Five Days

Five days of unending pain, suffering, nightmares, helplessness, and depression. Deep down I still blame myself for the death of my parents. Maybe if I had been more alert, the police would have gotten there in time to rescue Regina and I.
Maybe if I had not left the necklace I would have already been out of here at least for Regina's sake.
Speaking of Regina, she was rushed to the infirmary after Judith and Rosa - Sally and Natasha's matron- were called by the guards to tend to the group of teenage girls 'constituting nuisance' in their words .

Ever since then, the doctor said she is suffering from RTS (Rape Trauma Syndrome) . She has been going through what the doctor described as 'Supression' meaning she refuses to speak about the rape. She also suffers from insomnia and keeps shouting and screaming during the nights, she has lost so much weight and refuses to eat anything. The few times we had convinced her to try and eat, she vomitted.

The doctor administered some sedatives, that would help her sleep, but since she hasn't taken any solid food, we haven't given her the drugs to avoid the risk of complicating the situation . When I look at her, I forget that I am also a victim of a cruel rape.

Sleep had long departed from me. I spend my nights singing songs Dad and I both loved to listen to, this only made Regina cry more, but for some odd reason I couldn't stop. John Legend had always been Dad's favourite artist but Mum was more of an old classic song type of person, ranging from Celin Deon, Boyz to men, Lionel Richie and the like.

We were both detached from the world we now knew, but I was more alert than Regina and could actually carry on conversations. Judith had been trying to make us feel better and she had failed miserably so far. I figured there was no point holding a grudge against her,as she is still the only ticket we have out of this dump.

Natasha, Darnel and Sally occassionally came to our rooms to try to cheer us up, but that never worked and we always ended up consoling each other. Escaping was the only topic we talked about anytime I got together with the girls, after our crying fits: that is. There are so many girls in this organisation and Judith said we would only be needed once a week, and I was prepared to do anything before it would be our turn. Thursday today, meant we had only two days to come up with something.

The door swung open, revealing a pale looking Natasha, a moody Darnell and a cheerful Sally. Wait what?? cheerful

"How's Regina doing?" Darnell asked.

"Same" was the only logical response I could give.

Regina was quietly sleeping on her bed. Today was the luckiest we had been, during the last few days. She had eaten some cereal without throwing up, making it easier for Judith to slip in the sedatives in her water glass while she ate. So you could say this was the first time she had slept in five days.

"Why do you look so happy?" I asked Sally.

"I finally have a plan that I think can get us out of this place" she beamed.

I was far from excited, how could that work after I blew the only chance we had?.

"We are so many, how can we get out unnoticed?" Natty asked

It was true, we were a total of five girls and Judith, she always said she wanted out but never had the chance to leave, so she would also be joining us making us six.

"Well here's what I was thinki....... " Sally began to say but was cut off when Regina abruptly started screaming. I gently stood up from my bed and went to meet her. She seemed like she was struggling in her sleep. I tried to keep her hands in place while the girls had gathered around her bed trying to comprehend what was going on.
She was thrashing her hands round the bed, her legs kicking in the air.
Her right hand had left my firm grasp forcefully and was clawing at her neck, She was gasping for air. Her screams became louder

"Leave me alone!!!!"

"Leave me alone you bastard!!"

"Noo!!"

"Noo!!"

"Please don't!!"

"Not again Please!!!!"

Suddenly she stopped screaming.

OH SHIT!!!

She was shaking.

The tears I had held back for days after the promise I made to myself, started flowing like a broken dam. I didn't know what to do. Darnell and Sally ran to the door and began banging, asking for help. Natasha and I tried to hold her down. The first thought that came to my head was to hit her across the face and I did.
I don't know if it was a good idea or not, but she began screaming again and asking for help.

"Regina!!!"
"Regina!!!!"
"Wake up!!!!"

I hit her again across her other cheek. Tears had began falling down her eyes and it looked like she was struggling to keep her eyes closed. I began saying soothing words to her to assure her that she was not with that bastard but she was safe with me for now.

If she is to go through such abuse one more time, I dont think she'll make it through, this just increased my drive of escaping from this devil's lair even if I don't make it, at least Regina will.