"Those who are so far gone"

"far gone"

the cold words echo chillingly,

for have they not applied to me?

I shiver as cold realizations

sink in.

Gladly my pride has already been broken

So no, that is not what hurts.

Just the cold fear as the thought opens of

how little shelter I deserve..

A dark void opens up beneath

filled with abyss..

it's cold and deep..

I'm flailing..

Trying to stop myself from failing

When I've already failed

I feel my heart drop.

the fall is steep-

Until I remember,

I desperately feel..

The firm, gentle grip

of the Arm that still holds me,

-the One never shortened nor unable to save-

having lifted me out,

forever upholds me.

I see Light

through my tears

stop looking down into the deep,

down at the way I'm falling short -

to His Love

I lift my gaze up..

Lord Jesus

Holding me up still

He always has,

He always will

and I'm held.

Safe and sound inside His Hands.

By His Grace

I'm being lifted.

darkness fading into distance,

the void is far beneath now.

and I never have to worry

nor fear ever falling in

For the Truth is here that nothing

can snatch me from His hands.

Indeed, no matter how dark the pit or deep, I have security

Forever in the Hands that hold and never will drop me.

I was so far gone

Yet Secure in His Arms

I am safe.

Feeling the warmth of Grace replace

the chill of my iniquity.

Broken yet still held together-

I know my pieces are forever

held

in Healing Hands.

I lost my worth

yet I am valued,

loved and cherished in His Heart.

yes it's true I'm so completely helpless

But with the Spirit I'm always helped.

Need not fight to hold myself together; rather trust and,

Just be held.

We don't have to worry that we can't,

when we know we can't

and He does it for us.

I can't keep myself from falling,

I can't hold myself up.

I can't escape from the deep flaws of my iniquity,

I'm not enough.

(I'm safe through Love.)

while

my desperate attempt fails me

and my waning strength forsakes me

I'm never left, nor once forsaken, by the One who truly Saves.

Pushing through my iniquity

forever comes Your Security.

helpless, I'm helped

undeserving but held.

no, I'm not perfect

but with my Perfect Savior

I'm perfectly safe.

I'm Saved by Grace

and Safe through Mercy.

(so unenough

and yet so loved)

I must stop leaning on my worth, myself,

The walls that crumble down

And just lean on Him,

Who is Greater than all

The Solid Steady Rock who,

-as I lie there through my dizziness-

never sways nor shifts.

No need to depend on how good I am

Just lean upon my Savior

Securely held in His Strong Hands.

Safe at His Mercy alone.

And when I look away from me

I find I've found Security-

Not in worth,

Not in self,

Not in flailing attempts,

But in Mercy and Grace

Inside Christ's embrace

I'm safe.

Past the darkness and the chill

I see a dawning realization

I'm engulfed in a new sense of peace

a Safety that was always present

just never fully seen

As my eyes widely open to the awfulness of my transgression

Through waves of tears I finally see

Perfect Security that has never depended on me

And what a comfort it is indeed!

With the sobs I suddenly realize

Just how tight He's holding me.

As He thaws me from the coldness

I finally know the warmth.

Painfully aware or the extent of all my brokenness

I shelter in His Perfect Peace.

I suppose I had to feel and know the terror of my iniquity

Lord, in order to appreciate the comfort and the safety

of Your Wonderful

and Unconditional

Security.

Oh Great Praiseworthy Savior..

Those who are so far gone

are Saved

by You.

And yes, I was indeed far gone

And yet, I'm Safe

with You.