Hi!

So this was an idea of Harrypotterfan015 . I know I told you that I wasn't sure when I was going to write it, but then I thought: I'll just write it.

Second of all... I didn't know that it was possible to make myself sad by writing... It just happened... Help me...

Anywayssss.... enjoy!

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POV Draco

After my last class I walked towards the common room. I was by my self since I the others had different classes then I did. I wondered whether or not they were in the common room already.

Today was a mess. The first class really ruined everything. I never meant for me and Y/N to become partners. It's really inconvenient. She keeps worrying about me and I want it to stop. I mean...she doesn't have a reason to worry about me. I entered the common room and found my friends sitting on the Lether couch.

'Hi Draco!' Pansy smiled.

I smiled back and joined them on the couch.

'How are you? You seemed a little bit upset after potions.' Gregory noticed.

'It's nothing... nothing you guys have to worry about.'

In fact it was something. I was lying to her and to myself. I needed her... I wanted her to worry about me. I wanted her as my girlfriend... I didn't want her to be upset about me. I lied that I was over her... of course I wasn't over her. I can hardly move on. Not that I have anyone to share this with. I kept our relationship a secret, just like I promised her.

'Draco... you're not okay... what are you thinking about, what's wrong?' Pansy asked while grabbing my hand.

Was it that obvious?

'I'm fine, stop worrying.'

I told Y/N the exact same thing... This time I meant it. I don't want their worry, I want her worry. There was no way I could ever get over this girl. She's not the only one who's worried.

Yes my dad hit me, yes Voldemort is pissed off. But that isn't important. What is important is that Y/N survived that death curse... she's being hunted by the Dark Lord and I can't protect her anymore.

'Draco... you don't alway have to act so... so tough. Tell us what's wrong.'

'Nothing is wrong! Just stop it.' I yelled while getting up.

I sighed and almost ran towards my room. I slammed the door and sat down on my bed. I closed the curtains. I covered my face with my hands while I tried to fight the tears.

I am a bloody Malfoy... I'm not supposed to cry, especially not about a girl. Beside, we've only dated for a short amount of time. But in that time I felt like I was loved for once in my life. One tear managed to escape. I wiped it away in anger as I heard the door open.

'Draco? It's me, Vincent. Do you want to talk?' He asked.

I sighed and opened my curtains.

'What's wrong? Ever since potions you've been acting weird... is this about Y/L?' He asked.

Could I trust him? Did I even want to trust him? Would he tell anyone? I sighed. You know what, I'll just tell him.

'It is... you know, I dated Y/N last year.'

He looked at me in confusion.

'You dated a Gryffindor?' He asked.

I nodded.

'But we broke up because of some reasons and now I'm partners with her but we've been through so much that I just can't get over her. I lied to her and to myself... seeing her again is more difficult then I thought it would be.' I sighed.

'It will stay difficult for a while... does she still like you?' He asked.

'I think so.'

'Then why don't you guys get back together?' He asked.

I sighed.

'We can't... It's better like this.'

Vincent got up.

'Come and join us to the lake, get your mind of things.'

I nodded. 

'Please don't tell anyone, because if you do, I will kill you.'

'I won't.' He sighed.

I got up and walked with him. My friends looked at me in worry.

'He's fine, little bit stressed out.' Vincent smiled as if it was nothing.

'Ow... okay? I guess? Let's go to the lake.' Pansy smiled.

I walked with them towards the lake finding the one and only Y/N Y/L and her friends... great... exactly what I needed right now. Y/N looked at me and butterflies exploded in my stomach while my heart just started crying because it lost her. She wanted to get up but her friends wouldn't allow her.

'Vin-'

'No, we're staying.' He whispered.

We sat down underneath a tree and I couldn't help but look at her. She didn't laugh when her friends did, she didn't join in with the conversation, she just sat there staring at the grass. I really hurt her... I broke up with her so I wouldn't hurt her, but maybe I caused more harm then when I was still her boyfriend.

'Should we have some fun with those stupid Gryffindors? it might cheer our good friend here up.' Gregory smirked while grabbing his wand.

'Yeah... let's see.' Pandy grinned.

I looked at the Gryffindors. Y/N was helping Ginny with her potions homework.

'Draco! Make her wand explode.' Pansy laughed.

'I don't know-'

'Come on! Do it!' Gregory pushed.

I grabbed my wand and before I knew it I said: 'Expulso.'

She let out a small scream as her wand exploded in her hands. Please tell me I didn't hurt her...

My friends started laughing and I just joined to make sure I wouldn't have to do it again. Y/N looked at me with an angry look. I can't take this... I got up.

'I'm going to grab something from my room. Be right back.' I lied before walking away.

When I almost entered the dungeons someone grabbed my wrist. I turned around and saw Y/N.

'Is this how we're going to treat each other?!... huh?!'

'I don't know what you're talking about.' I spoke while putting on my emotionless face.

'So we can't be friends or lovers... so you'll treat me like your enemy?! I much rather have you pretend that I don't exist!' She said while tear came up in her eyes.

She has to go away! I didn't want to make her cry, I've made her cry enough. She has to leave me alone... I want her to get over me.

'That's going to be a little bit hard around here.' I sighed. 

'O really?! You are the one who moved on already, so it shouldn't be a problem for you!' She almost screamed.

'Will you keep it down! Listen to me, my friends decided to tease you guys, not me. Can't you just leave me alone?! Is it that difficult for you to just walk away right now?!' I said before realising it.

She stepped back a bit and looked at me.

'Why can't you just get that I'm not over you... why can't you just see that I can't walk away and stop caring. I'm trying okay! It just won't work!' She spoke.

A tear rolled down her cheek. She wiped it away. I didn't show it from the outside, but on the inside, I was dying. I made her cry again. Gosh I'm such an idiot. I stepped closer and wanted to wipe another tear from her cheek.

'Don't touch me... I'll leave, but I want you to know that if you want to play the game of us being enemies, you better prepare youself.' She said before turning around and walking away.

That did it for me. I couldn't hold it back any more. I ran into the common room towards my room and I collapsed on the floor while tears streamed down my face like waterfalls.

What a girl can do to a boy... my chest hurt and I couldn't get the image of her crying out of my head. I knew I was crying... but I hardly made any sounds. I just sat there on my knees with my head in my hands.

At that point I wished I wasn't Draco Lucius Malfoy, the son of the richest pure-blood family and the son of death eaters that are trying to kill the one I like... love even. At that point I'd much rather be a mudblood with normal parents who was able to date the girl who was being hunt down by the Dark Lord. If that was the case I could protect her.

I never thought that I would wish to be a mudblood... It would be better then a death eater. I wiped my eyes and got up. I motioned towards the bathroom and threw some water in my face.

I never expected life to become so difficult as soon as I would go to Hogwarts. I sighed and walked towards my bed. I sat down and looked at something to take with me. I told my friends I was going to get something. That was maybe a bit stupid.

My eyes fell on my Slytherin emblem. I forgot to wear it today? How stupid. It put it on and left my room. I saw my friends waiting impatiently.

'We're hungry! Let's go!' Vincent smiled as soon as I arrived.

I followed them towards the great hall. We sat down at the Slytherin table. Food was already there and Vincent immediately started eating. I sighed and grabbed some food... I just wasn't hungry at all..