Don't fucking preach to me. It ain't needed.

I already got all of that from the two 'men' that were supposed to be my friends. Ruining a good ass time for me. Like they know so much about my relationship with Gina. As if I have to be bound to her forever.

Instead of worrying about my relationship with Gina, they should worry about their own relationships. Especially Bryce. Coming at me as if his relationship was perfect. Ever since he and Tiffany got together, he's been walking around with a little too much dip on his chip. Tiff ain't even that special.

We go to Trent all the time for advice but that don't mean he had to ruin the vibe like he did. Well, he didn't exactly ruin it but he wasn't vibing like he usually does.

We ain't even have the ceremony yet and they already checking for me. Like I'm 'bout to be the worst husband ever. They'll be proven wrong. Watch me be like Carmon and go from a man hoe to a working husband. I just need time. They got their nerve.

For the record, ya man was not put in the doghouse when I got back home. After Bryce forced me out with his bullshit, I got home and Gina left as soon as my foot stepped in through the door. According to her, 'I ain't shit and ain't gonna ever be shit because I fuck around too much'.

Something she always hoops and hollers every time I come back hours late at night. It's not because these women have pulled me into their dark lairs of pleasure. She just gets on my nerves with her constant attention and yelling so I go out to a bar or something. When drunk, I have no control over my actions most of the time.

So that means, if you see me lip-lockin' with fine ass female with a fat ass and huge titties, don't say shit.

Tiarria hates Gina but, in the cold world we live in today, you can't find anyone who really love ya the way you want to be loved. The way you need to be. How could I let her go like that? Especially since 30 creeping up on me slowly. Life was getting shorter and shorter for the both of us.

Tiarria needed a stepmom, a woman that she could look up to and love, a woman that could be an example for her. Gina wasn't exactly that woman but she was the closest thing I could get.

With both of my parents gone and my sister locked up after her drug overdose years ago, I ain't really got anyone else. Why do you think Tiarria's here today?

High school wasn't shit with Maria being gone most of the time. I needed that same comfort and love that all those other students got. What was available to me was what I took. Pussy was the best comfort available.

That and a bottle of Crown after school every day after it was locked up by my oldest sister after popping up out of the blue and seeing me with it. Good thing that butter knife trick still works on many doors, right?

Maria had a party when I was about 14 years old and that's when her best friend met me. Damn that Valerie. Probably still fine as hell with her light-brown hair and Dolly Parton physique. Had to be in her late teen years. Her skinny lower half was nothing compared to those tits. You could land a plane on those things and it be a smooth landing.

Anyway, I was drunk as hell and she was wanting the dick. Couldn't refuse giving a woman what she wanted and there was already experience under my belt so we got it in on my mom's old bed. Wasn't even thinking about my mom looking down on me and thinking about how much I was disrespecting her like that.

Maria was pissed off when we found out Valerie was pregnant weeks later. They stopped being friends and that's when I found out she was pregnant. Keep in mind that I was way too young to be making babies. Though 15 was around the corner, in my family, that was too young to be having kids. Of course, I freaked the fuck out and denied that she was having my kid. Maria wasn't having it though and made sure I was at each doctor's appointment like Valerie and I were partners.

Once she had T, we agreed on a schedule making me keep her on weekends. The first weekend T came over to the house, Valerie skipped town and it didn't come back to me until we were taking T back to her house. Her rich ass family bounced as soon as she dropped T off. Haven't heard from that hoe ever since.

I may be an ass but I'm not putting my own offspring in the system. So, Maria and I were raising her. Nah, scratch that shit. Rena and I raised her since Maria was gone most of the time. Even though Rena was pissed as hell after finding out about my antics while we were dating, she still helped me raise my baby.

Every day, I saw myself in Tiarria more and more. That made me realize this now 13-about-to-be-14-year-old child was mine and that my sperm somehow got another female pregnant. At 14, I thought my sperm was invincible. Wasn't connecting with any eggs or anything until I was 18. That's when they start sticking. The lies my imaginary sex ed teacher told me.

Back to Rena though, even though I'm forever grateful for Rena being in our lives, that was the second time I fucked around on Rena. Couldn't blame me when I was 14 and stupid. The first time, I was about 13 and we were just testing the waters. That second time got Rena to hate the thought of dating me again.

What's that one saying again? Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.

Well, Rena didn't want to be fooled the third time. She thought it wouldn't be her lucky chance and not be fooled again. She refused to give me another chance. Unlike her cousin and friends, Rena actually meant what she said when she said no to me. It's now been 14 years and she still hasn't forgiven me.

Couldn't blame her for shutting me out but could you blame me for acting the way I do when the woman you really want doesn't want you anymore because you fucked up? Might was well stay fucked up after that. I don't take rejection well.

Rena tried once before when we had a birthday dinner at the college apartments but I was afraid she'd say no again. If there's one woman that deserves a ring on her finger, it's her. She just won't settle for someone like myself and I didn't blame her. That's why I got pissed off at Bryce for mentioning her.

So now, I'm stuck in this never-ending cycle of fucking, cuffing, and dodging at the last minute. Some of these hoes don't even get past fucking but others...

Others knew what they're doing when they got in my bed. They took my wallet and stole my fucking car just to crash it in to a pole, totaling it. Fucking Cookie.

All these crazy bitches I've dated and thought that Gina would be different. She's no different with her constant shopping needs and attention at home. No job or anything but it was getting too late for me to go through the same process all over again.

****

"Dad, wake up! we had so much fun last night! Aunt Rena and I had a movie night and ate tons of popcorn! Rena, you're the greatest! Thanks again!" T squeezed Rena at the door, hugging her tightly and waking me up in the process.

Hearing my daughter call me 'dad' made me feel so old. She used to call me 'daddy' and give me innocent kisses on my cheek. Now, random females at these bars call me that and it definitely doesn't feel the same. T's officially hit the teen stages and it's bothered me a bit how things she used to do are changing.

The bad part about having a teen daughter and female friends is the screaming and yapping to where you don't get any sleep. That wasn't T but it surely was Gina and my female friends.

Rena got into the house so easily because she got a key from me when we first moved here just in case something was going on between Gina and I. She's had to break a couple of arguments or come get T so Gina and I could have our roughhousing moments.

Yeah, we don't have sex. We have wrestling matches and that's because of Gina's roaring and aggressive nature in the bedroom. She's like a fucking monster when we have sex and she wonders why we don't fuck anymore. She used to be good in bed and that could be one of the reasons why I put a ring on her finger. After that, that good good went away fast.

T ran off to her room while I rubbed my eyes and tried to wake myself up. My sight eventually landed on an eye-wandering Rena in her casual wear.

"Looks like you had an epic night. You camping out on the couch and such. How was the bachelor party?" she spoke as she sat by me and my eyes wondered around her voluptuous body.

Those plump breasts, round ass, and those thick thighs have actually saved lives before but not too many. If only they could save my love life.

Suddenly, my dick grew really happy to see me some Rena. Damn, something about her being in those nude-color sweats and her college t-shirt got me more turned on.

"It was alright 'till Bryce killed the vibe by mention-"

Had to stop myself before she found out what really happened. How desperate would I look if she found out she was the one that was mentioned?

"Mentioning...?"

"Mentioning that I was getting married soon. We left after that."

Had she found out about her being the main reason for me jumping the club ship, she'd probably preach about how wrong it was to think of someone else while getting married. While it is, I couldn't help but feel guilty.

Feel guilty about fucking up with Rena. She's a woman that deserves to be loved unconditionally and, as much as she makes me want to bow to her, I can't be that man for her. Too much pride and I've already fucked up twice.

Looking back into those chocolate eyes, I watched as she grinned to say "Well, he wasn't wrong. You are getting married and that was probably guilt getting in the way. You were probably about to do something you had no business and felt guilty. Speaking of marriage, I really think you should consider T's feelings about all of this. Have you thought about just waiting to marry Gina?"

To be honest, this was all Gina's idea to get married so soon. We've been on and off for about two years but we were consistent with our relationship for about a year. She kept talking about marriage nonstop while showing me these couple pictures, videos, and finally asked me when we were getting married months later. Not thinking twice about her question, I just agreed to the idea while playing the game. We sealed the deal at the movies and she wanted everyone there to see it. Better to be married than alone, right?

"Nope. T needs a woman in her life and Gina's that woman," I answered before Rena's polite smile fell into a serious frown.

Excuse me for denying your words and dissing you like that but you just won't be that woman, Rena. You don't want to be with me anymore.

"Well, did you know that same 'woman' told T that she wasn't going to be a dancer and hit her after disagreeing with her? Did you know that Gina was that 'woman' that shredded her dance school application in front of her face because she told T that it wasn't in the budget and there was no use for it? That her dancing was shit?"

Okay, she may have gone a little too far but Gina wasn't wrong about one thing. We didn't have the money for T to go to dance school so, when she got the first application, I shredded it and told her it was lost. She got a second one and I guess Gina did that.

"She wasn't wrong though, Rena. We're broke already with this wedding shit-"

"You know what, Brian? If you won't invest in your daughter's future, I will. She's going to dance school on my dime and let Gina try to pull her out. That's when I'll really come out of character. I'll make sure that gold-digging whore chokes on some ballet shoestrings. Yeah, I heard about her shopping all the time on your dime. I can't believe you put someone else like Gina over your own daughter."

Rena finished before walking up the stairs to speak to Tiarria I guess. Damn, she looked good going up those stairs.

At the same time, hearing my friends say the same shit over and over again just to make me feel bad made me want to scream. If anything, this wedding was for T. She'll thank me later for it.

Laying my head on the arm rest of the couch, in came an ecstatic Gina with her now light brown shoulder-length hair pulled back and pink-colored skin. What's she been doing? It's 11 in the morning and she's just now coming back. These clubs closed about an hour or two after she left.

I didn't mind Gina going out and having fun for a little while but it seems like she was having a bit too much fun.

"Baby, I just found the cutest dresses for the reception. I couldn't choose between the three, so I got them all. I'll probably change after like every hour or something. This bra was too cute not to..."

There she went again. She's the reason why we stay broke. Every time she passes the mall, she goes back to shop for something. I get paid a little something at Amazon but her shopping takes away from many things like bills.

"This is why my daughter can't go to dance school. This is why we barely have money for the bills around the apartment, G. This money could've been used towards something else useful. I bet you didn't even pay the cable bill."

My words didn't settle with Gina so well. Her dark green eyes lowered into that evil look just for her to spit out "I actually did pay it. I guess you want me to take all this back. Even this beautiful lingerie set in your favorite color for our honeymoon. With those sexy stilettos that you love so much."

Holding up a black set of lingerie, she watched as my dick got hard. Might need to sit down for this one.

"You can keep all of that. I'm just saying-"

"Nah, babe. When one thing has to go back, so does everything else. Sorry, babe."

Facepalming while wondering what the hell I was thinking for even saying that shit and thinking about her sexiness coming back into our relationship, I heard T squealing down the stairs excitingly.

"Dad, I'm going to dance school! I'm so happy to be going!"

"Wait a second. I thought we agreed on her not going because of the wedding...and what the hell are you doing here?" Gina fussed pointing at Rena coming down the stairs. Here we go again.

"Hello to you too, Gina. T's going to dance school because of me so you can keep taking Brian's money. Also, I didn't know I was banned from my negligent friend's home."

Rena, don't make things worse. It's bad enough that Gina's pissed off.

Then again...drag her for all I care.

A smile came over my face while listening to Rena dig into Gina. I couldn't help it.

"Oh, you mean like how you are with your love life? Negligent? Forgetting it for thousands of children that aren't even yours? Talk about predatorial. Anyway, Brian, why the hell is she here again? I thought you took the key away from her."

Rolling my eyes at Gina's question, I opened with "She was just here to drop T off, damn. She's leaving now."

Once I sat up from the couch, my eyes landed on Rena's expression. Shocked but felt she shouldn't be. Hated being an ass to her but that's just how it had to be. Disgust afterwards, hoping I'd tell my future wife off but I couldn't. There went that pride popping off again. Also, Gina's mouth needed to stay closed.

Rena shook her head and marched out the door before slamming it behind her. Feeling so bad for speaking like that, I heard Gina complain again with "You need to take that key again and make sure that T is out of dance school before she attends."

"You can't-"

"Hush, ya false dreamer! What happens when Rena loses her little pedophilic job and has no money to pay for you to go? We'll have to pay and Brian doesn't have the money to pay for you. Get over it and go upstairs."

After Gina yelled at my daughter, I watched as Tiarria's eyes filled with tears of disbelief. Disbelief that her own father couldn't tell his witch of a fiancée that she couldn't talk to his daughter like that. How could I say that to Gina? She'd leave me again and T wouldn't have anyone. I'd be alone again.

T sped up those stairs so fast after that. A feeling of guilt peeked into my heart as Gina hollered at my ass again like last night.

Taking her bags, she walked out of the house again and didn't come back until ten in the evening. It was like last night happened all over again. There has to be an end to all of this.