* thanks to the ones who helped me come up with a few ideas. i'm going to try to mix all of the ones from different people together. once again, thank you. you know who you are.❣️

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i nervously look up at valerie, "dude... the venue is supposed to open in like 3 minutes. i'm so nervous."

"bitch me too. don't remind me about it."

"how can i not remind you about it.." i shake my head, "we are literally in line. people are blasting the newer songs that we probably won't hear today. everything around us is about stray kids... it's all a reminder that we are seeing them."

"okay listen," valerie holds up her hand, "no need to get technical with me."

i shrug my shoulder which makes her roll her eyes, "you're too complicated. i give up."

"and so should i give up?" i ask, confusing her, "but really can i give up?"

"give up about what? what the fuck?"

"we live in a time and space, a world full of blinds..." i whisper.

valerie loudly gasps, "no! stop it!"

"it makes me wanna give up but then again, no."

"please no, you're making my seungmin stan come out and i gotta be loyal to jisung."

"i shouldn't give up," i ignore her, "i feel it inside don't wanna give up. we live in a time and space, a world full of blinds."

valerie joins in, and throws her hands up in the air, "now i've had enough," she says loudly trying to make a mad face but failing.

we both burst out into laughter, causing everyone around us to look. not really caring about anyone else, i look up at valerie. im so glad that i have a best friend like her. someone that can be as much as a crackhead as me.

"dude, look!" valerie grabs me by the shoulders and spinning me around, "the doors are finally opening!"

suddenly feeling extremely nervous, i take a deep breath and grab ahold of valerie's hand, "let's go in and secure that spot close to the stage."

"let's go!" valerie yells, holding her free hand in the air, "stray kids, stray kids, stray kids!" she chants.

squeezing her hand, i glare at her, "stop," i whine, "you're being embarrassing."

"i don't give a fuck," she says as she smiles, "no but for real, let's go before people try to skip us in line."

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"i told them that if they don't play mia, i'm going to riot," i try to whisper in valerie's ear, "they better play it."

"they really should, but let's not talk about them anymore before someone around us catches on."

"oh, right," i say before realizing that literally anyone can hear me, even if i am whispering.

we both managed to squeeze to the front of the section, leaving us literally in the front row. the concert hasn't started, and typically people just stand around until it does. then that's when everyone pushes forward. but i knew better, squeeze and be up in the front before it starts. secure that spot.

"i've never been so excited for a concert before. why hasn't it started? i'm so impatient," valerie groans, "let's get this show on the road."

as if they were waiting for her to say that, the lights dim, music blares from the speakers and everyone starts screaming.

(idk how to write concerts so uhhh fast forward to the last song :D )

"how is everyone today?" chan excitedly asks, "good i hope!" focusing on chan, i scream in response.

"sounds like you all are having fun," felix laughs. hearing felix speak, my heart races as i look up at him. he stares into the crowd wearing a smile.

jumping up and down against the barricade separating the crowd from the stage, i scream along with the crowd.

"sadly, we have to end our concert soon," he says.

"but wait," he holds up his hand, "we have one more song! many of you have expressed that you want to hear this song, so we listened. do you know what song it is?"

"ah, i heard someone say the right song," he laughs and walks towards the crowd, "are you all ready to hear mia?"

"oh my god!" i couldn't help but scream, "finally!"

getting a little too excited, i wave my lightstick dangerously around in the air and scream. that would have been fine at a concert if it wasn't for the fact that felix happens to look at me right during that moment.

felix looks down at me and smiles really wide, causing everyone around me to scream loudly. they think he was doing it towards them, but i knew the truth. with the history between us two, i could have fainted at that moment with how nervous i was... but that's a little too dramatic so i just screamed louder hurting my throat in the process. being a fangirl is such a hard life.

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"bitch, i'm tired." valerie says as she plays with the pop socket on the back of her phone.

"me too, but we can't sleep yet. we have to wait for our turn."

"do you think we will be last? it looks like they are making people in the back line up first."

"nah. we won't be last, maybe a group or two before the last one though."

"oh thank god, i didn't want to be last. i already suffered enough from them looking at us during the concert. being last would mean more time with them, and right now i'm trying to contain my inner fangirl," valerie shakes her head, "how do i look though? i look rough, don't i?"

looking at her, i press my lips together, "just a little? but it's nothing that can't be fixed."

reaching up, i fix her hair that was sticking up wildly, "there. do i look okay?"

"do you? of course you do, you're hot."

"your inner gay for me is showing, please contain it," you hold up a hand, laughing.

"oh please, i'll always be gay for my best friend."

"i'm telling hyunjin."

"hyunjin?"

"yeah. you say jisung is your bias but i know the truth. hyunjin officially wrecked you but you won't admit it."

valerie's face grows red, "see, i'm right."

"shut up."

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"oh my god, we are next," i say, turning around to look at valerie.

"are we really?"

"yes! i counted the people in front of us. there is 7 and a total of 10 goes in. we are 8 and 9."

"oh my god," her eyes widen, "i'm nervous. i don't want to do this."

"me either but we have to."

"alright, the next 10, please get ready!" a guy yells from the front of the line, "keep your cellphones or any devices that can record in your bag please! go in and sit down in order."

suddenly the door opens and valerie forces me to turn around, "it's time."

every step i took, i wanted to scream. i was so nervous that i felt sick, "you got this kiyia, they are just people. stay calm," i whisper to myself.

walking through the door, i smile when i see the boys in front of me. they were looking at the group of us and waving.

"hello everyone!" hyunjin says causing everyone to awe. he's so cute.

"the first 5 please squat down on the floor in front of the chairs. the last 5, please sit in the chairs," a staff member says. being in the last 5, i was lucky enough to be able to sit down.

scanning down the line of boys, i stop when i see felix. locking eyes with mine, a smile grows on his face. smiling back at him, i quickly wave. for some reason i wasn't nervous anymore. i actually felt calm. i was surpassingly comfortable around them.

not really paying attention to where im walking, i suddenly trip over a chair. "wow, are you okay?" minho reaches out to me. breaking eye contact with felix, i look at minho. shyly nodding, i try to laugh it off, "i am, thank you."

felix laughs, "let's make sure none of us get hurt, yeah?" he says as he quickly looks at me before looking at everyone else.

"alright, alright. let's take this picture, yeah?"  chan says.

"the back row, please sit down," the photographer says.

sitting down in the chair that was in front of minho, i look at the camera waiting for the photographer.

"is everyone ready?" the photographer asks.

hearing shuffling from behind us, i can see that the photographer is waiting on the boys. after saying they are ready,the photographer then nods and takes the picture, temporarily blinding me with how bright the light was.

"thank you everyone!" jisung says as everyone stands up from their spot. the boys clap while saying goodbye.

walking out of the room, i look over at felix once more and catch him looking back. he smiles and slightly nods, before waving goodbye.

"dude, you almost fell in front of them," valerie laughs as soon as we leave the room, "you're so clumsy."

"i know," i cover my cheeks, "i'm so embarrassed. felix saw me."

"felix saw you but minho caught you. wow, your bias and bias wrecker. you lucky bitch."

"well minho only helped because he happened to be standing behind my chair. i'm sure any of them would have done the same thing."

"possibly. i had jeongin standing behind me though. he's so adorable, i want to pinch his cheeks, ugh."

"he is adorable."

"honestly though. wait, where do we get our pictures?" she asks.

"i think they post them online later. should we go back to the hotel now?"

"we should. so much has happened today and i'm too calm about it all. i don't think it fully kicked in that this happened."

"good idea, let's go before we start freaking out again."