Billy's POV

Since it's Saturday, there are fewer students here in the campus compared during week days. But still, I have to be careful. Ilang beses akong nagpalingun-lingon. Baka may makahalata kasi na minamanmanan ko si Joy. O ang mismong babae ang makapansin.

Pumasok ang babae kanina sa unang subject n'ya ngayong araw. At base sa text message na pinadala sa akin, dalawa lang ang klase nito kapag Sabado.

Truth is, I'm getting bored now. Paubos na nga ang batt ng cp ko kakalaro ng ML. Even my power bank is depleted. Yet there's still about half an hour left for me to wait before Joy's freaking three-hour lab class ends.

Tsk! Wala lang kasi akong magawa ngayon. Ganitong lilipat ako sa grupo nina Ariel, coming from a rival group, madami silang inuutos sa akin. Utos na kadalasan ay para naman sa girlfriend nitong si Chelsea.

It was like an initiation. To test my loyalty and patience. Well, to have a lap dog, as well. But I know, it's only for the meantime.

Once I'm totally in sa grupo nina Ariel, saka ako gaganti sa dati kong grupo. Those fucking hypocrites kicking me out as if they don't cheat on their girls. Those bastards!

Bigla kong naalala si Raisa, then shrugged.

Yeah, she was the reason. My ex-friends are closely affiliated with Ethan's group. They chose that jerk over me.

What can I do? I was just a man and I really have a thing for Raisa. We shared a kiss a couple of times nung bago pa lang sila ni Ethan. They weren't that serious yet so ayos lang. Uso naman sa sirkulo namin ang palitan ng karelasyon, kaya maraming grupo ang magkakaaway o may tahimik na iringan. But when Raisa told me that she is beginning to fall for the guy, I distanced myself. I like her alright, but not the type I would bring to the altar. The fuck, wala pa sa isip ko yun. It's just that I know how to respect feelings, kahit pakiramdam ko, hindi ganun si Ethan sa kanya.

And I was right when it was her who called and asked me to drive her back to her dorm that night last sem. Nag-away raw sila ni Ethan over some petty stuff that she couldn't control her hand slapping him in front of her friends. Galit na umalis ang lalaki, kaya naiwan s'yang walang kapareha doon sa isang private resort na pag-aari ng pamilya nang isang kaibigan nina Raisa at Chelsea.

Although her friends knew that Raisa was bordering infedelity, hinayaan nila ang kaibigan nang magpumilit na umuwi na lang sa dorm kasama ako. I think they just couldn't say something bad about Ethan dahil maliban sa karelasyon ito ni Raisa na pumapangalawa sa ranggo ng sorority nila, Ethan is the leader of one of the biggest student organizations here Ampton U. Di lang dahil sa pangingilag, but Chelsea and her girls think he was their group's trophy being Raisa's boyfriend. At pakiramdam ko, doon na-in love si Raisa. Sa prestige bilang girlfriend ni Ethan, hindi mismo sa lalaki. Truth was, they just got together beginning of first semester of this school year. Ethan was someone else's boyfriend from another group.

And I wasn't even surprised when she started sobbing in my car.

"I can feel it, Billy. May iba nang pinag-iinteresan si Ethan. He was sweet to me only on our first month."

Muntik ko nang sabihing, "May bago ba?"

But I kept my mouth shut. I know we could both have a night together. Alam ko ang galawan na ganito nang isang babae. She wanted a man to boost her ego tonight.

But I understand her fears. Many girls at Ampton are superficial. Importante ang social status. Masakit na maisampal pabalik sa mukha ni Raisa na iniwan rin s'ya ni Ethan. for another girl. Yun kasi ang tipo nang mga parinigan nilang mga grupo ng babae dito. As if they were on a mission to tame Ethan na kung magpalit ng karelasyon, akala mo, klima lang sa Amerika. And whoever gets to keep that asshole on a leash, moreover make him marry her was like a lifetime goal for these girls.

Sheeesh! What a bunch of idiots!

But I admit. Yun din naman ang umakit sa akin para sumali sa mga orgs dito. To keep my name relevant kahit papaano. And if lucky, para maiangat ko pa ang sarili sa kinabibilangan kong antas.

But of course, I like 'meeting' girls, lalo na dito sa Ampton. Most of them rich and with brains... but still idiots!

Napapailing na lang ako. Papaano, itong si Raisa. Magpapakamatay na lang, nandamay pa. Hindi man lang binura ang convo naming dalawa sa messenger n'ya. Or at least, ni-log-out yun sa phone n'ya bago magbigti.

Naipit tuloy ako kaya ayan, tinalikuran ako ng tropa.

Although she didn't mention it, the baby in her tummy was mine. Yun ang hinala ko pati ng mga nakaalam sa itinakbo ng imbetigasyon sa pagkamatay n'ya.

I still remember the last convo she had with Ethan sa text message naman. Pinabasa yun sa akin kasama ang pamilya at abogado ko.

She sent him multiple SMS for two days but didn't get any reply at first.

Than, pakisagot naman ang tawag ko.

Galing ako sa dorm mo, wala ka. No one knows your

whereabouts. Imposibleng di alam ng mga kaibigan mo!

Umuwi ka na ba, babe? U not attending the closing party

with my friends?

Nag-PT ako kahapon, I got 2 lines. Than, samahan

mo 'ko bukas sa OB para sure.

I went to the OB. Positive talaga, babe. 7 wks.

Ethan naman. Lagot ako kay Daddy. Papaano ako uuwi nito

ngayong sem break? I'm getting nauseous na. I threw

up this morning.

Not my problem.

What?!

Okay, let me rephrase. Not my baby. You

should contact the real father.

What are you talking about, babe?

Don't make me laugh, Raisa. Alam ko

ang mga kalokohan mo.

I don't understand, babe.

I counted, Raisa. We never had sex 7 or 8 wks

ago. Also, I was breaking up with you that

time. Ikaw lang ang nagpupumilit na

ituloy pa natin.

Damn you, Ethan! We did it last month

without protection!

Yup, last month. That was only 4 wks ago. You

said it yourself. 7 wks ang tyan mo. I think,

alam mo nang buntis ka that time but you wanted

me hooked. If you want to, I can call him.

Ano'ng pinagsasabi mo?

Just two days ago, your child's father got drunk with his

friends who happens to be my friends, too. He got

himself so fucking drunk and high with weeds he

talked about you and him. With action and

all how he banged you in his car twice. It came

out from his mouth, sweetie. He creampied you because you

were both too drunk to put on condom and he was so proud

saying he doesn't like withdrawal. Some peeps from

St. Benedict and Princeton can attest to that.

Doon natapos ang text message exchange nila. Hindi na sumagot si Raisa. But the bad part was the messenger convo we had which incriminated me about her death. Ayun nga, inaway ako nito. I knew about the video. Even admitted to her about it. But of course I defended myself, too, that I was drunk. Totoo naman ang mga sinabi ko. And even berated her for being a cheap meat. She wouldn't be in my car if she hadn't called me, right?

I got plenty of cursing from her dirty mouth.

But she didn't mention anything about being pregnant. Luckily, she didn't. Baka kung ano pa ang masabi ko. At nasabi ko nga sa dati kong mga kaibigan. Na kung nalaman ko nga, I'd tell her to abort the baby. Well, the fucking hypocrites got mad at me.

Di na raw ako nakuntento na tinalo ko si Ethan at mabuntis ang gf nito. May gana pa raw akong magsalita nang ganun patungkol sa pinagbubuntis ni Raisa gayung patay na nga ang babae.

Di ko inaasahan na ganun ang gagawin ng babae kung pagbabasehan ko ang puro pagmumura na inabot ko sa chat namin, dahil ilang beses kong kinansel ang tawag n'ya.

Amputa kasi, sigaw nang sigaw nung sinagot ko ang tawag.

I was lucky I was in Surigao during the sem break, and my alibi checked out since I got proof from the airlines, and my IG posts confirms it, too.

Nag-vibrate ang phone ko.

Tawag yun. Si Chelsea. Tsk!

"Hello?"

"Ano, kinausap na ba nina Kyla?" Ariel's bitch immediately said.

"Hindi," nakasimangot kong sagot.

This bitch is very much in competition with Kyla's group. Wala naman silang mapapala kay Joyful. She's not rich, not even that intelligent. Naging popular lang ito dahil sa pagkakatuklas kay Raisa.

"How about that transferee? Di ba kinausap si Joy?"

Napangisi ako.

"Wala nga. Don't worry, kapag nilapitan nung transferee, ako ang bahala."

"Sinabi mo yan, Billy ha? Yan na lang pambayad mo sa naging atraso mo. We won't tell Ethan about you and Raisa. That you might be the father."

My jaws clenched. Users and blackmailers ang mga puta!

Partida, di pa alam ng mga ito ang totoo. They got no freaking idea that Ethan knew it buhay pa man si Raisa.

That was our sacred vow. Whatever was said and done within the group, stays within the group. Na hindi makakalabas sa iba ang tungkol sa amin ni Raisa at Ethan. At yun din ang pinakamalalang dahilan ng away namin. Nakarating kay Ethan ang video ko. Oo, sabihin na nating alliance namin sila, pero syempre, iba pa rin dapat kami sa mismong grupo. Kahit sa St. Benedict at Princeton pa, okay lang, basta main group. But all of them gave a nod to let Raisa's bf know.

They betrayed me for that Ethan asshole.

Only that, some info were already out. Like she was pregnant but Ethan was not the father. A lot were asking who the third guy was.

I pocketed my phone after that call. Mahaba pa ang oras. Bumaba muna ako para bumili ng maiinom sa cafe. Plano kong maghintay sa ibaba na lang. Dun sa siguradong dadaan si Joy mamaya. My task is to know if Kyla's group would invite her to join the group. Chelsea couldn't afford to let Joy join her rival after the big possibility that Kyla already got the favor of---

"Kapag sinuswerte nga naman," napangisi kong bulong sa sarili.

I jogged following the van that just passed by. Although hindi na naman bago ang mga katulad n'ya sa mga universities gaya ng Ampton, I just didn't expect her here. She never mentioned about it. Reason I went back to see her again and again because she wasn't the drama queen unlike the others. And she's good. But after sometime she left without a trace.

At dito pala uli kami magkikita!

First time I saw her here was two days ago. May naghatid sa kanyang lalaki pero di ko namukhaan. Aside from he was wearing a sports jacket and bull cap, I was on the other side of the parking area allotted to students staying in dorms. Bitbit nito ang may kalakihang bag at isang katamtamang laki na box. I guess a new 'steady boyfriend'?

Lumawak ang ngisi ko dahil saktong bumaba ang babae mula sa driver's seat at binuksan ang sliding door ng van. Baka may kukuning dagdag na gamit or something.

She was on her knees on the van floor reaching for something under the last row of the seats. She didn't notice me approach so I got a good look of her rounded buns dahil nakatuwad ito. That muscle between my legs flickered seeing her smooth legs as she is only wearing an A-line denim mini- skirt. Halos makita na nga ang kuyukot n'ya. I did a quick look inside the van. It looks customized. The middle row seat is detachable. In fact, it isn't there now so there's a big space inside.

A nasty idea came into my head. I squeezed her buns with my left hand, then grope that flesh between her legs with my right.

"Ay!" ang gulat na sabi sabay lingon.

I smirked in my mind. She didn't even kick involuntarily which is a normal reaction sa isang babaeng hinihipuan.

"Hey," nakangisi kong bati.

Tiningnan n'ya ako nang masama dahil lalo kong idiniin ang mga kamay ko sa kanya. Tinapik n'ya yun.

"Huwag ka nang magpakipot, Sandy... or should I call you by your real na--"

"Shut up!"

Napangisi ako sa tono n'yang may tagong takot, "Alright, I will but..."

Tinulak ko na s'ya papasok nang tuluyan sa van. Napadapa ito sa flooring, kasunod ako sa loob saka isinara ang sliding door.

"Ano ba?!" angil n'ya at nagtangkang bumangon.

"Easy....ssshhh..." bulong ko sabay dapa na rin sa kanya. "I won't tell anyone about your dirty little secret... basta ba...."

"Putang ina!" gigil-bulong n'yang sabi.

Mabilis ko kasing inangat ang palda n'ya at nilamas ang maumbok na pwetan. I held the back of her neck and press her down the floor so she won't be able to move much.

"You're a bit thinner now, Sandy girl..." paanas kong bulong sabay dila sa tenga n'ya, at ipinasok ang isang palad ko sa harapan ng panty. "But I like it. Your butt and boobs are more emphasized."

"Ooohhh..." she moaned as I bit her shoulder then massaged her clit.

Nawala na ang panlalaban n'ya sa pamamagitan nang pagpilit na makabangon. In fact, she even lifted her butt to give my hand space between the van flooring and her pelvis. That made her behind give a sensual nudge on my hardened cock.

I let go of the back of her head. I slid my hand under her crop top, lifted her brassiere so I could knead one breast. Umangat na rin ang kamay n'ya para kumapit sa batok ko, kaya inangat ko na s'ya. She was kneeling on the floor, like me at her back, as I enjoying touching her in every part I know she'd like.

I inserted my middle finger in, alternately rubbing her slit. She gasped deeply, sabay napasabunot sa buhok ko. I took that opportunity to kiss the side of her neck.

"H-huwag mo akong markahan d'yan...oh...ahh...shit..."

"Alright...Kiss me then," I ordered.

Pumaling s'ya para magtagpo ang labi namin kahit papaano. I almost ate her mouth and cheek.

"Sandy baby...your wet...so soon..."

Yeah, I still know how to fire her up. How could I forget?

It was her who taught me how to. She was my first. The escort whore gifted to me by my cousin for my high school graduation. Kaya nga hindi ako makapaniwala na naririto ito at nag-aaral. Ang tantya ko kasi ay mas matanda s'ya sa edad na sinabi sa akin noon.

I was seventeen then. She said she was nineteen.

I think, totoo ang kasabihang hahanap-hanapin mo ang una lalo at nag-enjoy ka. So I secretly looked for her without telling my cousin.

And I found her. I was eighteen that time. Her handler was a greedy pimp. Charged me a lot for getting 'Sandy's' service for a week as my lady escort during a vacation.

The best one week vacation I had. I'm not fond of studying but that one week her being my 'teacher' was quite 'educational' and full of fun.

I put two fingers in and pump them in and out of her faster.

"Billy...oh shit...add a f-finger... Aahhh... " padaing n'yang hiling.

"Okay... but keep your moans down, baby," I whispered. "We're at the campus' parking lot."

Alam kong mahihirapan s'ya. Sandy is loud at sex. I actually like that, but with my recent sexcapades, my libido gets crazy when my partner is suppressing her moans as if silently sobbing.

It gives me the feels that I am superior.

"Aaah....B-billy... putang.. ang sarap... shiiit..."

I had no choice but to cover her mouth. I got more excited when I felt her warm breath trying to escape from my palm. Lalo at pilit n'ya yung inaalis.

"Sshh... let's enjoy this quietly, babe," bulong ko sabay kagat sa tenga n'ya.

I made her cum first in my hand. I love feeling her legs shaking. Saka ko ibinaba ang panty n'ya hanggang tuhod. Took my dick out of my pants and teased her pussy.

"B-billy... time out m-muna. Mapapasigaw na a-ako...Oh... putaaah... aah..."

Wala na s'yang nagawa nang marahas ko s'yang kinadyot. Then hugged her across from the back with one hand pinching her nipple. Then covered her mouth again.

"Fuck... fuck... Sandy... masarap ka pa rin..." bulong ko.

Yeah, maybe I really missed her. Oh no, not maybe. I really do. Kaya nga sobrang pagpipigil ko sa excitement nang makita ko s'ya dito sa Ampton. Kahit malaki ang ipinagbago n'ya sa lampas isang taon na di kami nagkita, alam kong s'ya yung nakita ko two days ago dito rin sa parking.

I just couldn't approach her because of the guy helping her with her stuff from this van to her dorm. Maybe she already found a guy whom she could milk and make her dreams come true.

I bet the poor guy knew her background but still chose to ignore it and send her to school. The bastard doesn't know that he's sacrificing a lot for a girl I'm enjoying to fuck now... and she's enjoying it herself.

Hindi ako nagsisisi sa mga sinabi ko noon kay Sandy. Kapag nagkataon, ako ngayon ang nasa posisyon nang bobong syota n'ya ngayon.

Sa kabila nang pigil n'yang pag-ungol sa bawat paglabas-masok ko sa kanya, di nun napigil ang pagdaloy ng nakaraan namin...

"B-billy, akala ko ba, hanggang bukas pa tayo nang gabi dito?" tanong n'yang nakaupo sa gilid ng kama.

She was naked because we just had our first round when I had to answer my phone.

"Sorry, Sandy. I need to go. P'wede ka namang magpaiwan. I already paid for our stay until tomorrow. I'll just schedule a grab or car for hire to pick you up then drop you off back in Pasay."

Nasa isang maliit na resort kami sa Cavite.

"Uhm, huwag na. Uuwi na rin ako. Sabay na tayo."

"I can't, Sandy. Didiretso ako sa Pasig."

"Eh... kahit sa—"

"Look, my girlfriend called. She wants to reconcile with me. So—"

"M-may girlfriend kang i-iba?" may kumislap na hinanakit sa mata n'ya.

"Yeah. And just one. Just her."

"A-akala ko..."

Mahina akong natawa, "What? You thought... wait, Sandy. Tell me what kind of a stupid guy pays his girlfriend after screwing her up?"

A tear rolled her cheek.

Napabuga ako ng hangin sa bibig, "Sandy... try to understand. You're old enough. Actually older than me. Don't believe in fairy tales. My family belongs to the upper class... while you...look in the mirror and ask yourself. You will find reality."

More tears welled out of her eyes. Something in my chest hurt but I'm just being honest and fair. She has to stop hoping. Praktikal at realistic lang ako. I'll bang her alright, but won't get into a serious relationship with her.

I hugged her and she cried on my chest.

"Sandy, no offense meant. This is your job, right. And you are my favorite because you were my teacher," malumanay kong sabi.

I try to be careful with my words with her. Sabi nga ng mga kaibigan ko, never anger a woman in love. They do crazy stuff.

Sandy might tell people I know, especially my parents about us. About me hiring her services on multiple times. That'll definitely tarnish my family's reputation. Patay ako kay Daddy at Mommy!

But she knew for a fact that she's the only whore I hire now. I tried two other girls before but I came back to Sandy.

Pero ibang usapan yung mga nagiging fling or girlfriends ko. Sa kanila ko ginagawa ang mga natutunan ko kay Sandy.

I rubbed my palm on her bare back, "Wasn't that your job's number one rule? Don't fall or expect from your clients?"

She didn't say anything but she stopped crying.

Suddenly, I felt her coldness. I guess she was really hurt, but is getting back into her senses. But still, I don't like it. It was like in a snap of a finger, may nabago kay Sandy.

"I'm sorry, Sands," malambing kong sabi. "Always remember, you will always be my favorite girl. And whatever I know in bed, I owe it to you."

Ayokong mawala ang espesyal na trato nito sa akin. Oo, nararamdaman ko naman yun, and taking advantage of it. But I made sure, that I treat and pay her well as she should be.

Isinantabi ko ang planong umalis agad. Sandy and I had another round that night, then drove her back to Pasay where her boarding house is.

I just texted my girlfriend na male-late ako since alam nitong nasa labas ako ng Metro Manila.

Napangisi uli ako nang manginig na naman mga hita nii Sandy. I felt that I already got even with the unexpected envy and jealousy I felt towards her new boy toy.

Yet, I want to cum, too. But I don't have to say anything anymore.

Sandy took control.

"Dun ka," bulong n'ya then pushed me to sit on the last row seats at the back of the van.

Saka nagmamadali kong ibinaba ang maong pants ko. And without any further ado, she straddled me, taking my whole length. And we were looking at each other's eyes when she did that.

Napabuga ako ng hangin sa bibig.

I won't deny it. Sandy is still the best sex I had. Bigla ko ngang nakalimutan ang tungkol kay Raisa ng mga sandaling yun lalo't ginawa ng babae ang paborito kong paggiling n'ya sa posisyong ganito.

Pero dama ko na bagaman ganun pa rin ang galaw ni Sandy, may naiba. She doesn't look at me like before. Maybe she does it to her new guy. I can't blame her though. But I couldn't control the silent jealousy that crawled onto my ego.

I don't like looking into her eyes so I put my attention on her breast bouncing behind her shirt. Obviously, nawala na sa puwesto ang bra n'ya kaya inangat ko na lang ang tshirt then alternately suckled her nipples., while I played one thumb on her clit.

She moaned again then grinded.

"Aahhh... fuck...puta ka, ang sarap mo...shit..." magaspang kong nasabi.

Halos mabasag ang bagang ko sa pagpipigil na di mapasigaw. Nakita ko ang patagong pagngisi ni Sandy. Gumaganti ito sa akin!

"D-don't ... oohh fuck... bitch... don't fuckin' grind... holy shit... "

Kasabay nang sinabi kong yun ang pag-ungol n'ya. Tinakpan ko ang bibig nito. Sinamantala n'ya yun para bilisan at bigatan ang pag-angat -baba n'ya sa kandungan ko.

"I'm cumming... you bitch... ipuputok ko sa loob...holy fuck!" gigil-bulong kong sabi.

"Sige l-lang, Billy.... aaah... tang'na ka... ayan na uli ..ako ...ayan na.... "

"Baka magbuntis--- Oh...Ooohh... fuck! Aaah...!"

That was the only thing I was able to say because she shuddered again on top of me for another release. It just triggered something in me that I cum inside of her.

We were both panting. After a few minutes, saka s'ya umalis sa kandungan ko at inayos ang sarili. So I fixed myself as well.

"Sandy..."

She stopped combing her hair then looked at me with questioning eyes.

"What if you get pregnant?"

Di s'ya umimik, basta kinuha ang bag n'ya sa ilalim ng front row seat. Ewan ko kung ano ang inaayos n'ya doon bago inilagay sa driver's seat.

"Sandy?"

"Oh?"

"Ano na?"

"Huwag kang mag-alala. Hindi kita guguluhin," kaswal n'yang sagot.

"You'll abort the baby in case...?"

"Hindi mangyayari yun."

"Tsk! Bakit mo kasi idiniin? I could have withdrawn it. Sandy, di pa ako pwedeng... tsk! Ayokong maulit ang nangyari kay Rais--"

Mabilis kong naitikom ang bibig ko. Pero huli na. Naintindihan agad nito ang dapat ay sasabihin ko base sa pabiglang n'yang lingon sa akin.

"Pag-usapan natin. Dito ka lang," ang kalmante n'yang sabi.

"Bakit hindi pa ngayon? At... saan ka pupunta?" kinabahan ako bigla.

Baka gamitin nito ang nalaman laban sa akin.

"Don't worry, Billy. Hindi ko gagayahin ang ginawa mong pamba-blackmail sa akin kaninang nakabukas pa ang van na ito."

Natahimik ako.

"Babalik ako. Dito ka lang. Aakyat lang ako sandali sa taas. Huwag ka munang bumaba."

"Bakit? Baka makarating sa boyfriend mo na may lalaking lumabas sa van n'yang gamit mo matapos nitong yumugyog nang yumugyog?" sarkastiko kong sabi.

Ewan ko, naiirita ako nang maalala ang karelasyon nitong sumusuporta sa kanya ngayon. Lamang, mukhang nahimigan n'ya yun. Isang malamig na tingin ang binigay n'ya.

"Ano ang pinagkakaganyan mo ngayon, Billy? Di ba ikaw ang may sabi na ang meron tayo noon, trabaho lang, walang personalan. Hindi na mauulit ang nangyari ngayon."

"Mauulit, Sandy. Isa lang ang baraha mo ngayon laban sa akin. Dalawa ang hawak ko. Ang sikreto mong trabaho at ang nangyari ngayon na pwedeng makarating sa naloloko mong mayaman."

Isang patagilid na tingin ang binigay n'ya bago, "Hintayin mo 'ko. Mag-uusap tayo sa labas ng campus."

She turned on the air-conditioner the fixed the car freshener. Well, she knew how to cover the smell of sex in the van. She carried that medium size travelling bag before totally closing all the doors.

Agad akong humilata sa last row seat ng van. Napahikab ako at pumikit. Bigla akong inantok ah. Maybe after a few minutes, bigla akong napadilat.

Shit! Nakalimutan ko si Joy. Baka nakalabas na sa klase n'ya.

Ano'ng oras na ba?

Sa gilid ng flooring ko nakita ang cellphone ko.

Fuck! Empty batt!

Bumangon na ako para mag-charge sana sa van at tingnan na rin ang oras, pero nakaramdam ako nang matinding pagkahilo. I reached for the side of the van for support but I missed it. The last thing I knew was I felt my head hitting the floor.

The severe cold was what woke me up. Thing is, it's so dark wherever I am now. But I'm sure. I'm naked. I can feel the rough and damp flooring, I guess, on my bare back. I want to hug myself for some warmth but couldn't move. I can't even talk.

I'm tied like a frog ready for dissection, with a fucking duct tape wrapped around head covering my mouth!

Suddenly, I felt terrified. Lalo at pumasok na sa sistema ko ang amoy sa paligid. The smell of mold, fungi and bacteria. Amoy nang nabubulok na mga kahoy, tela, papel at kung anu-ano pa sa kulob na lugar.

Bigla akong napaisip. Ano ba ang nangyari? Nasaan ba akong huli bago makatulog?

Sa van! Si Sandy! Si Sandy ba ang--

Napakislot ako nang may bumukas na pintuan sa bandang uluan ko. Nagkaroon nang kakarampot na liwanag mula sa labas. Hindi ko magawang tumingala. Naka-strap ang ulo ko sa kinahihigaan kong.... mesa?

Hindi, isang dispalinghadong papag!

Nagwala ako pero wala rin. Ako lang ang nasaktan sa ginawa ko. Mahigpit ang pagkakatali sa mga kamay at paa ko sa bawat gilid ng papag.

Gusto kong isigaw sa pumasok kung bakit n'ya ako dinala rito.

"Ssshh..." ang sabi nang pumasok sabay hinaplos ako sa noo.

Lalaki. Boses lalaki.

Nakatanaw ako ng pag-asa. Maaaring nakita n'ya kung sino ang nagdala sa akin tapos ay naghintay ng pagkakataon para pakawalan ako.

Nataranta ako nang marinig kong lumayo ang mga yabag n'ya sa akin. Sumisigaw na ako pero puro ungol lang ang lumabas na tunog. Parang sasabog na nga ang ulo ko dahil naiipon lang sa lalamunan at bibig dala ng duct tape.

Yun pala ay nagsindi s'ya ng kandila. Actually, mga kandila.

Saka bumalik ang matinding takot sa akin. Alam n'ya kung saan nakalagay ang bawat sinisindihan.

Hindi s'ya naririto para iligtas ako!

Nagwala uli ako. Hindi ko na pinansin ang sakit na dala ng mga tali sa kamay at paa ko. Dahil naging malinaw sa akin ang kinalalagyan ko dala ng ilaw galing sa mga kandila.

I am tied lying on that old wooden bed encaged in a big and thick wire mesh!

Napatigil ako sa pagwawala dahil lumapit s'ya sa akin. Pilit kong inaaninag ang mukha n'ya pero di ko makita nang maayos. Nakatago ang mukha n'ya sa anino dahil nakatalikod s'ya sa mga kandila. And he's wearing a baseball cap.

May hinugot s'ya sa ilalim ng kama. It looks like a glass canister. But when he opened it, I almost puked.

The smell was like spoiled cheese and meat.

I started shouting in my mind and inside my fucking taped mouth when he poured whatever was inside the canister into the cage. On me, particularly all over my groin area.

I think my wrists and ankles are bruised and bleeding as I continue to wriggle wildly to get me out of the stupid ropes. And I've been cursing him all out. Killed him in my mind!

Lumabas uli s'ya. I thought that was it. But I was dead wrong.

When he came back, I realized why he poured that nasty stuff on me. Kung kani-kanina ay minumura ko s'ya sa isip at sarado kong bibig, ngayon ay nakikiusap na ako.

Tears started rolling my face. I even peed. Because I can hear the squeaking of what's inside he carried from outside.

I can't ... I can't die like this!

He opened a small door on top of the cage then drop all thebig  rats from the smaller cage he got.

Naamoy ko ang panghi at baho ng mga yun dahil sa mukha ko lahat bumagsak.

"Enjoy," he said.

I started squirming and shouting as I hear their small feet scurry towards the lower part of my body. They immediately got attracted to the rotten smell!

I think my lungs are going to explode as I scream in horror when I felt the first bite on one of my balls. Then another... and another... I already lost count.

God, kill me now! Kill me now if no one is coming to rescue me!

The fucking bastard was just standing beside the wooden bed. I can't even tell if he 's smiling or not. And I don't fucking care anymore.

All I know is the pain I am feeling now in my groin and inner thigh. My throat is so painful as well dahil sa kasisigaw na hindi ko mailabas.

Somebody kill me now, please!

The asshole walked away, I thought to totally leave but he did not. Kumuha lang ito ng upuan at kampanteng pumuwesto ilang dipa mula sa akin. Nanood.

I can't do anything. All I know now was my body is twitching and writhing in pain. Sa nanlalabo kong ulirat, taimtim akong nagdasal.

Sana... sana barilin n'ya na lang ako sa ulo. Isang mabilis na pagkamatay.

Pero wala yatang Diyos ngayong gabi. Tumayo pa nga ang hayup para buhusan uli ako ng laman ng canister sa tiyan ...paakyat sa dibdib ... leeg ... at mukha.

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