What's up folks?!

Awwwwww shit! Jana in trouble now!

So what do you think of Jana so far? If you think negatively of her, hopefully, this chapter will do her some justice.

Who is your favorite roommate now?

Well, it's still Jana's turn in the spotlight. She better hope and pray that Jessica don't bear her ass in this chapter.

Please see the triggers that are in the summary of this story. Just saying. 

Alright, y'all! That's all I have! You may continue! 💜🤫

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It was eleven in the morning when I showed up at the apartment again and my mind was not ready to face the music. The thought of Jessica choking me in my sleep came to mind and scared me.

She's done it once before. Luckily, she didn't choke me long.

That thought made me stay in my car for a while, not wanting to get out. I couldn't help myself. That lustful energy took over and everything was out of my hands at that point. The woman grabbed my attention in the most sensual way, so I grabbed an ass cheek in the backseat of my car.

Damn ass cheeks. Those shits are probably going to have me ran over by Jessica.

Maybe my promise to Jess was broken. In my defense, she technically broke our promise as well with that one guy from the club a while back. It wasn't fair, in my opinion. Maybe this can be used when she's told what happened.

Who am I kidding? I may be the next shredded meat in her enchiladas.

The worst part about all of this was that I wasn't even drunk. This was out of pure lust. If I were drunk off anything, it had to be that woman's sexy stature. She pulled me in like a fish on a damn line. She tasted like the sweetest peach in the harvest. My lips were thirsty for more of her. Her touch drove me crazy. The way she bit my lip made my body hot.

Those blue eyes and sexy lips turned me on like a fucking light. Her soft body made me want to hold her and never let her go. I wanted to travel all through those damn curves of hers. She was like a sexier version of Carmon. Carmon had it all and then some, but this chick had even more.

I needed all of that.

Something I wouldn't tell Jessica is the fact that I am attracted to Carmon. She would burn me alive if she found out. Shit, she'd burn Carmon alive if she found out.

Carmon was actually my first crush. She was the first girl I was ever attracted to. I had eyes for Carmon since I turned 10 years old. She's absolutely beautiful and knows what she's doing in the bedroom. She's not always nagging at me and she listens to me every time. For a second, I thought that Jessica knew about us messing around together. Carmon's also a great persuader. We hide it well, don't we?

Honestly, I couldn't tell you what keeps me around Jess. It would be nice to have some freedom. At the same time, Jessica can't be with anyone else. Even though she deserves someone else and deserves to have that freedom, she just can't be seen with anyone else. We've been together for so long. When you see her, you see me.

We just want different things. She wants marriage and kids. I want fun and easy pussy. I'm still young. I'm only 22 years old and still need to grow. You'd think Jess would be the one who feels this way. She's only 19 years old and already wants a family. It makes no sense to me, honestly.

She loves hard and loves me more than a kid loves candy. She wouldn't leave me for anything and that's a feeling no one else has really felt towards me before. Plus, there haven't been many relationships before this one. This is actually my first serious relationship.

Maybe that's why she couldn't be seen with anyone else. She cares, loves, and treats me like I'm the worthiest person in the world. My heart sinks just thinking about that.

I had to get out of the car and talk to her.

Opening the door, my body shivered a little. Once I get in the apartment, Jess could probably shoot me. After stepping out of the car, the door shuts behind me.

Maybe I should rethink talking to Jess about this. She could chop my fingers off or something.

My mind was spinning as my feet led me up the stairs and to the apartment. As soon as my feet reached the top of the stairs, my eyes searched for my key. There were many keys on my key ring. I had old keys to my mother's house still on here for some reason.

Luckily, the door swung open and my eyes landed on a bothered Carmon standing by the door. Her dark brown eyes pierced my soul. She looked at me angrily and said, "Where the hell have you been?"

Even though she looked pissed at me, she still looked sexy as hell. I loved it. Carmon was wearing a purple robe and my eyes couldn't be moved off her breast trying to reveal themselves from behind it.

"You missed me that much sweet cheeks?" I winked and smacked her ass as my feet led me into the house. That usually calmed me down and got me back into my regular mood, but there was just something off. Normally, she slaps me on the shoulder or chuckles. She didn't do that.

"Jana, I'm serious. Where have you been? Jessica was screaming and crying in a bit of rage at three this morning. She was slamming things into walls and shit. We barely got any sleep last night," Carmon said as she fixed her robe and folded her arms. My head slowly lifted and eyes widened at her angry emotion. That definitely didn't sound like a happy Jess. Shouldn't I be used to that?

No, because she doesn't throw shit when she's pissed off.

"Why in the world would she do that shit?" I asked in shock.

"Well, you tell me. Why don't you check your room?" Carmon said pointing towards our room. Curious as to what the hell she was talking about, I walked into our bedroom and opened the door. Before my eyes could even look around, my heart and stomach felt uneasy. There was just something off about the room and I didn't even need to look deep into the room to figure it out.

Once my eyes looked around, I didn't feel so bad. Surprisingly, everything was clean. No clothes on the floor, no makeup kits spread out all over the dresser, the bed was made up, no shoes under the-

No shoes messed up under the bed? No shoes at all?

Jessica's heels were gone.

Once I opened a drawer, my eyes found none of Jessica's clothes. Nothing but a ripped up picture from when we went to Pennsylvania about two years ago and that's what frustrated me the most.

My heart dropped as soon as I came to the realization that...

"Please don't tell me my loca novia has moved out!" I said rushing out of the room and standing in the doorway. Fear crept into my heart and I didn't know what the hell to do.

Suddenly, Rena came out of her room. In her Tinkerbell pajamas, she rubbed her eyes and yawned with "It's 'novia loca'. The adjective goes after the noun in Spanish."

Here goes the Spanish expert again.

"Rena, there's no time for all of these games," I said looking at her with anger in my eyes.

Jessica was gone and I needed to know where she was. Rena is Jess' cousin and the closest person to her. She had to say something to her.

"Well, you had time for these games last night. Jessica stormed off at 3 this morning. All. Because. Of. You. AGAIN," Rena blamed in resentment. My eyes lifted to her in confusion. She never spoke to me like that before. So much for her telling me where Jess is.

"Still think I'm joking around, Jana?" Carmon asked as she continued to watch me angrily. I slammed my body down on the couch and just groaned.

"Well, where the hell did she go?" I asked out of frustration. Like they were really going to tell me where she was. My girl was gone, but how do I know it was because of me? They may have been mad at me for no reason. Maybe this was a joke or something. They were trying to pay me back for when I shook that nasty milk off of me and onto them.

"Well, she's-"

"We aren't telling you that! You don't deserve to know," Rena said as she poured some juice in her cup. She interrupted what Carmon was about to say. Even though I love Rena, I really believe that she should also have a lock for her mouth.

"What makes you think that I don't deserve to know, Rena?! I'm her girlfriend!" I shouted in fury. I couldn't hold back. This was enough. My mouth gave up.

"And?! I'm her cousin! Family over fools, bitch! If her COUSIN doesn't want to fucking tell you where she is, she doesn't have to! You're the one who fucked around on my cousin...AGAIN! I'm not telling you anything she doesn't want me telling you and, Carmon, shut your ass up as well," Rena said with so much rage. She had never been this frustrated with anyone since she spoke with Brian years ago.

Rena was always the one who put her family before her friends. Jess and Rena just had that kind of connection that no one could get between. Of course, Rena wouldn't tell me where my girl was, but how the fuck would she know what happened? Rena's a couch potato. She wouldn't have known about pigs flying if it happened right outside of the apartment.

"Carmon, can I see you-"

"NO THE FUCK YOU CANNOT SEE HER! Nor Tiffany. You can see yourself in your bedroom and call Brian for answers," Rena said as she sipped on her drink in the kitchen. That was it!

"How do you know if I did something, Rena? Maybe I was just working. You do know that my job runs later than usual, right?" I said as my head came up from the arm rest, practically telling on myself. These girls knew everything. You could barely keep secrets from them.

"Jana, stop it. The girl you fucked with is a friend of Brittany's and guess who was at the same club you were 'working' at?" Carmon said as she quoted me and sat on the couch.

Fuck that nosey bitch.

She's always clubbing and shit, but she was supposed to be gone by now. Brittany wasn't supposed to stay long. She had to go back to Cali to be a prostitute for those billionaire men.

"Oh she was working alright. Working her fingers into another whore's vagina. Sadly, she's just too stupid to cover her own tracks," Tiff said as she came from her room in silk white pajamas.

Oh great. Here comes the bitch that knows it all. Sometimes, I hate these girls. They're just nosey and dramatic.

"Is this a test or something? Like a prank? If so, Jess! You can come out now. We're done playing," I called loudly.

"You are really that stupid, aren't you? Girl, if this was a test, you would have failed miserably. In my personal opinion, she did the right thing by leaving. You cheat too much," Tiff said as she prepped for a cup of coffee in the kitchen.

"No one asked for your smart comments, Tiff," I said. No one ever asks for her 'personal opinion'. Usually, they're just insults. She just tells us her opinion like someone asked. Stupid bitch.

Placing my hand over my face and sliding it down my face, I thought about how the fuck Brittany knew about me being in a relationship. That bitch was just hitting on me months ago. Now she wants to play Save A Woman.

"Aw, you called me smart. Thanks, but you need to get there," Tiffany said as she continued fixing her coffee. My eyes rolled at her comment. Typical Tiff.

"She's not wrong though, Jana. Jessica loves you like crazy and you keep treating her like crap. If you didn't want her, why didn't you just tell her?" Carmon asked. It sounded like when Jess asked me that same question a while ago. I just wanted to play around, too. Not with Jess' heart, but...with the pussy.

That sounds bad, doesn't it?

"I do-"

"No you don't. You want all of these other plastic Barbie dolls. Jessica deserves so much more than you, but she still sticks around for some odd reason. How would you feel if she cheated on you with another person?" Rena said defending Jess.

"Especially a man, She needs some good penis in her life," Tiff added.

Giving her the middle finger, I shot up from the couch and said "Ha. How funny, Tiff. You know what? You really belong in a circus since you want to be the clown."

Tiffany rolled her eyes and continued drinking her coffee. Standing up with force, I walked back into my room and slammed the door shut. My heart was filled with anger, but this is something I should be used to. I cheat, Jess runs away to Brian's house, she comes back, and we talk about it. Then we get back together.

"DON'T SLAM THAT DOOR AGAIN, YA CHEATER!" Tiff shouted from the living room. While throwing my petite body on the bed, my mind instantly told me to call Brian's corny ass. Pulling my cell from under me, I dialed his number and waited for him to answer.

"What's up, bank manager?" Brian answered. There was no time to make jokes.  I had to find my girl.

"Not now with that mess, bro. Where the hell is Jess? Please tell me she's with you," I asked frustrated.

"Bro, I heard about you and her. She is nooooot happy, fam," he said playfully. Either this guy was high as hell or he was joking around.

"Nothing gets by you, does it?" I asked.

"Nope! Anyway, she ain't here. She did stop by early this morning, banging on the door and shit. Becca was super pissed. She marched to that door and opened it," he confessed playfully...again. Wasn't he just...you know what? Never mind.

"How is she not there anymore, Brian?! She's usually there!" I asked in panic. That was strange. Where else could she have gone?

"Well, she came up here with tears in her eyes. She told us what happened, slept for about an hour, then left-"

"BRIAN! I don't fucking care about the itinerary of her time there! Where the hell did she go when she left you?!" I shouted in anger again.

"I was getting there. Damn. She told me, but I could barely understand her," he chuckled. Sometimes, I wonder how the hell we're still friends. He sees everything as a fucking joke until he's in the hot seat. This scary shithead thinks he's the shit. Watch this.

"Look here, Brian. I have no problems speeding over to your shitty ass apartment and breaking your fucking neck. I have no problems with addressing this little love square you have going on between Becca, Tiff, and Rena. All three of them will fuck you up as I watch with a bowl of popcorn in my hand. I have no problems taking Becca and tapping that ass a couple of times. NOW, tell me where the fuck my girl is or The Bad Girls Club will be filmed at your place," I seeped through my teeth in anger.

A silence fell over our conversation after that. Losing my girl wasn't a game or a joke. Playtime was over. "Fine. She's on her way to Leo's house. Actually, she may already be there. Call her and find out," he finally revealed.

FUUUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKK! Not this fucking drug dealing bastard!

He's been trying to get Jess back ever since we've been together. He's like that annoying ex who tries to destroy a relationship their past lover is currently in. Why? Maybe it was because he wanted her to feel lonely or maybe he really wanted her back. I don't know. All I knew was that he was dangerous. He literally put Jess in danger when she was pregnant, cheated on her multiple times, and almost ruined her life.

Why the fuck would she go back to that fucktard though?

Realizing that Brian was still on the phone, I hit my hand against the bed and said "Brian, why the fuck would I call her?"

"Oh yeah. You right. You in relationship jail," Brian chuckled as he crunched on something. I was over it.

"You know what? Let's see how Becca would feel about you dating Tiff at the same time you're dating her. By the way, I'm adding an extra 10 dollars to your debt just because of your chuckling and shit. I want it all in cash by tomorrow, you jobless sucker," I said before ending the call.

Thinking about Jess being with this prick made me even more aggravated. Grabbing my keys, my feet led me to the car. Ignoring any comments my roommates had to say, I exited the apartment and got in my car.

Just thinking about those two together makes my blood boil. She was mine and he wanted to take her from me again. It wasn't fair. This guy almost killed her but she still goes back to him. No matter how much I try to keep her away from him, she still keeps in contact with him.

Why though? His whole family was head of a drug ring. He wanted Jess in the game, but she said no. He forced himself in her and gave her three kids that she didn't need.

And I'm the bad person here?

Hopefully, she wasn't talking to him about anything serious again.

Once I arrived at his condo, my eyes fell over the different colored buildings sitting beside each other. My heart filled with anger as my eyes found an enamored Jessica smiling from ear to ear. Why? Because Leo's broad body was wrapped around her like a fucking pig in a blanket of mud. They were standing on the damn balcony, cuddling up to each other. My eyes had enough.

I got out of the car and slapped the door as hard as I could. My eyes didn't want to believe that she was involved with Leo. She couldn't have been considering the idea of being with him. She had to have learned her lesson since the last time she was with him.

My feet led me up to his condo and, once I got there, my hand beat on the door for about two minutes. Waiting for an answer, my mind reminded me about a time in my life where anger didn't save someone in my family. Basically, my mind told me to calm my angry ass down. I had to approach her with an open heart and mind.

She had every right to be here due to my mistakes.

Once the door opened, my eyes landed on a tall, medium-tan skinned, muscular Leo with his eyebrows looking patchy. His hairy arms crossed with a smirk growing across his face. "Look who's here. What can I do for you?" his dark tone came out with.

"Can I talk to-"

"What girl?" he interrupted as his smirk turned to a grin and he combed through his slick black hair. His dark brown eyes watched me as I took a deep breath. He was really enjoying this.

"Jessica. That's my girlfriend," I dragged as he chuckled. I should have known this was going to happen.

"Sorry. Don't know who you're talking about," he shrugged as he ran his tongue over his teeth slightly. He gave off a predator type of vibe and I wasn't feeling it.

"Leo, I just saw her on the balcony. I know she's here. At least give me a chance to talk to her," I begged. There was no other way I could go about this. If my hand were to grab his shirt and throw him on the ground like I wanted, he would have his family all on my ass with guns pointing at me.

"She doesn't want to talk to you though. You fucked up just in time for me to take her. You can leave now," he said as he attempted to shut the door in my face. My arm stretched out and stopped him from shutting the door.

"Wait. If I talk to her and can't get through to her in five minutes, you can have her," I spoke feeling terribly. He was right. Everyone was right. Blaming her for being upset wasn't an option. I did wrong and I know that.

He sighed and rolled his eyes towards the living room, saying "Jess, someone's here to see you. If you don't want to come by the door, you don't have to though." Crossing my arms, my eyes wandered around the condo while he walked off. It was very roomy and red. Red couches, chairs, kitchen island, walls, and more.

After studying his condo, a refreshed Jessica came up to the door and her genuine smile changed straight to a frown as soon as her eyes landed on me. Time to face the truth.

Jana, you only have five minutes. Don't say anything stupid.

"Hi," my lips blurt awkwardly. Didn't I just say don't say anything stupid?

She rolled her eyes and almost shut the door until my feelings changed. "Jess, I can't tell you how sorry I-"

"Save it. You're not sorry. You say that every time and don't mean it. Come up with something else," she said as she almost shut the door again. That's the third time the door has almost been shut on me. I pushed the door open and hold it against the wall with my right hand. It was starting to bother me.

"Jessica, I don't know what it is. For some reason, I can't let you go. You can't be with anyone else, but me. We've been together for a while. You show me so much love and support. That's something no one else has done for me. I'm not used to that. I just forgot about your feelings in many situations. That's not acceptable or excusable, but that's how I felt. Your love was meant for me and I was meant to love you somehow. I just don't know how yet. It's all different to me," I explained.

She crossed her arms, with her dark brown eyes watching me, and said "Still? Jana, we've been together for about 3 years now. In those years, you've had plenty of chances to get it right. You chose the night life over me. That's not fair. It's like being in love by myself. Jana, I'm tired of being tired and angry at you. This happens over and over again. I'm over it."

She wasn't wrong. It seemed like I couldn't say anything else after that, but my lips had other plans.

"That's true. I did, but I refuse to see you with anyone else. Especially someone that can kill you. If you don't want to be with me, I understand. You just can't be with Leo though," I blurted.

"You can't tell me who to be with. You don't own me," Jessica said as her eyebrows furrowed.

"You're right, but I'll miss the many things you did for me. Like the way you cooked my favorire meals, fluffed the pillows, started my showers, combed my hair-"

"Damn, you did all of that shit for her? You really did fuck up, Jana," Leo said coming up from behind Jess and interrupting me. I wasn't talking to him though. He did just remind me of a great idea that my mom and I used to do. My time was almost up so I had to talk fast.

"Hey, how about this? Since I cheated, all of my time and attention goes to you for two whole weeks. No clubs, no hanging with the guys, no girls, just you and me. I'll rub your feet, make your dinner, comb your hair, and more. I'll cater to your every need. I won't lust after another woman again. I just want you to come back home, Jess. Please," I begged again with all of my might. My pride left the party. It was stripped from me as soon as I said that.

Did I really just promise her I'd do all of these things? This was not like me at all.

Anyway, this is what happened every time I did something wrong when I was a kid. I did something for my mom for a while to pay her back. Maybe it could bring Jess around.

"Well, Jana. I'm sorry to tell you this...actually, I'm not too sorry about this. Your five minutes is up. You can leave now. Damn, babe. How desperate-"

"Hush, Leo...Jana, are you serious?" Jessica called with a concerned look on her face. If this relationship was going to work out, I had to put my all into it. Some things could be sacrificed to keep my girl around. For Jess, I was willing to give up a few things.

My head nodded slowly as I looked up at her. She may not look like Carmon or any other girl I've cheated on her with, but she had one thing those girls didn't.

That strong and tough love for me.

True love was something I couldn't lose because no one else would give it to me. Jessica was the only one who would give that to me. I just had to learn how to give it back. She also knew how to scratch a certain part of my ear and make me go to sleep. She's the only one that can do that.

"FINALLY!!!!! Thank God! You can start by rubbing my feet when we get home," Jessica shouted and smiled at me. My heart jumped and my arms wrapped around her so tightly. This whole chase was tiring and I didn't want it to happen again.

Kissing her forehead multiple times, Leo interrupted with a "Can you guys leave now? I got other plans." I grabbed my lady's hand and studied her as we walked to her car.

"Jessica, I love you so much," I said as I opened her car door for her. That was something I didn't say often. It had so much emotion behind it. That day was the day I changed my ways.

"You know what I'm gonna love? You sucking each and every one of my toes tonight," she said before she got into the car and shut the door. Why the hell did I make that promise to cater to her? My mouth didn't go on anyone's foot. Not even my own.