A/n
So guys, this imagine is pretty angsty.
I know how you all wanted some TJ and I'll be doing some Chris Beck soon I promise!
Peace out!
(This is also set when you are both in your late teens and TJ isn't out as gay yet and Bud is president).
Warnings: sorta smut- when 'the sex' is happening, it's described mildly but not detailed. 

(August 2016)
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(Young Sebby^)

You sat on TJ's bed and stared at the ceiling. TJ lay beside you, resting his head on your shoulder. Kurt Cobain's voice drifted through the air, screaming at the top of his lungs. Your heads both shot up when someone knocked at the door.

"Turn the music down!" Doug shouted. TJ rolled his eyes, "piss off Doug!" He yelled back. Doug opened the door and turned down the music himself. He smiled when he saw you, "Hi y/n."
"Heya Dougie." You smiled back. "TJ, you know mom said we weren't allowed girls in our rooms". He narrowed his eyes at his twin. "She doesn't mind y/n. Now piss off." TJ shooed him out of the room. "See ya Y/n!" Doug called through the shut door. "Bye Doug!" You replied laughing. TJ walked back from the door and flopped on the bed.

The room was silent, with only the next track on the mixtape playing. It was Oasis.

You both spoke that the same time.
"I love this-"
"Y/n I need to ask you something." TJ looked at you very seriously. You felt a seed of dread sprout in your chest. You eyed him nervously. "Sure, go ahead."

TJ turned away from you and took a deep breath. "I'm, I'm gay." He said uneasily. You just looked at him. "Okay, what's the question?" He turned and faced you with unshed tears in his eyes, threatening to spill.

"I think people are starting to suspect so I need a girlfriend so they won't. My question is: will you be my girlfriend?"

"Teej, you're my best friend-"
"I know and I wouldn't ask you if I wasn't desperate. It would be like it is now, just we'd tell everyone we're dating and we'd do couple things sometimes and I'd kiss you in front of people." He held your hand in his sweaty, shaking ones. "Please y/n. It's just until I can come out."

You thought about it before pulling into a strong hug, "of course Teej. I'll be your girlfriend." You smiled at his relived face. You knew that you loved TJ but only as a friend, only as a brother, so this was the right thing to do. Or so you thought.

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*Time Skip*

"Y/n?" You opened one of your eyes to see TJ hovering over you. He was wearing his Captain America shirt over his flannel bottoms like usual. You pulled down your batman shirt from where it had gathered under your boobs.

"What are you doing T.J?" You said tiredly. His face was awkward and he looked uneasy. "I wanna try something." He looked down at your lips and back up to your eyes. He tucked a piece of hair behind your ear. "What do you want to try?" Your mind was slowly waking up.

"I wanna see if I'm still gay. And seeing as technically you're my girlfriend and you haven't lost your virginity yet, I was wondering if you wanted to help me test?" He gave a small smile. You stared at him in shock. Your heart sped up and started fluttering wildly in your chest.

"Wha- what?" You furrowed your eyebrows together and sat up, making him roll into his side of your shared bed. "You wanna have sex with me?" You whispered. "To see if you're still gay?" He nodded. "What if you find out you're not?" He smiled softly and held your face in his hands, "well then maybe this could relationship could be real. What do you say? Do you wanna?" He whispered back. You gazed into his big blue eyes. He was your best friend and you'd do anything to help him, and he was helping you. So you nodded.

His smile widened and he lent forward and pressed his soft lips to yours. You kissed back nervously. You had kissed many times before but this time it felt different, you felt different.

He rolled over so he was straddling you. He held your face in his hands tenderly. "I'm gonna go slow okay? I promise." He whispered into your ear. He moved his kisses down across your cheek and onto your neck. You ran your hands through his thick brown hair and allowed soft moans to escape your lips as TJ kissed you more and more, each kiss sending electricity soaring through your veins.

You grabbed his t-shirt from the hem and yanked it up and over his head. Your fingers traced over his naked torso, feeling every one of his defined muscles. You arched your back so he could remove you of your shirt and bra. You tried to cover yourself with your hands but he pulled them away. "Stop," he panted, "you're beautiful."

His kisses went lower and lower down your body, causing goosebumps to break out across your skin. He gently pulled down your shorts and boxer briefs. The cool, night air hit you and you shivered.

Under the careful lips of TJ, you felt a pleasure you had never felt before. It felt as though you were soaring amongst the clouds and the heavens above. You gripped the sheets and cried out silently after the chorus of moans as you hit your high. TJ pulled away and gazed at you.

He pulled down his boxers with his trousers, quickly rolling on a condom from the bedside table, and kissed you as he entered you. Tears pricked at your eyes and a strangled sob left your mouth. TJ stroked your hair and held you against him as he continued at a steady pace, each thrust turning the pain to pleasure.

After a few minutes you felt the now-familiar feeling of your high approaching. TJ replied the same way when you told him. He panted harshly and you both arched into each other's arms as you came undone.

He rolled off you and stared at the ceiling as you tried to catch your breath back. The fire that ran through your veins and nerves and across your skin slowly died down, leaving a cold emptiness in its wake.

"That was amazing." You whispered into the electric air. "Yes it was." TJ placed a kiss on your sweaty forehead. "Are you still gay?" You braced yourself for the answer. A voice cried in your heart, I don't want him to be gay. He can be bisexual or pansexual or whatever, as long as he likes me. He can not like any other woman, just me. Please God, let him love me the way I do him.

He gazed at you tiredly with a hint of guilt, "I believe so. But thank you so much. You're are an amazing best friend."

"No problem, Teej". You tiredly smiled while your soul screamed and your heart broke. "Happy to help." You turned away from him so he wouldn't see the tears that rolled down your cheeks. "Love ya y/n/n." He said before he drifted into a deep sleep. "I love you too TJ". You mumbled.

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*Time Skip*
*You're both now early twenties and have been 'dating' for five years and it's been three years since 'that night'*

You lay against the weeping willow and watched the blossoms dance across the breeze. The sun warmed your skin and clouds drifted slowly across the vast blue sky. The birds darted from tree to tree while the Hammond family cat aimlessly chased after them.

The grass was soft against your skin as you lay listening to your music wearing only your stripy swimsuit. You had left the Hammonds in the swimming pool after a quick dip before escaping onto the White House grounds. Ever since that night when you were nineteen years old, you had found it hard to be around TJ. You loved him so much but he didn't feel the same. It wasn't his fault, you knew that, it wasn't his fault that he didn't like women.

You clicked off your music when a shadow fell over your face. You turned to see TJ grinning like the Cheshire Cat in only his shorts. You tried not to stare at his chiselled body, with water droplets that clung to his skin and dripped from his messy hair. His eyes shone like polished sapphires in the afternoon light.

"Heya Y/n/n." He sat down next to you. "Hi TJ." Your lips turned up at the edges. He stared at you intensely. "What's up TJ?" You were confused.
"TJ, you always call me TJ and never Teej. It used to be the other way." He said sadly. "I gotta tell you something." He continued.

"Yes TJ?" You saw him collecting his thoughts. "I've met someone and he's amazing. I'm ready to go public." He said quickly. You felt the knife twist as it pierced your heart. "Hmmm. That's...erm...great Teej." You choked out, "what's his... what's he called?"

"Damien." He still seemed oblivious to your sadness, well that was until you started to cry.

The tears started slow and light at first until they fell like a monsoon's rain and heavy sobs shook your shoulders. He looked alarmed and pull you into his chest. You quickly pulled away and stood up, wiping your tears with your hands. "Y/n/n, what the hell is wrong?" He looked extremely concerned.

"Nothing Teej." You weakly smiled. "This doesn't look like fucking nothing! Has someone hurt you?" He jumped up and looked you over.

Yes you have, "no. It's just that time of the month. Ignore me Teej. I'm happy for you and Damien, I really am. Maybe I can meet someone now." You tried to laugh but choked on your tears.

"Y/n, please tell me what's wrong. You've been like this ever since..ever since we..."
"Had sex." You finished for him and he nodded slowly. He ran his hands through his hair- a tell tale sign that he was stressed or anxious. "And you told me you were definitely gay."

"That's not my fault!" He pulled at his hair. "I never said it was! You can't help that and I can't help that I fucking love you. I'm sorry and it's all my fault! I'm so selfish and you will never feel the same way. I wish that I had never agreed that night!" You cried as he stood there. He walked towards you but you walked away from him.

"Y/n, where are you going?" He called after you. "I'm leaving you TJ." You yelled back. "But you're my best friend!"

"I..I need to go and clear my head. I'll be back though TJ, when I've got over my stupid crush alright?" You smiled sadly. Tears rolled from his eyes and he nodded, "can I hug you one last time?"

"Of course." You embraced him tightly and for the last time you smelt his  signature cologne and felt his soft skin and fluffy hair.

"Bye Teej."
And you walked away.

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*Time Skip*

"Hello, Y/n L/n speaking." You yawned down the phone.

"Who the hells that?" The man next to you moaned. "Shut up Jim."
"It's James." You rolled your eyes.

"Hi Y/n, it's Doug." A tear soaked voice greeted. "Doug Hammond?" You sat up straight. "Yeah, I know we haven't seen each other for what? Seven, six years? Anyway are you busy?"

"No not at all! What's wrong? Is TJ okay?" The line went silent and you could hear crying down the phone. "He tried to kill himself y/n." You put your hand to your mouth. "What? Doug where are you? I'm coming." You jumped from the bed and got quickly changed. You turned to the naked man staring at you. "I'll call you." You shrugged and grabbed your bag and ran out of the room.

"We're at MedStar. Please be quick y/n/n. We need you." The line went dead.

You rushed all the way, running down a few red lights. You hadn't seen TJ for about seven years but you missed him everyday. In the gossip columns you had read about his drug addiction and you wanted to see him but you had been in staying with a friend in England and you still hadn't got over him.

"Where's TJ Hammond?" You asked the man at the desk as you entered the hospital. "Are you family?" He said coldly.
"No."
"Are you his wife?"
"No."
"Well then you can't see him."
You glared at the man.

"Y/n, I'm so happy you're here!" Doug greeted you from the elevator that had just opened. "Dougie!" You ran and hugged the younger Hammond twin. You got in the elevator with him and stood in an awkward silence.

"I missed you Y/n, we all did." Doug broke the silence.
"I missed you too."
"Why didn't you ever visit? Seven fucking years and we had no idea how or where you were." He didn't seem mad, just extremely hurt. Guilt consumed you.

"I was a coward, I'm guessing TJ told you why I left," he nodded, "I still loved him, I still do but we're not meant to be and I couldn't deal with that so I ran."

*

"Teej, it's me, again." You stroked his hair. He had been unconscious for a week since you had been there at his bedside. Elaine said that he tried to gas himself in his car after a break up.

"Teej, please wake up. I saw this café, a real cute place, this morning. And there was a piano and you can play on it and if they like it they'll give you a job! It's a real nice piano, not like my old one. Remember that old thing? My dad bought it from a yard sale, sickly pink." You laughed and held his unmoving hand.

(Now you choose your ending)

Ending 1:

"It really was a disgusting colour." TJ's weak voice laughed. You smiled and laughed with him. "I missed you Teej." You held up his hand and kissed it, "I really did."

"I missed you to y/n/n. I'm so happy you're here."
"Well I'm not, you fucking idiot, what the hell were you thinking? You would've left me alone in this world!" You whispered harshly. "I didn't think you cared anymore." He replied.

"I will always care. Forever TJ Hammond because I still love you, I always will. Even when I'm old and I have a husband and kids and grandkids, I will always love you. Until the day I die, and even after." You confessed.

"I love you too, y/n/n. And not in the way I did before, after I broke up with Sean I thought about you. I thought about how beautiful you were and how kind and intelligent you were and how brave. I've been so miserable since you left. I played around when we were 'together' and I used you. I'm sorry for what I did, but I do truly love you." He pleaded for forgiveness with his eyes.

"But you're gay?"
"Not for you. I'm y/n-sexual. Hahaha. I know that I'm not straight but I really love you. Sexuality is fluid, and I like dudes but I love you." He explained and you nodded.

"Please be with me, please y/n. Will you be with me?"
"You don't even have to ask." You said as you kissed him.

*Ending 2*

"...Remember that old thing? My dad bought it from a yard sale, sickly pink. It was awful!" You laughed and held his unmoving hand.

"Sure was." He mumbled.

You beamed at him. "Heya sleepyhead, I-"

"What are you doing here y/n?" His voice was cold. "What? I'm here to see you." Your smile faltered.

"Why? You never wanted to see me before. Why now? Because I failed at killing myself? Huh? Do you wanna make yourself feel better about what you did? Is that fucking it?" He seethed.

"TJ I am here because your brother asked me here and I wanted to be here. I care about you TJ."

"Bullshit, if you cared you wouldn't have left. You only care about yourself. You never replied to my calls or texts! You never said where you went! Everyday I worried about you! And I needed you, after my break up with Sean, but you didn't care. You left me to sleep with half of DC." He sat up painfully.

"The TJ I know would never be such a fucking prick. I dunno what happened to you TJ and I'm sorry I left you but I was miserable and I had to. And who the fuck are you to judge who I sleep with? I'm sorry little-miss-chastity. It's not like you're a virgin is it? And from what I've heard, you're a crack addict. So well done Teej." You jumped from your chair and went to exit the room.

"All these years and I still loved you, so thank you TJ, I can finally move on. And maybe I'll add your brother to the long list of people I've slept with. He's got to be better than you." And with that, you slammed the door and walked straight into Doug's waiting arms.

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A/n
Hey sorry for it being so long!! Nearly 3000 words- holy fuckamole.

Sorry 'bout the angst and that it goes on a bit.

Peace brah
-Hope