You walked towards Sirius' house and sighed. Molly and Arthur explained everything about the Order. This was a horrible idea. Voldemort would want to know everything about this.. you couldn't go there.. but you had to. You walked inside and saw Sirius, Lupin and Tonks waiting for you.

'Welcome guys!' Sirius smiled. 'Come on in.'

You looked around and sighed. You forced a smile on your face.

'The bed rooms are upstairs! Go and put your bags away.' Lupin said.

You walked upstairs with the rest. Fred and George immediately entered the first the bedroom. You, Hermione and Ginny took the next one. You sighed and set down on one of the beds.

'Looks like we're going to have go share a bed, Y/N.. you're fine with that, right?' Hermione asked.

You looked up and nodded. Hermione sat down besides you.

'Are you okay?' She asked. 'You've been so quiet.. I know it must have been horrifying for you. You can always talk to us.'

You just wanted to say to hear that you really couldn't. That you had to leave. But you didn't.. You couldn't. You just nodded.

Ginny and Hermione got into their own conversation and you got up and left the room. You knocked on Rons door and walked in.

'Hi Y/N.. how are you?' He asked.

You shrugged and sighed. Ron walked over to you and gave you a hug.

'I can't be here.. I should go.' You spoke softly.

'Why?' He asked. 'What's wrong?'

'I.. I think certain people are following me and know I'm here.. know what I'm doing. I don't want to bring you all in danger.'

Ron let you go and looked at you.

'You won't Y/N.. who do you mean?'

'Lucius.. you-know-who might not be back but he still wants to kill me. If he knows that the order is here we'll all be doomed.'

'You shouldn't worry to much. You should be worried if he was back. He might be.. I don't know who to believe.' Ron sighed.

You sighed and sat down on his bed. You almost wanted to tell him but you didn't. You laid your head in your hands.

'I can't do this..' You mumbled to yourself.

'You can't do what?'

'I'm sorry Ron but I can't stay here.'

You got up and walked out of his room. You turned back at the stairs.

'Tell Harry that I'm okay.' You said.

You hurried down the stairs and Ron ran after you.

'Y/N! You can't just leave!'

Molly and Sirius hurried out of the room and saw you hurry towards the door. Sirius grabbed your arm and stopped you.

'Where are you going?!' He asked.

You turned to him and looked at Molly and Ron. More people started gathering in the hallway.

'I'm sorry but I can't be here.. I have to go. I'm bringing all of you in danger. Lucius is watching me. I know he is. I can't be the reason that your plans fail. Tell Harry I'm okay. I'll take the knight bus to some other place.'

Sirius let you go and Molly hugged you.

'We promised you your welcome at your family. We're not letting you go. You belong with us here. Lucius won't be a problem. We will protect you.'

You let her go and took a step back.

'That's very sweet of you but you can't protect me anymore. I can't..' You leaned in towards her ear. 'He's listening..'

You stepped back.

'Who dear?' She asked softly. 'Lucius?'

You shook your head. Molly looked at Sirius.

'I'm sorry I lied to you.. but I'm being watched.. I can't be here.'

Molly looked at Ron and Ginny.

'Get her bag..'

'But mom-' Ron said.

'Listen to me.' She said.

Ron and Ginny walked upstairs. They came back with your stuff. Ron hugged you and you hugged him back.

'I'm sorry..' You said.

'It's him.. isn't it?'

You nodded and let him go. You grabbed your bag and walked out of the door. You were dead... so dead. You sighed and continued walking. This was never supposed to happen.. your life was basically ruined.

Then you suddenly realised something..  Dumbledore and your parents knew this.. all this time they knew and they never told you.

Before you couldn't even think about it again, the knight bus stopped in front of you. The door opened and someone stepped out. He opened a paper and started reading.

'Welcome to the knight bus. Emergency transport for the stranded witch or wizard. My name is Stan Shunpike and I will be your conductor for this evening.'

He put the paper away and grabbed your bag.

'You got in, I'll get this for you.'

You stepped into the bus and looked around. There were some people sleeping in the bed. You sat down on one of them as well and looked up.

'Here you go, that's your ticket.'

'Thank you.'

'Where You going?' He asked.

'The leaky cauldron, in London.'

'Take her away Ern!' Stan said.

'Take it away Ernie!' A head in the front of the bus said.

The bus started driving. The bed collided into each other. You held your bed tightly and looked out of the window. You hated the knight bus. Luckily it travelled fast.

After being almost being slammed into a few widows you arrived at the leaky cauldron. You got out of the bus and sighed. You walked inside. Everyone was already upstairs. Your bags were brought towards your room. You looked around the room and sat down on your bed.

-

You stared at the Hogwarts express and swallowed. You walked inside and were already mentally preparing yourself for what would be coming. You looked passed the compartments and saw one with Willow, Jacinda and Amneris. Amneris waved at you and you walked in.

'Hi guys.' You sighed and you sat down besides  willow.

'You should probably know that your father is pissed off because you left the order and told him he was back.' Amneris said.

'Amneris!' Jacinda sighed.

'What?!' She hissed.

'Guys seriously. Stop.' Willow sighed.

'I already guessed that. I'm not going to go down this path. I probably shouldn't even be seen with you guys.' You sighed.

'We're the only once who understand you.' Willow said. 'Others will never get it.'

'Besides, being death eaters is awesome.' Jacinda smiled.

You looked up and saw Draco outside your compartment, talking to some friends. You got up and opened the door. Draco saw you and he walked away from his friends. You ran towards him and hugged him tightly.

'I'm so glad you're okay... he's so mad at you-'

'I know..' You said.

You stepped back and kissed him deeply. He kissed you back and pulled back shortly after that.

'I'll come sit with you.' He smiled.

You nodded and you two walked inside.

'Look, it's the two lovebirds. You got some balls Draco. Dating the daughter of the dark Lord.' Jacinda said.

'Technically I started dating her when she was a Y/L.' He answered.

'She has never been a Y/L.' Willow interfered.

'She's right.' Jacinda said.

Draco sighed.

'I love her. Isn't that the most important part?' He asked.

Jacinda laughed.

'What?' You asked.

'Nothing.. nothing at all.'