My love life was completely out of control. Why do I feel jealousy? I should not feel jealousy! But she looked so damn good. And she is his wife.

I opened the door to my apartment and all I wanted to do was taking a shower and hole up in bed for the rest of the day.

I threw my car keys on the small Kitchen counter and propped my arms on and took a deep breath.

„Where have you been all night?"

I winced, my heart was beating up and I turned around.

„Jimin!" I had to swallow, heat rose up and for sure my cheeks and ears were bright red.

„I came here early this morning, wanting to wake you up and have some breakfast with you, because I wanted to talk to you , but our bed was unused. So, where have you been all night?"

„Jimin .. please don't... not now!" I wanted to get to the bathroom and walked past him, but he held me back by my arm and pulled me close to him.

„Where... have... you .. been last night Joy!" his face close to my ear. I smelled his perfume wich he always uses. I felt the warmth of his body through my thin dress.

„I.. I don't have to tell you anything okay?!" I tore myself away from him and  tried to walk past him again. But he managed to hold me back again. But this time his grip was firm. He duged his fingernails into my flesh.

„ Jimin....!!!! You are hurting me! Stop it!"

„FUCK JOY!!! you better not have left your phone here. Who is he?"

„What do you mean?" I tried to free myself of his harsh grip on my arm.

Jimin reached into his pocket and pulled out my phone. He opened the screen and showed me the messages Tae and I were texting. I didn't saved him with his full name. Instead I used the clown smiley.

„Who is he?" Jimin held my phone in front of my face . I looked at him and my eyes filled with tears.

„ Fuck why Joy why?" he leaned his forehead against mine. His grip on my Arm tightened.

„Let go of me Jimin!" I whispered.

„Who is he?" he asked again.

I didn't want to tell him I was spending the night with my Boss.

„Jaejin!" shot out of my mouth.

He let go of me and nodded.

„So Jaejin Hmm?" he said softly and I could hear the tremor in his voice.

I rubbed the spot on my arm where he held me so tightly.

„Yes!" I whispered knowing that was a lie.

I had barely spoken and he screamed and threw my phone against the wall. I winced and my phone broke into pieces.

He grabbed my wrist and pulled me into the bedroom. Jimin positioned me in front of the mirror he bought me when we moved in. He put me in such a way that I could see both of us in the mirror.

„I'm going to asked you one more time Joy! Who?"

He turned my head a little , pushed my long dark hair aside and I saw a big fat hickey on my neck.

I sobbed, should I say the truth? Was I better than him? Where the heck we ended up? We once loved each other . Do I still love him?

„As far as I know.. Jaejin is Gay or am I wrong?"

„Jimin please!!!" I started to cry.

„Did he satisfied you?"

„Jimin stop it!"

„Did you enjoyed it?" he whispered. Tears running down my cheeks .

.........................
Days later....

‚The number you have dialed is currently not available!'

„Sweetheart where are you?" I haven't been able to reach you for days!"

‚Message not delivered.

„Jaejin, have you talked to Joy lately?" Taehyung hoped that at least Jaejin knows something about Joy.

„No Mister Kim. Nothing for Days and her work is pilling up on her desk!" he pointed with his finger at the stack of paper on Joys desk.

„Have you tried her home yet? I mean you know where she lives after you forced me to...!"

„She never would open the door for me!" Taehyung sighed.

„Oh please .. don't Tell me I have to take the fall again.. what's wrong with you all?!" Jaejin rolled his eyes and turned his attention back to his laptop.

Taehyung grabbed the stack of documents on Joy's desk and left.

.................

„Babygirl, you really need to eat something!"

Jimin pushed the bowl of jjajangmyeon across the table.

„I don't want though!" and I pushed it back to him.

„Come on ! You haven't eaten in Days !"

„When you are going to moveää out finally, Jimin?" I got up and went to the kitchen counter to get some water.

„ This is my place too!" he said and slurped his jjajangmeon.

„We broke up . Remember!" I felt bad, sick, dizzy and I felt like I was going to throw up.

„No Babygirl, you broke up!" Jimin stood up and came over to me.

I propped myself up against the counter because I felt like I was about to faint. I didn't ate something since days.

„Joy, you really don't look healthy! Why aren't you eating?" I heard his worries in his voice.

„Jimin please I ..!" before I could even end the sentence someone was knocking on the door.

„ Damn eat something, Joy!" he said and went to open the door.

„Hi .. uhm.. I think you know me!"

I immediately recognised the voice. My heart was pounding like like crazy, adrenaline shot in every corner of my body.

„I remember!" said Jimin nodding. „You Are my Girlfriend's Boss!"

I gulped, wanted to die on the spot. I took a breathe and headed for the door. Placed me behind Jimin, who turned to me.

„Mister Kim...!" but he cut me off.

„Joy .. could I .. are you okay? Would it be possible.. five minutes?!" Tae stammered around. In his Hand a stack of documents.

„Come on in!" Jimin stepped back a bit and made a hand gesture inward.

„Can we talk outside..?!" Tae looked at me pleadingly.

My heart was about to jump out of my chest. I could feel my pulse racing. I knew he wasn't here because of my job.

„Jimin!" I whispered.

„It's okay Babygirl!" and Jimin let me through and closed the door behind me.

„Joy!" Taehyung tried to stroke my arm but I Backe away.

„He can watch us through the cameras! Don't!"

„He's back?"

I nodded.

„I see!"

„Did you tell him about us?"

I closed my eyes and saw the moment with Jimin in front of the Mirror.

„You left me a fucking Hickey that he saw!"

„Joy .. does he know that I was ...!"

„No Damn it! I believable told him I made out with a random guy in a bar!" I could hardly keep myself on my feet. I felt worse.

„Why are you here Tae?" I muttered and took a deep breath so I wouldn't throw up.

„Joy you look sick! What's wrong?" he came closer and I backed away a little.

„ Go back to your wife Tae. I already feel miserable because of that. So please go home to her!" I was about to turn around and go back into my apartment when he held me back.

„She's not my wife!"

I closed my eyes and squeezed my lips together.

„Joy she's not my wife. That's why I am here. Let me explain!"

„Like I said. We are not a couple so you don't own me an explanation!"

„We got married on a stupid bet!"

I gulped. „Tae please don't !"

„We were drunk college students playing a stupid game and making a fucking stupid bet. I lost and the bet was a wedding. I don't know why Roa is here now and ..!"

„Tae please!" I felt my legs not wanting to hold me any longer straight.

„Roa knew I don't love her and the next morning I wanted to annul the marriage , but..!"

„Stop it Tae!" I reached for his hand on my Arm and brushed it away.

„Go Home Tae. Jimin is waiting for me. I forgave him!" why I was lying? Nothing was forgiven.

„ I don't love her , Joy. I just love... ok nevermind!"

I just left him standing there. Wouldn't hear any more and went back to Jimin. He was sitting on the Couch. His arms resting on his knees. His head bowed.

„Eat something Joy." he sounded serious.
Then he stood up and grabbed his Jacket and was about to leave.

„Where to?" I asked.

He didn't look at me, stopped for brief moment. He turned his head a little over his shoulder but didn't looked at me.

„Eat Joy!" the he left the apartment.