I feel like I'm being raised to be a target or some runt to be slaughtered. To be make a fuss over because I'm apparently so fragile when I'm out of your sight. I feel like all I learn all day at school for the past couple of years to not act like my self.  Don't even do things that I used to vent or even pass the time. I feel like I can't draw without seeing my hard work be ripped to  pieces or even beat box or make a sound without getting punched somewhere. It could be my throat, chest, stomach or anywhere. Or I feel their words burning into my mind and the encounters replaying over and over. 

I feel like I'm not good enough most of the time. I've never gotten A's like Lauren or even know what I want to do with my miserable life in the future. I feel like I'm destined to be alone only to be joined by the next bullies in my life.I feel like no one will every really get me and feel like I can never go out and have fun.

 I feel like maybe tonight something will happen. A rare gift a chance to enjoy myself without bullies.