Sometimes when I want to kill myself I look up sad things loved ones wish they could tell a person who committed suicide. You know those things that are like "dad I know you died because you were sad and didn't want to make us sad, but all you did was push all of the pain on us". I read it because I'm too scared to tell anyone how I feel, but I need to hear the words sometimes. But sometimes it doesn't help, and sometimes I still want to kill myself.