•June 4th, 2019

- Y'know, ever since I met Delilah, my life has been an up an down roller coaster filled with the highest highs and the shortest lows. Which is one of the fun parts about it, it's quite a rush.

Today our school went on a trip for our Eighth Grade Graduation, we went on Jet Boats and to an Aerial Park- but before we went, there were other things at hand.

After our final classes the teachers directed us to the cafeteria, once there I grabbed my 2023 shirt and bumped into Delilah. Delilah smirked at me, as always, my heart skipped a beat. They wrapped their arm around my waist, I smiled lightly.

"Sit on the bus with me?" They asked gently. I nodded in agreement.

Delilah went to get food and I went with Gianna to put on my shirt, it nearly went lower than my knees. I walked out of the washroom stall, she snickerd.

"What?" I felt awkward.

"You're just cute."

I rolled my eyes.

"Pfft, whatever, let's goooo!"

Gianna went to put on her shirt, I waited, bouncing up and down impaicently, Gia walked out of the stall and went to look in the mirror.

"Okay, you look pretty, now let's gooo!!!"

I dragged her out of the washroom and back to the lunch room we went. I ran back to Delilah, I put my arms over their shoulders and they put theirs around my waist, I laid my head on their chest and we stood there like that for a moment. When we broke free from that position we still stayed right beside one another, holding hands. Gabby kept looking at me, I felt myself becoming awkward, just when I thought I couldn't handle it, they dismissed us to the busses.

Delilah ran to the last bus, I follow them, and like I promise I sat with them, even though they made me sit on the INSIDE. As the bus began to move I watched Delilah's expression all the more, the bus got louder, they looked more and more upset, that and the fact that they squeezed my hand whenever it got too loud. Each time that they look upset I would smooth my thumb around their arm or thigh. The bus ride didn't take too long, but it was annoying and I'm pretty sure Delilah wanted to backhand most of the kids on the bus.

The bus came to a stop at the jet boat launch, Delilah stood up and put their hand behind their back hinting that I should hold on. I grabbed it and we walked to the end of the bus. Delilah got off and look up at me as I hopped off the last three steps, they waited, I felt happy that they waited. When I got down they started running for the twisty path that led down to the docks. The rocks made me slipped and I worried about falling.

"I'm going to fall." I whined.

"No you won't it's okay, I've got you." I didn't think I needed the words until I heard them, they were smooth and made my heart melt. They held my hand the whole way down.

We saw the front boat was already filled and our boat was getting close, we got into the second to last row, but quickly changed our mind and jumped over the seats into the very back row. I giggled a bit. Delilah put our phones in a safe spot and then turned attention to me, I turned red. I wrapped my arms around them and cuddled up close, I felt best that way, I could hear their heartbeat.

"You just going to stay like that until we start moving, baby?" I nodded solemnly. They smoothed my hair as I lay there peacefully. I put my head back up and they kissed my cheek, I smiled, holding my tongue, I refused to do what I was going to.

Suddenly, the other boat took off into the water, they all waved, not too long after they left, we were on our way. That's when it all really started. Before the boat started to go fast, I was looking out at the trees, I felt Delilah's head by my neck, I smiled. - But then I was started by a light bite on my neck, jumped a bit.

"You scared me!" I squealed turning red.

I made it seem a whole lot worse than it actually was, I was really only upset because I turned more red than an apple.

They set their head back by my neck, slowly they kissed my neck, my face became redder each second, every once in a while they'd bite, I wouldn't jump or squeal, just turn red, I bit down hard on my lip, being unable to control the pigment of my skin nor the shivers I was getting. They stopped, the butterflies in my stomach swarmed and seemed to beat up my Insides. Delilah bit their lip, I don't think I've ever blushed as much as I had during that moment.

The boat began to speed up and I squirmed in my seat, Delilah wrapped their arm around me and I moved in closer. It basically break checked us and came to a quick halt throwing water up into the air and sprinkling all over us. Delilah and I looked at each other surprised, I giggled in surprise. We spend up again and whipped around all throughout the water, then, we came to a stop, the water splashed us once again.

The boat began to slow down and the driver started to point out rock formations, I'm pretty sure no one on board was listening. Delilah pointed that out. I put my arms around their neck and rested my hands on their chest. They kissed my cheek.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

They seemed rather amused.

"That's the first time you've ever said it back in person." They gawked.

I shook my head and smiled a bit. The boat began to speed up again. A little while later we were much further from where we'd started.

"I'm shivering." I commented.

"Well, put on your hoodie."

"But I don't wanna do that." *;-;*

"Then wrap it around you."

They snatched up my hoodie and began to wrap it around me, as they finished the boat began to speed again. I squealed and held tight on to Delilah.

"It's okay, I've got you, you won't fall, you're okay."

The boat came to a screeching halt and the the front tip sunk into the water throwing it up into the air and all over the passengers. I threw half my body into Delilah's lap covering their abdomen. When I popped back up from their lap I choked on a laugh, their abdomen stayed dry, but their face was soaking wet. I tore the hoodie off my shoulders and began to pay the water off of their cheeks, they stopped me and began to kiss me all over, causing my face to become dripping with water. I used my wrist to wipe the wetness away from my face, I giggled, and squeezed their thigh.

As the boat slowed and continued my mind continued to wander, so many things I wanted to do and say, but lacked the confidence, I built up enough confidence to kiss them on the cheek.

"First time you've done that, is today my lucky day?"

My face turned red and I put my head to their chest, then pulled it back up to face them, they kissed me on the cheek, I kissed them back, it continued for a while until I thought for a second.

"Are you just going to kiss me every time I kiss you?"

"Yup." They nodded yes.

I went to kiss them on the cheek and they moved real quick their lips landed on mine for a moment and I laughed over how awkward it was.

I kissed them once more, they kissed back, then I zoned out seeing that Gabby was looking at me, Delilah glared daggers in her direction.

"I'm waiting for Ariah to look at me."

I looked once and quickly turned away.

Delilah grabbed on to my hand and squeezed it tightly. For the last few minutes of us sitting on the boat, I cuddled up close to Delilah and rested my head against their chest, I could hear their breathing, I was smiling and turning red uncontrollably. Even though I was red as heck, I was also happy as heck.

The boat pulled ashore and I held Delilah's hand until they went to get off, I followed them shortly. As we went up I grabbed on to their hand tighter. Gianna commented on feeling like a third wheel. When we got to the too we found Gabby and Olivia waiting for us.

"Hurry up, I decided to be a good friend and wait for once!"

"No one asked you to wait." Gianna argued.

"Actually, I did." Olivia retorted, I could almost see the steam exploding from her ears.

Delilah rolled her eyes and growled something about Gabby being annoying.

Gabby looked at me her mouth agape.

"You're so red! That was some scene on the boat."

I covered my face and Delilah looked at me, I dropped my hands.

Delilah scoffed.

"You really aren't, you're okay."

We walked up the Rocky trail hand in hand, or until a golf cart came up the path and Delilah lightly used her hand and pushed my waist to show me out of the way of the vehicle. I was amused, knowing that someone thought of me at all, it's a good feeling.

When we ran up to to the bus, Delilah waited for me to skip up the stairs before them. I got into my seat and waited patiently for Delilah to board. They sat beside me, I began to play with their thighs, as I get bored rather easily. I rested my legs on them and put my head on their shoulder, I feel safest there, I feel safe anywhere with them, really.

Soon enough we arrived at the aerial park. We loaded off of the bus me and Delilah locked hands. After the group picture that I hid from we went and put on harnesses and helmets.

Gianna looked at me and smirked as I wobbled the helmet on the top of my head.

"You're cute."

I shook my head in disbelief.

We went to the ropes and took off, I fell too many times to count and almost DIED (that's a large exaggeration) I went in a tire and that was fun. There were a lot of things that happened.

We all decided to finish early and went into the area where there was food and stuff like that. Delilah got me a plate, but I refused to get anything, they seemed bothered.

"Please? For me?"

God, if they only knew how bad I wanted to just because they asked me to. I couldn't, I don't want to nor need I explain why, but each time they said something about it I wanted to vomit. In an attempt to appease them I got soda rather than water, I really didn't even want to drink it, but I tried.

I grabbed on to Delilah's hand after most people had went back on the ropes course, and they held mine, letting go every once in a while to do something on their phone.

Later on I moved my chair out of the way and took a seat on the wooden floor in front of them, I set my head in their lap and sighed.

"What's wrong? Tired?"

I just nodded.

I turned around so I was facing their abdomen, I set my head on my arms in their lap, they smoothed my hair over. I wrapped my arms around their waist and just looked up at them.

Soon, Delilah had to leave, and I felt sad, so I hugged them, kissed them on the cheek, and wished them on their way.

And yeah.

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•June 10, 2019.

School ended on the 7th, it was a day filled with ups and downs and many many emotions, but it ended alright.

Last night I had a dream, I don't remember all of it, just parts, and it's not the first dream I've had like this, except there was a different ending. Both dreams involved Delilah.

I wasn't sure if I should talk about the dream I had because it was weird, but whatever, I'm already strange enough 🤷🏼‍♀️. I could do with a bit more.

I don't remember what's really happening in the dream, but I know I'm in a studio of sorts, maybe a department, I'm not quite sure, there were a few other people from my school besides Delilah, but the only one I remember is Ashley McClyman.

Everyone was messing around, taking pictures with cameras, I could feel my heart beating out of my chest, but I don't know why, there wasn't really any reason. Delilah grabbed me by the hand, we danced for a moment, from there I don't know what happened. Not until the part where Delilah was rushing out of the room and everybody in the room besides us had vanished.

I lightly grabbed their hand, I just barely caught them by their fingertips. They turned to me, they looked rather concerned. Suddenly it's in third person view, I looked restless, my lower lip stuck out in a pout. I couldn't figure out what I wanted, though it was obvious that the me I was looking at from third person did. Delilah seemed to know what I wanted too, but I guess they just didn't want to give me what I was practically begging for? I don't quite know.

They began to turn away and walk again, but I catch their arm and pull them to me, I kissed them. It was back in first person. I felt like it went on forever, and I'm unsure if that's where the dream ended or not, but that's the part I remember.

It's so strange. But it was just a dream. A crackhead dream that gave me a fucking heart attack.

Anyways, have a nice day, night, evening, whateverrrr! Thank you for listening to / reading about my strange dream.
Love you.

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• June 14, 2019.

So, yesterday night I was on the phone with Delilah, we were talking about something, and Delilah kept saying things about themselves that made me upset because they weren't true. I told Delilah that I'd show up at their house and bite them, they didn't believe that I would, right then and there I knew what I was going to do. I told them I would show up, though it would be trouble figuring out their location, they doubted me so much that they sent me their address, little did they know that was a promise I certainly would keep.

My family woke up rather early this morning to get ready for the Ducks, Deer Park, and Swimming, I was less than amused. I get bored quite easily and didn't want to go. The thoughts that stirred in my head were quite enough to con me into going though. I was spaced out most of the day, staring at things that weren't there. I was deep in thought, but I can't figure out why not what I'd been thinking about.

We did everything, or at least everything besides swimming. Me and my mother had to stop at my grandmother's to get my lanyard, during the drive there I revealed to my mother that I had a note for one of my friends that I really needed to give them (A list of things about Delilah that I love). My mother said okay and that when we were done getting my lanyard we'd stop and drop it off, I asked her if I could stay longer, she said she wanted me to go to the beach, I was rather annoyed.

We arrived at Fink's house, that's when my mother realised which friend I had been talking about, because Delilah and their brother were playing in the grass. I practically flew over the middle rows of seats and out the door. I wrapped my arms around Delilah tightly.

"I missed you."

I was so happy. I showed them the kitten in the car and bounced up and down with joy. I went to my mother.

"Mum, please, do I really have to go to the beach?"

"Everybody's waiting for you, I made Chris stay, what about you?"

"Please? I'll love you forever and ever."

Delilah chimed in.

"You already have to."

"I know, but please, I'll keep the kitten with me."

My mother made a comment about Delilah teaching me some manners and I spaced out.

"Is that a yes?"

"Give me the damn cat and go."

I smiled. "Thank you, mum!"

Delilah and I ran to their yard, their mother seemed upset, their brother went inside, suddenly, I felt ignorant and rude. Delilah argued with their mother for a few moments. They offered to take their brother with us to the park, but he was upset. We walked to the park, hand in hand.

When we arrived at the park we got on top of the outside of the tunnel. We stayed up there for quite a while, we held hands and hugged. And then I bit them. I didn't forget what I'd threatened. Delilah moved a bit.

"Damn, I thought you'd forgotten."

"Nope."

I got closer to Delilah, we moved around in our places a lot, until we decided to leave and go back to Delilah's house. I forgot Delilah's sweater on the playground. As we walked there I told Delilah I was scared that maybe our parents knew each other and didn't like one another because they both worked at the picture studio around the same time.

We arrived back at Delilah's house to find their mum pulling out of the driveway. Delilah talked to her really quick and turned to face me. They were talking about getting food. Delilah glanced at me.

"She won't eat."

My face burned with embarrassment. They talked for a moment longer.

"You wanna come with?"

I nodded my head. We got into the car, I was seated in the middle with Delilah to my right. We began driving, Delilah's mother had a lot to say about a lot of things, but I didn't boat much attention to which things, just her tone of voice. We arrived at Walmart, I walked around with Delilah most of the time, anxiety bubbling within me. We left not too long after we entered.

Then their mum drove to McDonald's, I suddenly felt Ill. Delilah tried really hard to convince me to get something, but I refused.

"Don't want."

They seemed fed up with me, I felt useless and annoying, but I didn't know what else to do. They tried to get me to share theirs, but I couldn't.

That's when we headed back to Delilah's house. When we got there we went straight to Delilah's room, we talked for a moment, until their dad started banging on the door.

"No closed doors."

"No." Delilah argued.

"If you don't open the door your friend will go home."

"No."

Delilah shot me a reassuring glance and I once again felt safe, their Dad left the door. Not much longer after that we went to the Ducks, My second time, my second picture.

I was once again met with Delilah trying to force me to eat, I shook my head, anxiety gnawed at me. On the boat, Delilah and I sat by each other, making jokes and cuddling, stuff. It eventually ended and we got the picture and left.

Soon Delilah's mum said that Delilah's little brother was going to be going to the arcade, the suspense built in my chest until I was ready to explode, Delilah was supposed to go. The idea of being around so many people made me tremble, I told Delilah I was bound to have a panic attack. We eventually settled on going to the jumping park, though I was still a nervous wreck. Delilah assured me I'd be fine.

"Jump with me?"

How could I say no?

Soon we arrived at the jumping park, anxiety beat at me ravenously. We left the car and entered the building, we had some issues with my waiver, but soon we were able to go out and jump.

We went back and forth between the ordinary trampolines and dodgeball, until it was 9:03, that's when I went and told Delilah I was going to the washroom. They seemed concerned, I think they saw straight into my soul, I wanted to turn away.

"Well, I'm not letting you go alone."

At first I was upset that they came with, but I realised it was much better to have them there with me so I didn't have a panic attack.

As we approached Delilah looked at me.

"Why? Just need to calm down?"

I merely nodded.

We walked in, Delilah went into one of the stalls and I stared at myself in the mirror, my cheeks were a vibrant red and I looked terrible, I tried to push back the feeling. I jumped up on top of the counter and stayed there, moments later Delilah came out of the stall.

They looked at themselves in the mirror and said things about themselves that made me frustrated, I couldn't understand how a person that looks as pretty as they do could ever feel and say the things they do. I argued for a moment. That's when they noticed me staring, I blinked in anxiety.

They started towards me.

"Whatever you say, baby."

My heart pounded, my mind begged it to shut up, they wrapped their arms around my waist and pulled me close to them, I bit my lower lip in anticipation. They slowly inched closer and closer, I could see the shadows bouncing off their face, I turned more red than before. We stared at each other for a long moment, I gazed into their dark honeycomb eyes for what seemed like a million years. They puckered their lips, they were a soft shade of pink and glistening in the terrible lighting of the washroom, I observed for a moment. I barely thought about what I was doing until the moment our lips met. Their lips were warm and I felt my heart banging inside my ribcage.

As soon as it had started it had also subsequently ended, Delilah took a video of me sitting atop the counter and put it on snapchat, I wasn't so amused. Soon after they also took a video of us hugging, I bit them.

"You really need to cool it on your kinky shit." They giggled, I bit my lip, quite annoyed.

As we left the washroom Delilah gave me a challenge.

"Bet you can't catch me!"

They began running, I wasn't going to let them just win, so I put up a chase, and I caught them. So hmph, suck it Karen.

We returned to play some more dodgeball. We kept getting out. At some point (a few different times) we were just lying down on the trampolines, either on our phones or very viciously trying to tickle one another. And once or twice snaking each other's ass or thighs (mainly me, but Delilah started it, sooo)

With a few minutes left we went to the table, Delilah's parents were no where in sight. I spun around on the chair for a while and we talked about random things. We got on to that one topic again, Delilah seemed to be beating themselves up about how they look. I hate that, I find them amazingly pretty and beautiful, but they don't seem to see what I see.

"How can you call yourself that? You've seen what I look like, and your so beautiful, I just-"

"Your pretty though."

"I'm not."

"Personally, you're the prettiest girl I've ever met."

I didn't know how to show that I fully knew they were lying, I put my finger tips on my under eye and pulled down, rolling my eyes all the while. I felt angered by what they said, how they could just beat theirself up and act like I look pretty at all.

Delilah seemed flabbergasted.

"Oh really?" They remarked.

I rested my legs on them and nodded.

"I'm not talking to you."

Seconds later we were talking once again, we had a few minutes left of jumping so we went to play dodgeball, Me and Delilah against their brother, Delilah and their brother against me, me and Delilah's brother against Delilah. Soon after we had to leave.

We went back to Delilah's house, I was only there for four minutes before my parents messaged me they were getting close. I got off of the recliner where me and Delilah both were sitting and walked outside. We danced in their driveway, even though Delilah was worried about my parents seeing us. We hugged, our faces were so close to one another's, my heart wouldn't stop beating, every time I thought of kissing them I'd hang my head on their chest, giving up because I was becoming so red, each time Delilah would kiss my forehead. Finally I built up enough courage to do it, I tilted my head to match Delilah's and before I knew it our lips were together, Delilah pulled away and I rested my head on their shoulder, we stayed there for a moment, just hugging. Just then my parents pulled in, I gave Delilah one last hug and said my goodbyes.

TBC