"MY HUSBAND, MY SOUL MATE, my friend, and the father to our adorable children. He was known as the fierce, hard-working and sexy - yes, sexy businessman, Eric Morgan. To me, he was my baby, my love, my darling, my boo, my world. I was his Queen, superwoman, babe.

Being with him, It skipped my mind that he was a public figure, someone known around the world, someone who graced magazine covers and granted interviews. Because to me, he was my sweet husband, my confidant, loving father and partner.

I remember the first time we met, like it was yesterday... Sorry, excuse me."

I use a tissue to clean the tears that have rolled down my cheek.

"I was his first girlfriend, and he treated me like a queen. We had been married for more than a decade now, that seems like such a long time, but I had hoped for forever. He was always there for me, listening to me and loving me. He always reminded me of how beautiful I am and how lucky he is to be my husband. We had hoped to grow old together and do this thing called life together..." I sniffle.

I hear applause, but the more I speak, the more I'm reminded of the hurt in my heart, and now I just have to remind myself to be strong.

"He was a doting father, a father that was hands-on and present. He's not a movie person, but for us, he was ready to sit and watch, each and every scene attentively, He had a tender heart. I wish Elixir, had grown to understand what an amazing father he had, but we will always keep your memory alive.

I don't have the strength to continue with my speech, but before I go, I would like to say, I miss you - the kids and I miss you. May you rest in peace and have fun in heaven, until we meet again my love.

To the others who were in the jet with Eric. Seth, His pilot and Jade, the Co pilot. The flight attendants, Kris his personal assistant. I want to say, we will miss you all, you won't be forgotten, and we love you all, rest in perfect peace... Thank you."

I exit the podium, the people in the audience clap loudly, and I see some still sobbing. I walk as fast as I can to my seat and once I get there, my kids embrace me and I hold them tight.

Eric's memorial, is such a success. I'm so glad that everyone came to celebrate him and pay their last respects. But, my heart is still hurting, I've been unable to sleep or eat. I keep reminiscing and thinking of our last moment together.

Eric, how do I take care of these kids alone? How do I, do life without you?

I feel the tears rolling down my cheek and Eli uses his small hands to wipe them, and he hugs me tighter.

"Are you okay?"

"Yes I am, thank you sir"

"I'm Eric Morgan and you are?"

"I'm June Parker, nice to meet you"

"The pleasure is mine."

I remember this day, the very first time I met him. I remember how soft his palm felt against mine. I remember how his eyes connected with mine. I remember, I remember how warm he made me feel.

"Please don't hate me baby, please"

"I don't have the heart to hate you June - am I hurt, yes - but I can't hate someone I love so much... I just need some time to myself to think this through".

Even after I cheated, he still loved me. He never hated me, he still wanted me, he was willing to give me a second chance. Willing to raise a child who isn't his flesh and blood as though she is.

"Oh June... How are you holding up sweetie?"

I look up, and I see an elegantly dressed woman, who looks to be in her late 50s or early 60s. I can't place her face, so I just smile and stand to my feet, with Elixir on my hip - clinging to me, like a monkey.

"I've been better." I force a smile.

"Oh honey... I'm Mrs Lancaster, I'm your husband's friend and business partner. I know how it feels to lose a loved one, especially when that loved one is your husband. Someone as amazing and dear as Eric. I'm really sorry for your loss, it was a great blow to us all." she has a sincere smile on her face.

"Thank you."

She looks down at Elixir on my hip, who is still clinging onto my dress.

"Hey sweetie... Such a cute little boy, he looks so much like Eric. We have a little reminder of him here with us."

"Yes we do,"

"If you need any help, please don't hesitate to reach out. Don't be a stranger. Please promise me."

"Yes ma'am. I will. Thank you."

She pats my shoulder and walks away. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding.

Octavia takes the kids to her house, I needed sometime alone.

I rearrange Eric's clothes and shoes, in fact his entire closet. I take in deep breaths of every shirt I fold before placing it back in it's place. I decided to leave his belongings exactly where they were. I am having a hard time dealing with his death and controlling my emotions.

I go to sleep in his clothes, that's the only way I can sleep at night. Nothing makes sense any more, it feels like my world has been turned upside down.

I feel like I'm not supposed to be happy. Anyone I get close to, I damage. Kyle's gone, now Eric. Maybe I'm destined to be alone, and unhappy.

But then again, they are in a happy place.

I hope they're still friends in heaven.

I miss you Eric and I wish I could see and hold you, one last time...

"June?"

I frown and look up, towards the door.

I see a smiling Cécile.

She looks so beautiful and healthy.

"Cece!"

We hug and cry into each other's shoulders. I try to console her, and she tries to console me too.

We walk out of the closet and into the kitchen. I bring out a bottle of red wine and some glasses, pour some wine into our glasses.

"I miss him Cece, every day."

"He's in a better place June. He's looking out for us, he always does."

I nod.

"He will want you to move on June."

"I can't Cécile. I can't."

She nods in understanding.

We talk about some memories we shared with Eric and laugh about the funny ones.

"I'mseeingsomeone." Cécile rushes out.

"Pardon?"

"I said, I'mseeingsomeone."

"Slower!" I giggle.

She takes in a deep breath and her face splits into a grin.

"I said I'm seeing someone."

"Omg! I'm so happy for you Cece!"

She laughs.

"Who's he? Give me the dets girl!"

She tells me all about him, how they met, how many dates they've been on. He has even met Junior - who by the way, has grown so much.

I zone out of our discussion, as Cécile is still talking animatedly about her new beau.

I love you Eric, and you'll always reside in my heart. I don't think I can move on, I don't think I can let you go. I miss you so much! Rest in peace my love, till we meet again.

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