I don't feel connected with people anymore. I feel as if every day I'm detaching myself from everyone. I stopped making eye contact. I'm less excited to tell people about things... Anything. It's almost like I'm scared to get close to people.

Maybe it's cause of my mental health, I'm scared people are gonna think I'm crazy or contagious. I'm scared I'll never have a real relationship again.

The person I feel close to is her. She's me but outside my body, she doesn't feel like me. Yeah she looks like me, but she's not me. So we just call her, well her/she. It feelings almost inhumane to give her a name.

I can't tell what's real and what's fake. I'm just at the line of confusion. I work in a restaurant so I can't think too much of it, but it's still happening. Everything looks surreal. I don't know how much longer I can take this.