I was tagged by @slytherinleo but I have already answered those questions a million times, so I decided to do 5 things I have learned this year. I know this year hasn't ended yet but today is my birthday so I thought I'd just make the best of the being tagged.

1. Not all parents are good parents. Oh boy this year has made me really appreciate my parents no matter how strict and demanding they can be. I have watched parents do horrible things to their children this year, and I don't just mean physical abuse, but mainly mental abuse. Though I am not going to go into details about what I witnessed, let's leave it at this some people are simply not mature enough or mentally in the right place to be parents. PERIOD.

2. You don't know anyone. Now I have always known that people have facades, hell I have several, but I didn't know how well-crafted these facades could be. For me facades have always been, "she looks so happy and confident but she is really just falling apart". But that is nothing, people keep SO MANY SECRETS. Literally people create the allusion of perfection and chastity, perhaps even innocence and low and behold they are the EXACT opposite and 100 times worse. And I don't judge people, infact I take pride in that, but do you really need to lie to everyone? No one really cares if you didn't really go to Greece last summer or if your mom is dating someone or if you are not really vegan but are only doing it for the views, like don't lie about that stuff.

3. Be Confident enough in what you are doing that you don't have to lie about it.  This is pretty much the same Idea as number 2. Being inauthentic is SO not worth it. It just makes you feel bad about yourself, and I am saying this from experience. And hell the truth is going to come  eventually, so just screw it all and be honest. 

4. Your the only person that can help yourself. I will probably dedicate a whole chapter to this subject eventually, because this realization in its self was essential to my recovery from my lovely array of mental illnesses. So many people tried to help me with my eating disorders, with my depression, I wanted people to help me. I wanted to avoid making the changes in my life that I needed to make to be happy. Honestly I have said this all before, whether you like it or not you are stuck with yourself forever, so get your sorry butt outta the damn door and do something with your life. I threw myself into my education and my body detoxification and worked my butt off and it gave me things to be proud of. I lost 15% body fat in 7 months and I was on top of my grades. It was so hard. I can't tell you how many time I cried. How many times I jus wanted to end my life, give into my weaknesses and die slowly. But boy was it worth it, it gave me a sense of pride that till this day makes me smile when all I want to do is curl up in a ball and die.

5. The best way to keep a secret is to tell no one. I am not going to explain this one, I already explained it in the last chapter. 

Honestly, this year was an overall good year, it was complicated, happy, sad and everything in-between. I met some amazing people, I met some not so amazing people, but that is life man. And yeah it ended on a sour note, but I intend on making the most of whatever comes next.

Here is a B-Day selfie. Am I over the top? Yes, very much so. Happy Birthday to me!