Previously Video Girl

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"I'm going to marry Carla," A younger Kevin said to the camera, his right arm drapped casually over Carla's shoulder.

The whole place erupted into an aww. I burried my head into my hands, wanting to be anywhere than my best friends 18th birthday party right now. I glanced over to the stairway where Kevin was standing with his current girlfriend Zoe Meyer. His face was completely red, and Zoe was looking really angry.

I didnt believe it. She was jealous because of something Kevin said when we were 6 years old. I rolled my eyes and turned back to the TV, holding back tears. Okay, so I was jealous of Zoe, but who cares. I loved my best friend, sue me. Yes, Joe kept hitting on me, but I kept turning him down because he's like my younger brother and he knew that.

"Time to get out of the tub you two," Denise said on the video. Two 7 year olds heads hung low as they stepped out of the tub, sheilded by Denise and my mom holding towles out for young Kevin and I. I had a picture of that on my nightstand in my room, towels around us both and smiling a half toothless grin.

I missed those carefree days when we didnt have to worry about anything accept what to do next.

On the TV, Kevin kissed my cheek after giving him a homemade necklace, which he still wears, and is wearing today. I looked to Kevin again, Zoe was looking at Kevin's necklace with disgust. Kevin had ahold of it and was rolling the different kind of green beads in his hand absentmindedly. He does that when he gets nervous. I had made the necklace with a clasp in the back so he didnt have to cut it when he took it off, well my mom thought of it.

I think he loved to wear it to remind him of the good days. He glanced at me and smiled before watching the video again. Zoe glared at me with daggers. If I hadnt of grew up with Kevin Joe and Nick I'd be scared to death.

I knew Zoe and Kevin liked each other, maybe even loved, but that didnt meant that Kevin and I had to stop being friends because he had a girlfriend that didnt like me. I knew enough not to interfear with love. The only one who knew I was in love with Kevin was his brother Nick, who at 11 years old, was smarter than he looked.

The family continued to watch home videos for another hour before Zoe had to go home, Nick had a dentist appointment, Joe had an appointment with himself, and others had other engagments, so the party broke up.  I continued to sit on the couch after everyone had left the room staring at a dark TV. I liked to do this when I felt like crap.

"You okay?" An all too familiar voice asked beside me.

I smiled. "Yep fine Kev."

He sat beside me with a piece of ice cream cake. He held out a spoonful for me and I ate it gladly, feeling like a kid again.

"You know Zoe doesnt like me," I stated after a few moments.

He stopped eating for a moment and looked at me. I felt like I had to tell him this because, well, he's my friend.

"She's jealous of me," I kept going. "She gave me the dirtiest look when I waved at you."

Kevin thought about this for a few minutes before nodded. "I'll talk to her. I really want you two to get along."

Well, that was four years ago. Zoe has long since departed from Kevin's life. Mostly because she didn't like me and Kevin wouldn't have that. He wanted his girlfriend to love me like a sister, which I'm sure I am to him, even though I dont want to be with him.

A few months after Zoe, Kevin met Danielle. She was really nice and I really liked her. We frequently went on shopping trips together, but I always had my wall up because if I let my wall down, I'd spill my feelings for Kevin. That's how Nick found out.

Now, four years later, I stand beside Danielle and Kevin as they take their vows, letting a tear escape  my eyes as i saw them seal it with a kiss. I wanted it to be me so bad. I tried before Kevin met Dani to tell him, but with him signing with Disney and everyting it wasnt the right time and now it was over.

"Congratulations Kevin," I tell him as we dance to our song, Someone's Watching Over Me by Hilary Duff.

Kevin looked so slick in his neat tux, which I see him in almost every day, but still it being a wedding it was really nice on him. He kissed my forehead and I leaned my head on his shoulder as the song came to the end, savoring the moment with him for a while, as he was doing. We've always been like this, close. We were born a day apart, Kevin being older, and met in pre k. We've been best friends ever since, and even got our parents to become friends.

After the wedding and reception, they left to start their own family and left me out here in the cold. I still felt a warm spot in my heart when I felt my necklace under his tux when we were dancing. Dani told me one day when we were shopping that she tought it was sweet that Kevin kept wearing it all the time. I liked Dani a little more after that just becuase I didnt have to watch my back in fear of getting hit. 

I miss Kevin already. Crap. I'm wanting to cry also, that will not happen.