not fall for you once again, but I just couldn't. I was so terrified I almost ran away"

"Why didn't you leave with Yeosang?"

"Because I didn't want to. The second you left this apartment for the last time I knew that I was making a mistake. I was leaving because I was scared, I thought that leaving you could be my only way to be happy but I was wrong. Only when you left I realized how wrong I was. All I need to be happy it's you, San-ah. I wanted to say sorry, I wanted you back but then your phone went off, I couldn't reach you and I thought that you really had enough of me. I called Jongho and he told me what happened and suddenly all became too real. I thought it was too late, that I lost you forever" he started to fidget so I hold him even closer.

"It's okay Woo, I'm here, you haven't lost me. I'm here and I'm not going anywhere til I payed my debt to you" I smiled against his forehead giving him another kiss.

"And how are you going to pay me back?" his eyes so serious, focusing on mine.

I observed his face meticulously. He had changed so much since the first time I met him! On his forehead he bore the signs of a maturity that once there was not. His eyes were still full of that sparkle that had me bewitched but if once he used to look at me with discomfort and hesitation now his gaze was full of calm and confidence. Looking at how he had changed made me think that the only thing that I wanted was to see more of it.

"I don't know. But I want to spend my life doing it. I want to grow old with you. I want to see you at your best and laugh with you. I want to be here when you cry and dry your tears. I want to take you to the altar and have you look at me like I'm the only one in the world. I want to kiss you, to look at you when you sleep next to me. I want to fight and make peace making love to you. I want a family with you. I want to have children with you. I want everything, bad and good, but I want it with you"

I saw tears running down his cheeks, I was about to wipe them when he pulled me in, his lips crushing against mine with voracity.

"I want that too. I've never wanted something so much in my entire life" he said pulling away for just a second, "I want you! San, I - I..."

I held my breath.

His mouth coming closer to mine once again. His warm breath caressing my lips.

His lower lip trembled against mine and then he whispered.

"I love you!"

I don't think one can describe what I felt at that moment. It was all too much. I felt too much. Something inside me exploded in thousand pieces and I felt like I just couldn't keep up with it. I couldn't express it with words so I just chased his mouth once again. He loved me. Wooyoung just said he loved me. Suddenly it felt too good to be real and I had to ask him one more time.

"Say that again" my voice coming out shaking.

"I love you" he kissed me again, his hands flying to my hair as he smiled.

"Again" I rolled our bodies and layed on top of him.

"I love you"

I kissed the corner of his mouth, his jaw, his beautiful neck. It felt like a fever dream. His skin felt so hot under my hands, the concreteness of his body under mine was the only thing assuring me that it was real. But I needed more. I raised again, going back to his lips, savouring him fully. His mouth opened giving me access as I slipped my tongue inside. We moaned in the kiss. He was mine. Fully mine. With his confession I felt like Wooyoung had given me his last piece, the one that he held with more apprehention. The one that he was keeping for himself, saving him from falling apart. And now that piece of him was mine. Mine to hold, mine to protect. He trusted me enough. He was mine and he trusted me.

And I wanted to trust him too. I wanted to be his, completely. To give myself to him, to melt under his touch, to feel him like I never did. I needed more and suddenly I felt I could give him my last piece too.

"Wooyoung" I whispered against his lips.

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He just moaned in response deepening the kiss once again. He pulled at my shirt, taking it off with one quick movement. His hands immediately flying to my now naked torso, claiming any centimeter of my skin. I followed his lead and started to undrees him too, soon his shirt was discarded somewhere in the room too.

"Young-ah" I said again between heavy breaths when his still clothed cock brushed teasingly against mine "I want you, want you so much"

He took one of my nipples between his lips sucking hard. His eyes looking at me through his long lashes as he did so.

"I want you too" he breathed out "I missed you so much! Your body -" he groaned biting down my shoulder.

"You're so," Wooyoung kept mumbling against my skin sucking and licking it "fucking," a bite to my clavicle, "big"

He went back to my shoulder to suck a hickey there, "So broad and huge," his hands moved to my waist, "all mine" he trailed his lips to my earlobe, biting gently and I couldn't help another moan to escape my lips "Aren't you, Sanie? All mine to wreck?"

I moaned helplessly, body on fire, only one though numbing my mind. And then I couldn't hold back anymore, and asked for what I had wanted since we started our make out session: "Fuck me" I gasped, "please, please. Want you to"

Wooyoung groaned, pulling away from my neck to look at me, "Are you sure?"

I just nodded frantically "Yes, yes, please! I want to feel you inside me, I want to be yours completely"

"Fuck!" Wooyoung cursed looking at me with blown out pupils "Okay"

Without even realising it I found myself laying back down on the bed, Wooyoung's body suddenly rolling on top of mine. I still couldn't believe how strong he could be when he wanted to. He pressed one harsh possessive kiss to my lips, soon moving down to my neck where he whispered: "I can't wait to be inside you, I've dreamed of it so many times"

I shivered at his words, unconsciously moaning when I felt his tongue lapping at my clavicle and slowly going down. His hand slid up to my chest tweaking at my nipple while his lips wrapped around the other one. I gasped in pleasure arching my back as my hands flew to Wooyoung's waist gripping hard.

I moaned under his breath, panting softly as Wooyoung played with my nipples, I felt my lower garments only getting tighter by the second. I slid one hand into his hair and tugged pulling him into a deep, sloppy kiss, my free hand making its way down to his waistband. I used one hand to skillfully undo Wooyoung's belt buckle, as he helped me to pull it out of its loops and discard it somewhere on the ground with a loud clatter, after which I unbuttoned his pants. I didn't even bother taking them off before shoving my hand down into his underwear, fingers groping and finding Wooyoung's cock, immediately teasing him, thumbing at the head and rubbing my hand over the length, grip tight.

I bit my lip as I watched Wooyoung's eyes flutter and his mouth drop open, length twitching in my hand and only getting harder. I stopped to help him get rid of his remaining clothes, his beautiful body at my display.

"You too" he grinned, unbuttoning my jeans.

When we were both naked on the bed Wooyoung took my wrists and pinned them down on the bed, hovering over me with a look of hunger and lust in his eyes that I had never seen before.

"Are you going to do something or what?" I asked cocky as he kept staring at me.

Wooyoung didn't bother to answer but let out a pleased little puff of air, and rolled his hips forward, his cock grinding against mine. We both groaned at the same time, hips moving against each other, raw desire emanating off of us in thick, red-hot waves. I couldn't help but clench my fists, wrists struggling feebly inside Wooyoung's hold, but not trying to escape. I knew I could if I wanted to.

But I liked it. I liked it weirdly enough.

For the first time in my life I was enjoying being held down and dominated, my hands pinned to the bed and my whole body flushed with sweat, pressed against Wooyoung's as my cock twitcheed and grew harder, precum beading at the tip. I knew I was helpless, as if I was fixed in place by phantom chains that bind me to that spot, and it felt sexy, honestly. It was the sexiest thing I've ever done, and it was definitely sparking a positive reaction in me.

"You look so pretty like this" Wooyoung moaned as he rolled his hips once again.

"Pretty?" I chuckled. Nobody had ever called me that.

"Yeah. You're fucking gorgeous" Wooyoung said, suddenly letting go of my wrists and dragging both hands down to my hips, holding me in place, "I could get off just by looking at you"

"Okay, please tell me your aren't planning on doing that tonight because I think I'll burst into flames if you don't get your fingers in me now"

Wooyoung chuckled, leaning in for a peck on my lips, "Don't worry, I promise I'll make it worth your while"

I just layed there, pliant and breathless but suddenly nervous, while Wooyoung shifted, scooting over to the nightstand and grabbing a condom and a packet of lube. When he leaned back over me, he kissed me again and grabbed an unused pillow lying against the headboard.

"Up" he tapped at my hip and slid the pillow underneath when I obediently lifted my ass.

Then with no anticipation, my legs were nudged apart, my body mandhandled and shifted around for convenience, as Wooyoung kneeled between my legs, tearing open the packet of lube with his teeth and pouring it all over his hand. I felt my cock leaking more on my stomach at that view. Our gaze met once again when I felt the touch of wet, lubed fingers on the cleft of my behind. I tensed, my breath hitching with anticipation.

Wooyoung teased me by rubbing his fingers over the area for a few seconds, but even I could tell that he was impatient, because he didn't make a single comment before sliding one finger past my rim. I gasped at the stretch, feeling suddenly overwhelmed by the feeling. My eyes fell shut as I let out a pleased sigh, my head tipping backwards.

My legs spread wider by their own to accommodate Wooyoung, and my knees bent as I pulled them out to the side, giving Wooyoung plently of room in between. Wooyoung kept looking at me, mouth agape as he slid his finger inside and out, slowly, teasingly. When he curled his finger hitting a specific spot I couldn't help but moan, at the same time he took in a shaky, deep breath, I felt my heart pounding loud in my chest as pleasure kept increasing.

"M-more" I gasped out arching my back.

Wooyoung scooched forward on his knees and then leaned his body right over mine, I gasped when I felt his free hand moving to my neglected cock and lazily teasing me with slow strokes.

"You're so sexy" Wooyoung voice came out in unsteady breaths "Could stare at you like this all day" he said before pressing a second, slick finger against my rim. He pushed it inside and I moaned. The sudden stretch slowly becoming pleasurable.

"Just like that" Wooyoung teased me, grazing my neck with his teeth as he fucked his fingers into me faster.

"Wooyoung-ah!" I found myself crying out, ass lifting from the pillow when his fingers brushed against a sensitive spot inside me, a burning wave of pleasure taking over my body "Aaaahh-"

Wooyoung mouthed at my skin, not waiting for my permission before pushing a third finger inside me, not slowing his harsh pace even for a moment. I shuddered and my thighs twitched, fisting at the sheets, eyes shut and mouth wide open in a silent moan.

Fuck. This feels good.

I was completely lost in my pleasure as I heard Wooyoung's voice calling me. His pace slowing a little bit.

"I can't hold back for long. You think- you think you ready now?" he whispered against my ear.

I nodded, almost desperately, as I felt my thighs shaking harder "Please!"

Wooyoung groaned and pulled his fingers out with an obscene squelch, quickly moving his slick hand to rub his own cock. He was about to roll on a condom but I stopped him.

"No, I want you raw. Want to feel you" I gasped breathless.

"You'll be the end of me, Choi San" Wooyoung answered before he kneeled in front of me, tip nudging against my stretched rim.

My hips rocked forward unconsciously and then Wooyoung was pushing inside. I moaned, long and high-pictched, the tear in the corner of my eyes falling as I closed them in pleasure.

"Open your eyes" Wooyoung instructed, voice raspy and breathy.

I blinked my eyes open, bottom lip trembling as I stared up at Wooyoung, completely dazed.

Wooyoung moved both hands to my hips, holding me firmly as he rocked his hips forward experimentally, a sharp whine escaping my lips. He repeated the motion, and I really couldn't keep my eyes open, not when every sensation was heightened and my whole body on fire, trembling beneath Wooyoung.

"Mmh, look at you, Sanie" Wooyoung moaned, smoothing his hands over my sides, "So fucking good for me"

I couldn't even register the words, too busy trying not to fall apart in three seconds. My mouth perpetually open, soft moans being punched out of me with every forceful thrust by Wooyoung's hips. My chest raising and falling from exertion even though all I had been doing was lying in place and taking everything that Wooyoung could give me. I felt my legs shake, falling wide open as Wooyoung fucked into me with perfectly-timed thrusts of his hips, pressing into my sweet spot every few seconds and sending shocks of pleasure through my veins.

I whimpered in place, hands gripping the undersides of my own thighs and lifting, forcing myself into a slightly more uncomfortable postion just so that Wooyoung could fuck me faster. My eyes blinked open, seeing nothing but spots for a few blurry seconds, but when they came back into focus, I felt my cock twitch and my mind spiralling into disarray just because of how sexy Wooyoung looked. His eyebrows were pinched in complete focus as he stared down at my lower body, his lips parted, showing off the mole on his bottom lip. His dark hair was slick with sweat and plastered to his forehead, and his biceps flexed as he held my hips in a grip so tight that I felt numb in the area.

I couldn't help it when my hips started pushing into Wooyoung's desperately, searching for pleasure that he gave me so selflessly. My toes curled as I bucked into Wooyoung's thrusts, off-rhythm for most of it, but I couldn't really care when I was being railed mercilessly into the mattress.

"Fuck," Wooyoung groaned, moving one hand to my cock, thumbing at the precome that leaked from my tip, "I'm gonna come soon" he moaned.

"C-cum inside me" is all I could say, almost begging.

Wooyoung's thrusts went from measured to rough, the sudden change tearing a moan louder than anything else from my wide open mouth, voice breaking at the end as I shuddered under him, "Oh god, Wooyoung, Wooyoung!"

"Fucking knew you could scream for me" Wooyoung said, smug as he fucked into my pliant body over and over again, "Let's make all the neighbours angry, shall we?" He challenged, and I cried out, hands falling away from my own spread legs and moving to fist at my own cock, pushing Wooyoung's hand off.

Wooyoung took it as a victory as he positioned his now free hands securely on the curve of my hips, the pads of his fingers pressing into my skin and took me apart with reckless abandon. My almost-screams echoing in the walls of the dimly lit room. And that's when I felt it, the heat in my lower abdomen becoming unbarable as I felt my hole clenching around Wooyoung.

"San-ah, making me f- feel so good," Wooyoung groaned, "So good for me, baby"

"Woo- ah! I'm g'nna come" I whined, jerking myself off in time with Wooyoung's harsh thrusts.

Wooyoung just nodded "Go on, come for me"

That's all it took for my legs to kick out and my head to fall back, my cock leaking white as I made a mess all over myself, whimpering and crying as Wooyoung fucked me through it, making me see stars. I trembled, the shudders wracking through me seemingly everlasting as I clenched around Wooyoung and my mouth opened in a whiny, tired moan.

"Young-aaaaah -"

"Shh, I've got you" I heard his voice whispering, gritting his teeth as his hips sped up and stuttered, a moan leaving his mouth as his head fell forward. I felt his cock twitch inside me before a wet explosion filled me. Wooyoung's hands tightened on my body, finger-shaped marks already blooming on my skin. I watched as he bit his lip, eyes shut tight as he rode out his high.

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I raised one hand to caress his head while he laid on top of me, breathing hard.

"It felt good" I chuckled.

"I'm glad! We should switch more often" he smirked before he left a soft peck on my lips.

"Wooyoung-ah" I called him as he moved away from my body.

"Mmh?"

"I love you" I said.

A beautiful smile appeared on his face as he lowered once again to kiss me.

"I love you too" he whispered there "I'll get a wet cloth to clean you up"

I just nodded. A new feeling growing inside of me.

If this is what happiness feels like I don't want it to ever end.