AFTER THREE YEARS

"I am a salty teardrop, a morose dream
I am a lost warrior, dying in silent stream.
I am a caged bird, my emotions hold no meaning
I am loved, I am a fancy, though wholly demeaning
I wear a dark kohl in my eyes, strength akin fire they portray
I am strong, I am fragile, ambiguity my soul conveys!
Who am I? Where do I belong? What is my deed?
There is a cacophony inside me, a wild animal roars,
There is agony inside me, much painful, much sore
There is disturbance echoing, the words can't be said,
There is unrest roving, the body is numb and dead,
There is exhaustion, my psyche is dark, and it's blind
There is a catastrophe, lost is my peace of mind!
Who am I? Where do I belong? What is my deed?
I am a scribbled thought, I am a heartfelt romance,
I belong to a city where oceans and skies meet at a glance
I reside in utopia, I reside in imaginary spaces,
I am a wanderer, I leave behind no traces,
I wish to fly, I wish to float, and I want to know my role,
I want to find and I want to mend my broken soul!"

Randhir then inwardly said,"From that time till today,I walked away to avoid being broken ever so secretly but never knew I already was the moment I decided to walk away.I changed myself in terms of running away cause I knew if I won't you would know my every nerve."
Thinking of this he walked into the reverie of the day he left everything behind to avoid seeing Sanyukta with Azaan & also ran away in guilt of bursting on Malini.
FLASHBACK
That day after Azaan defended Sanyukta by playing that audio I was happy to witness he would keep her happy but upset I being her long time lover was one of the reasons for the brutality she had been going through without my notice.I yelled on Malini saying, »Malini what kind of pleasure do you seek in meddling into someone's personal decision......you know what it's not your pregnancy mood swings kicking in it's the real you which meddles into almost everything thus spoiling stuffs.You know what I had been silent all the while for Rohit's sake but now let me tell you the truth unknown to you......he......he didn't die cause of only Ankit but you too are equally responsible........you know what your adamant nature asking him to seek forgiveness for something he wasn't at fault for fucking killed him that day.......yes you asking him to say sorry to Shaina killed him that day with thoughts like you didn't trust him enough broke him."Before I could do further damage a tight slap was planted on my cheek by her,the woman I will love now & forever.In a fraction of seconds I found myself yelping in pain with with her heel taking charge on my toe & yells turning my throat sore thus bringing his voice into a state of rough hoarseness.She then pulled my head up by my hair & in a rough voice said,"Serves you right Shekhawat for you forgot to acknowledge that the women you were just blaming for with this loud voice of yours is the one who has stood by you even if it meant standing against Sanyukta Agarwal.Put one thing straight into this thick skull of yours a woman's dignity & decisiveness in a relationship should never be questioned because if you do she might forgive but nature may not forget........you know am done with someone like you I had mistakenly thought to be rich in chivalry."Her these words gave me the reality check of the jerk like behaviour I had been meting out to Malini,my constant support in all these years since Rohit left us.I was about to say sorry but by then I saw Malini fainting after a few screams while clutching her belly as if protecting her baby.Disgust was the only thing I was feeling for myself at that particular moment & suddenly I felt my pumping organ churning like never before & minutes later all I experienced was a black out.The last voice I heard was of my lady love yelling my name when I felt myself falling down with a thud."

AT PRESENT
On the other hand Sanyukta being heavily drunk thought,"Once a coward always a coward.I had faults in me you could have told me but no staying behind the screen pointing out & saying your thoughts is your forte right Randhir?You know I wonder don't you get tired being double faced."

SANYUKTA'S POV (in throwback)
That day changed everything.That day drifted everyone apart Malini & Bhai,Me & Randhir but someone who stayed back for me was Azaan.You loved me right Randhir then why did you leave?You always interpreted my rudeness as a facade to be strong correctly & you always got punished for it as I didn't want you to know me by my nerves.You understood everything than could'nt you understand that you too have my heart just like I have yours.I had cancerous cells which would kill me & I didn't want you to kill yourself with loneliness that's what made me marry Azaan as definitely we were friends & understood the need of the situation well.I didn't know my love had strength for you in such a way that it would fight death to be with you & I was found in a better condition than before.It was like one side you got concious after the heart stroke you experienced & other side I woke up into brightness only to know you have Ashish's heart in you who was none other Azaan's late brother.I saw Azaan on top of world that day on realising the heart of his dear brother is alive but all four of us jointly decided to keep you in dark about this matter for your good.What you did ? Just ran away like a coward & that's something I hate you for.Soon one year died its end & with that I lost two pillars of my life in an accident while returning after meeting you who were none other than Bhai & Malini.Bhai's last wish was I should get married to you but where were you only you knew as they didn't tell me your whereabouts on account of your swear.I expected you to come for their funeral rights but you didn't.Where are you?Please come I miss you I really do.Right now am waiting for the lawyer who would get me & Azaan divorced as we mutually thought that in future when you return & we get together than we both didn't the kid to suffer.Till then I & Azaan would give him love.
The lawyer left after getting custody papers signed by the parents as they had adopted Ankush,son of Ankit & Malini.Being reputed we didn't have to go through the custody procedure of child.

AT PRESENT
"Randhir,You have to go there & face things.Its high time.She needs love & most importantly love.If you still don't believe read this diary in which she has confessed how much she loves you.Its three years please find her. If not for you both atleast for Ankush find her please.He craves for her please."Azaan said.Yes Azaan found out where the great Randhir Singh Shekhawat was.

The guilt of ignoring her seeped in him & he decided to search her at any cost if not for him but for them together & Ankush.He then pressurised his brain & got an idea of the place she might have been in.A while later he reached a place & that's where he found her.To grab her attention he then said with a clap,"It's rightly said love finds it way."Sanyukta turned in shock on realising he was finally there for her & blushed inwardly thinking for them.She decided to play as well & moved in his direction saying,"Once a creepy message texter,always a creepy dialogue speaker......tch....tch.....Shekhawat.I thought you would have grown....."Before she could complete her sentence he placed his lips on her as if asking her to feel the beautiful silence of a language having no words.After a while they pulled out with their foreheads still touching & both said together as if understanding the unspoken feelings ,
"Life has been a treasure hunt for me with the search completing itself at you such that I feel all my needs getting washed off & a new level of purity embracing me just turning me better."

Okay bye 👋
I hope you guys liked the ff.
Hope you liked the epilogue.
I know this ff didn't have you guys emotionally attached to it but still I wish it brought up some bonding with it.........I wanted to write a season 2 on it but hardly any response made me quit the thought.
New Year's gift from my end to you all would be everlasting love & not to forget the announcement that I & harsram would soon start a collab Sandhir SS which would be posted on my wall.
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