'Someday you'll miss me so much that  you'll end up searching me in another person in vain.' she  wrote a  letter crying.
He just laughed when he read it.
Years, later the torn and old paper  was now again soaked in tears.
But this time the tears were his.

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Adhiraj:-

  I arrived home after a very hectic and tiring day. Today was an important meeting. Which hopefully went well. Mr. Welson was a very intelligent man. He agreed the deal in my terms and conditions. Our two hours meeting was stretched to six hours of discussing profits and losses and revising the business plan.

  I stretched my body as I went inside and as usual everything was very silent. I don't when this silence will change into noises. Losing my tie I quickly went to the kitchen with the packet of biryani. Which I brought myself from the way back home. I heat the food in the oven and served myself. I silently ate my food and kept the dishes in the sink.

  I went to the washroom and freshen up myself. After feeling little light I laid on the couch watching the blank ceiling with very much interest like it will have such meanings. The sleep was nowhere to be found in my eyes. Then something hit me. I looked her in her room but she wasn't there. Maybe she is in hospital right now. I thought.

I seated straight on the couch and dialed the hospital's number without thinking twice. And I was right she was there. The receptionist told me that Dhara was handling some petitions. I sighed and laid again still looking at blank ceiling. My thoughts were roaming what just doctor told me in the morning.

"I'm sorry Mr. Adhiraj. But the report is positive. And your wife is really in a depression. Her mental state is being very bad as day is passing. You really need to keep eye on her. At least when she will doing her course to leave the drugs habits. It's hard for her and for you too. Prepare yourself because things will be different now. At once when she start her course then she'll became another person and will do everything to make you please for giving her what she wants. So be strong from now on." He sat up on his chair after instructing me.

"I'm sorry doctor for my behaviour." I apologized for my mistake.

"It's ok. And do you need any NGO'S number or you want to consult for your wife? They will take care of her." He was saying but I cut of him by my negative nod.

"No I don't want anything thanks." That's what reply and went from the hospital.

  What just you did Dhara. You messed up with your oneself. I never knew she'll give up that so soon. I looked at her room and fight myself to not to go in her room. But the heart wants what it wants. I moved to her room.

  I unlocked the door and went inside. The only first thing which welcomed me was her Jasmine fragrance cent. I inhaled the fragrance in me. Her room wasn't that much unique. Just some touch of her own thoughts. It wasn't much big room just the space was for only bed and nothing else. Violet color on the wall and the butterflies design on the wall with white colour was nothing better then a mood satisfying thing. The closet was in left side in the room. And her study table was right side. Where she used to study or write something. But something isn't change in her. The notes on her wall everywhere. Some is Inspirational, some is funny and bit cheering, some was sad. I tore the sad notes from her wall. The photograph of her and her Baba's is on the side table of the bed. The white nets curtain on the window is making very much sound by the air to get my attention. I started searching the drugs or anything which I need but I didn't know what is it. Then I knelt down and started searching in the drawer in the side table's.  And I got what I was looking for. There was a packets of Anty-depression pills and the injections too. My heart broked as the thought of her taking these things made me little disappointed. I burn that all the things in backyard. How can she take drugs? Why don't she wants to fight?

My dress was little dirty due to the ashes. I opened my luggage. As I didn't have closet for my clothes. Everyday I had to pick one dress from my luggage. I was searching my sweet pants. When I found something which I never wanted to forget. I took out the letter and stared at it. It was old, torn and little dirty too. The letter was very close to my heart. But I frowned and again started searching something in my luggage and I found it. A small smile crept on my lips. Her instinct was right and here we met again. I leaned back on the couch. I let the dreadful memories pour on me.

    It was very late when I came. And  Sana's words was echoing in my ear like an old sound recorder. I do hate myself doing this but I was only waiting for this time. Now me and Sana will get married. No one will dare to stop us. I hate Dhara because she is coming in between me and Sana. I really don't want to fall for her any traps. I want to break her down and not leave any single way for her. I want her to feel helpless just like I felt when I didn't have any Choice instead of marry her! When I didn't have any Choice instead of staying with her! I hate her when she proudly called herself 'Dhara Adhiraj Singhaniya'. I hate her because she is backfiring to my every plan. I also know that if I will take one step towards her. I'll surely fall for her. Which I can't afford. I don't want to fall for her. I want her to hates me more then me.

I saw her standing in the living room with her blotchy face and bloodshot red eyes. My heart beats rapidly looking at her. Something string inside my heart. I shrugged all the thoughts and headed upstairs. She was following me but I slammed the door on her face. She wants to go to her baba at this time of night. Which I can't allow her. It isn't safe for her. And I can't go with her. Tomorrow is my really important meeting.

  I feel very bad seeing her that much helpless. She was screaming and shouting for let her go but I ignored her. Then I gave her that shock. Which I was waiting from long time ago. But deep down I know she won't sign these papers. And I was also wishing that. I gave her those papers and went out off the house. I started my car and drive endlessly on the road.

I don't know why I'm feeling sad for her? I got what I want. After all these one year I was waiting for this day to arrive. But now when it arrived. Why am I'm not feeling happy? Why I was feeling like I lost my very important thing? I stopped my car when I saw red signal on the road. There is a couple crossing the road in front of my car. The girl can't cross the road properly due to her plastered leg but the boy helped her in crossing road. I remember that day when my ankle was broken and Dhara helped me to step the stairs. I shrugged the thoughts and started my car. Now there is only one person whom I can call. I dialed her number and put the phone on speaker.

"Hey baby." Her voice was happy.

"Sana I'm coming to your hotel now. I have something for you." I was grinning.

"Aww!! I'm sorry baby. I can't meet you now. Remember I told you about my old friend. She was insisting me to go with her and I said yes. We are now at Bahamas for shopping and for holidays. Sorry baby. OK now got to go. Will talk to later. Love you." She cut the call without even listening me. I was disappointed with her and at her behaviour. Why she always did this to me?

I drove off to the nearest pub for lightning my mood. I ordered some beer for me. And started drinking continuously. I glanced at my watch. It was nearly morning. So I drove back to the home with my shaking legs. The guards were on their duty. I went inside and it was dark. Everything was black. I didn't feel like to turn on the light. I laid on the couch and drifted off.

I woke up when something was buzzing inside me. I checked my blazer and it was my mobile.

"Hello" My hangover was on top of me.

"Adhiraj, come fast at Royal hotel now. Clients are waiting for you." After saying that he cut the call.

   I got up from the couch and looked around me. Something was different. Whole house was silent. A very dangerous silent. My breakfast wasn't on the table. My dress wasn't iron. My accessories wasn't on the table. My room wasn't clean. And most importantly I didn't smell the Jasmin fragrance of her. It was messed like before. Yesterday night's scene flashed in front of my eyes and my heart beats in my caged ribs. My forehead was sweaty. In the half buttoned shirt I ran to her room. Her room's door was open but she wasn't there. I checked her in the Washroom, kitchen, on the roof and in the backyard but she wasn't there also. My whole body started shaking with fear of losing her. Suddenly I felt pain in my heart. I felt the urge of crying. It means she leaved me. She is gone for forever now. I don't know why but I felt to go to her? I don't know why I felt to hold her now?

  Again my phone buzzed and I drove off to the hotel. It was the same hotel where Sana is living. God knows why Dhruv kept the meeting here only. There was a plenty of hotel where we will kept the meeting. Wait!! Did it means? Did it means he wants to prove himself right of making Sana wrong in front of me. But who cares she wasn't here. He will be one regretting in the end.

Dhruv was standing across the reception. I jogged to him and he waved his hand.

"Why you called me in so much hurry." I questioned.

"Do you have spare key to Sana's room?" He questioned back to me.

"So there isn't any meetings huh? You called me here just for these shitty thing. And for your kind information Sana isn't here. She gone for holidays now." I walked to her room and he followed me silently. On the door knob of her room there was sign of 'DO NOT DISTURB' I wonder who is staying in her room. I swiped my card in the lock. And the door got unlocked quickly.

Holding the door knob I slowly opened the door. We walked passed through the hallway and came into the bedroom. And I gasped as I took my step back after seeing the scene in front of me. It was like the world had came crashing down on me. Dhruv leaved me there alone as he was in urge to puke whatever he eats. And I was froze on my  place. My chest tighten anguish.

There was a girl whom I admire most was lying beside some man. Her back was facing me. They both were half naked. The man's hand was on her waist and her leg was on his right leg or say in between his legs. Their whole front body was glued to each other. They were sucking each other like an hungry animal. They didn't even feel my presence. And I was standing there dumbfounded looking at the scene they were doing. Suddenly the man lifted her on his side and now she was facing me properly. Her eyes was bulge out of the socket after looking at me. And due to sudden move she fell on the floor. She hurriedly wrapped herself with the blanket and stood straight in front of me.

"Adhiraj, baby whatever you are thinking. It's not like that. Trust me. He was forcing me to do that. He told me if I slept with him. He would give me job in his office." She started crying as she came to hugged me.

The man was looking at us shocked. I looked at him with my greeted teeth. I held Sana's arm tightly in my hands. And kept away from me. Because now I was feeling discussed with her presence. I felt like to rip her those alligators teary eyes. If I would have gun right now then there will be two dead  body's in this room. But I controlled my anger.

"Baby.." she opened her mouth to say but I cut her off by my tight slap on her chick. Which leaves fingerprint on it. The sound of my slap was echoing in the room and she gulped. Guilt flashed in her eyes.

"Baby it's not what you are thinking."

"So explain to me." But she didn't because there were nothing to explain.

"You are fucking up with another man. And lied to me that you are in Bahamas. Bitch I gave up everything for you."

"I didn't ask you too."

"No that day. I hadn't stopped for you. God!! Dhara would have never done this to me. Never!!"

"Argh!! Enough. I really had enough. Whenever we were together you always talk about her. Dhara this...Dhara that. Ofcourse she wouldn't do that because she the wife material typo girl. Which I'm not."

"That's not true. I hardly talked about her." I raised my eyebrows.

"Oh please!! Believe me baby you do and I had funking enough. She tied to you. Your fucking wife. But I'm not. You always used to point out of my dress. And always compared me with you bloody wife. I came to you because I knew it. I can't go anywhere and you will accept me with no questions and you did what I thought. But now you had nothing you lost your billions deal too and I can't stay with any bankrupt. I have my life too." I wish I can kill her right now.

"Thank you for ruining my life and my relationship. You know I had actually moved on when you get married and when Dhara came in my life. I was really going to start my life with dhara,until you showed up again. We're done. Don't you dare to contact me again. God!! I can't believe I wasted my all time to chasing a used basket." I turned feeling damn sick but Sana grabbed my arm and forced me to face her.

"Don't you dare." She jabbed hardly on my chest. "Remember adhiraj you've done exactly what I did. So don't you fucking judge me for something what you doing as well." I stared at her. How can be so dumb? I had been so blind? I had been so stupid? I realised that I hadn't actually love Sana but her image of perfection and her beauty. Inside she was hollow,unforgiving and total opposite to dhara,inside out. Darn!! It had take me a heart break to realise this. God forgive me. I really needed to seriously repent. This was the surely god's way to showing me, punishing me, and giving me taste of my own medicine. And I deserved every bit of this bitter medicine. God I would never going to be fooled like this ever again.

"Go back to your fucking wife." I grabbed her hair and she hissed in a pain.

"Don't dare to say a word to 'MY WIFE' you bitch. 'SANA YOU WERE THE GIRL I NEVER LOVED'

I walked out off the hotel. Dhruv was waiting for me near our car. I walked to him with my head low and my I slumped shoulder with the guilt. Just because of that bloody girl I didn't believe in my friend. Just because of her I never gave any rights to my wife's. I treated her worst then maid. But she didn't said any words and now I lost her. Now I understand how Dhara would had feel with my every word and every action I did to her. I deserve hatred not to be loved.

"You were blinded in your illusionary love that much that you never cared about any relation adhiraj. You know what now I'm feeling ashamed to stand with you. How could you stoop so low adhiraj. You have time now. Just go back to dhara. And start your new life. I know she is forgiving. I'm sure she'll forgive you too. God gave you second chance to repent your mistakes. Use this chance and live your life with your wife happily. There'll no better place accept your own home. Where you have a faithful, loving and caring wife." He opened the car door and was going to seat but steal on his face when I cleared my throat.

"She's gone." He looked at me straight into my eyes.

"What? What did you said? Where did she gone?" He slammed his hand on the door.

"She got a call that her father was in hospital in serious condition and she begged me to let her go. And i told her I will let her go when if she signed the divorce papers and she did what I said. I forced her to give me divorce." I looked up with my teary eyes but got a punch on my eyes. I stumbled back with the sudden outcome. I'm sure now my eyes had a big black spot on it. I looked at him and my one eye had a  cleared vision but in other I was just seeing black all black things and nothing else.

"You bastard. I gave you the warning. But you didn't took that things seriously. What are you Mr. Adhiraj Singhaniya? A God? A judge? Or Her Husband? No that right you never gave her. You are a bloody womanizer. A bloody fucking stain on its own life. Dhara was the best women you had ever. She cared for you, cried for. You had beat her badly. But still she was with you. You were facing low time in your life she was still with you. You were going to signed those property papers and then too she stands for you. She always thought for your goodness. That deal would be the really a loss facing deal for us but Dhara stopped you to do that signature. She always stand by your side without any expectations. And now when she needs you the most. You jerked your hands from her and simply tell her to divorced you. I pitied on you adhiraj. Sorry but now I can't be your friend." His eyes was holding a fire which will ready to burn me anytime. He was fighting for his tears.

"Please Dhruv at least listen to me once. Please help me." I pleaded but he sat up in his car.

"Remember adhiraj every man's success there was a women behind. And to you it was dhara. Your wife. You got you CEO seat just because of her. I wish you never met her." And then he drove off from there.

I stepped into the house and shocked to see the two most unexpected person in the most unexpected time. There was standing a man in his sixties with his white hair wearing a loose pants and a white shirt with specs on his eyes on the beard face. And right beside him a women in his fifties with grey hair wearing a Banarasi Sari with dull face and throwing dagger from her eyes to me. There were looking at me with so much hatred and anger in them.

I ran towards them and hugged my mom but she pushed me away from her. And she slapped me hard on my chick. My dad was seeing me with narrowed eyes.

"Mom please I'm sorry. I never thought it would messed up like this. Sana cheated on me mom. And because of her I gave divorced to dhara. Mom please talk to me." I pleaded to them. One tear flowed on my chick and all other followed it's suit.

"I feel disgusting to call you my son adhiraj. You didn't even know what happened to her? Her uncle sealed their all properties. She lost her home also. She lost everything. When I went there to take her with me. She wasn't there. I searched her everywhere but she nowhere to be found. I filed a case for her too. But this time she won't be live with you." Dad pushed me from getting out from his way and walked to the door along with mom.

"I will find her. I will do everything to make her mind." I wiped my tears from the back of my hand.

"Don't do this adhiraj. Don't do a favour on her at least now. It was like crying over a split milk." Dad walked away from me.

"Adhiraj never show us your face again. And don't dare to call us. From now on we aren't your parents. Think that we died." With that they walked out off the room.

"Adhiraj beta. I got this papers from Dhara beti's room." Maharaj ji handed me the papers and left the room. I helplessly seated on the couch with covering my face through my hands. I opened the letter which Dhara leave for me.

Dear Adhiraj,

  I'm sorry that I never understood you. I think I never be a good wife. I always tried my best to make our situation work. But some reason you blame me for whatever happened when I too am victim. I gave my everything to this marriage. I think that day I shouldn't had to support Sana for her stupidity. I guess we aren't meant for each other. I think we are like a magnet's two opposite side which can't be together. I did the mistake and I get my punishment too. But this punishment was the very beautiful punishment where I met you. From the day you came into my life. You changed my life. You weren't that bad. Your weren't a beast. You are the confuse person who needed  a guide or a partner in his life. And God gifted that opportunity to me. And I'm very thankful to him. I don't know when but I stared feeling for you. I think I started falling for you. Yes! I loved you with my all heart. Even after all this I'm unable to hate you. I don't know why but still my heart beats only for you. You are my first and last love adhiraj. But now it won't be good with this all the things. I just wanted to wish you for your life. I talk to dad and told him to don't snatch your CEO's chair from you. So don't worry. I don't want to cause you any discomfort. You are free from unwanted relationship. Please after marrying with Sana don't make her feel alone. She won't like this. Yes! I knew about your relationship while ago but can't gather the courage to ask you. Now everything is clear for you. I just wish you'll miss me someday not as wife but at least as a friend. Have a happy life Adhiraj. My wishes are with you forever and ever whenever wherever you are. Here I'm living this stone here. Remember we went to the beach last month. I stole this stone from there. There is a saying from that place if you kept there's stone with you then you'll come return to that place with whom you came last time. So I'm give it to you please kept this with you.

  Dhara.....

My eyes filled with tears after reading the letter. There was tears stain everywhere on the letter. She was crying when she wrote this letter. I made her suffer like no one will. I brake her heart. I cheated on her. But after all this she didn't said any words. She knows about my affairs too. She was a gem which I lost.

I came out of my thoughts when rain was speeding. I glanced at the watch. It was 2:00pm now and she didn't came yet. I called to the hospital and receptionist told me that she went from hospital hour ago. Fear drenched out of my body. Where will she go at this time of night? Does she alright? Did something happened to her? Arrggh I ran my hands through my hair and grabbing my jacket I walked out off the house.

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