A/N: Hey guys its been almost a year and honestly @themsarcasticgirls inspired me to start posting again. I've been applying for colleges and I would like to share my personal statement with you all. Its something very private, very raw, and a piece i am super proud of. Thank You

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Hushed murmurs of disgust, pokes to my supple flesh, decaying self-confidence, faltering grades. 51% of girls 9 and ten years old feel better about themselves when they are dieting. I was that 51%. Family pressure, social pressure was partly to impute. But I was perpetually told that the most prominent culprit was myself. "Mirror Mirror on the wall who's the biggest of them all," and with every trembling gasp, the response was always me. I genuflected before a porcelain altar, emptied the contents of my abdomen: the last refuge, an all-time low, a wail for guidance. Angry tears sprinted down my face as I was foaming at the mouth. The ground beneath me began to tremor. My body protested, convulsing as I gasped for air.

I had been suffering from Body Dysmorphia and BED for as long as I remember. It was when I turned nine that I retreated towards diets, The 21 Day Fix, The Military Diet, K Bars, Fat-Free Yogurt. I was doing everything right, wasn't I? And yet, plumper I grew, cruel figures on the scale multiplied. Diets, my Golden Fleece. Low-Carb bread, my Ambrosia. The scale, my Holy Grail. I became fearful of eating. As I grew older I became paranoid about checking food labels; I avoided eating if it was not less than 150 calories. Ultimately, that fear turned into bitterness; I begrudged my body for making me an outsider.

They say that the only thing that rivals my appetite is my curiosity. So for the first time in my life, I felt a pang of hunger, not for burgers, but for answers. I began to surmise that there was a more comprehensive scheme at play. In the next three years, I tore every study ever made about the food industry. In 2006, major beverage makers agreed to eliminate sugary sodas from school vending machines. However, an intense lobbying effort persuaded lawmakers to allow sports drinks and vitamin waters that offer the same amount of sugar as their soda counterparts! You would think that groups such as the Center for Consumer Freedom would have nothing to do with the food industry, on the contrary, the CCF has lobbied aggressively against obesity-related public health campaigns. This is not limited to one directed at removing junk food from schools, which ironically enough was funded by donations from big food companies such as Coca-Cola and Wendy's.

As my knowledge began to develop further, I came to the realization that we live in a society that profits off our obesity and struggles. Moreover, for that, we must fight, and what better way to do it than fighting this injustice one case at a time. I want to find a way to help men and women like me. I want a solution that will not allow anyone to feel the way I did; nobody deserves to feel that grief and resentment. With my ambition to major in Biology and Political Science, I hope that one day I can discover a way to prevent or even stop big businesses role in matters that concern our health and food through law.