I woke up and yawned. Sun was shining in my window so I assumed it was 8'O clock or so. I looked at my phone and sure enough it was 8:30. I looked over at Eleanor she was still sleeping. I decided to let her sleep, considering we had been up till 2:00 in the morning.

I got out of bed stifling another yawn, and walked to the bathroom. I washed my face and didn't bother to put makeup on. I brushed through my hair and pulled it together into a high ponytail. I went back to my room and got my clothes out. I changed into a sports bra, and a crop top that went to a inch or so above my belly button. I pulled on some under armor shorts, since I was planning on going for a run before everyone woke up.

I slipped on my running shoes and grabbed my earbuds and phone. I walked downstairs, and ate an orange before going out. I left a note that said...

Out for a run❤
-Jess

I put my earbuds in and turned on some upbeat music. I stretched and started off at a light jog. I picked up speed and was soon running. I ran around the block twice and slowed down. I had to take a break every once and a while to use my inhaler, but my asthma wasn't super bad. I was getting tired and was out of breath. I walked back to the house wiping the sweat of my face. I hadn't run into anyone, which I was glad for. I hated people watching me run. It made me feel so insecure.

I arrived back at the house before realizing I didn't have a key to open the door. I mentally slapped myself for being so forgetful, and knocked on the door hoping they would hear.

"I'LL ANSWER IT!" I heard Louis shout through the door.

He opened the door a second later. " HELLO!"

"Hey, sorry I forgot a key." I said shyly. I felt so stupid.

"Oh thats okay." He said at normal volume. Wait what am I saying, for Louis normal volume was yelling. So I should say he was being quiet.

I went inside hoping nobody else was up. It was only 9:15 so I wasn't sure. I pulled out my earbuds, and slipped them into my pocket.

"Morning." I heard Niall's soft Irish accent say from the kitchen.

"Morning." I said trying not to freak out. Here I was in shorts and a crop top. I was praying he wouldn't come out and see me.

"How was your run?" Louis asked, I forgot for a moment that he was there.

"Oh, it was good." I said. Niall hadn't come into the living room yet." I'm going to go change and shower." I headed upstairs.

"Okay, I'm making breakfast if you didn't eat already." Niall said still in the kitchen.

"Oh, okay I'll be down." I said, I was planning on eating a little something more then just the orange I had before my run.

I went into my room and Eleanor was still sleeping. I closed the door behind me and showered quickly before changing into some sweatpants and a T-shirt. I made sure to put some concealer on my cuts. I went back into my room Eleanor was still sleeping.
I shook her gently trying to wake her up. She didn't move so I resorted to a more evil way of waking her up. I went to the bathroom and filled up a cup with some water. I know what you're thinking, but no I would never dump water on my own bed it was just for threatening purposes.

"Eleanor." I whispered right in her ear.

She moaned and rolled over.

"Wake up or you are gonna be wet." I said in a sing song voice.

She shot straight up banging her head on mine and causing me to spill the water on myself.

"Ow!" I exclaimed rubbing me head.

"Oh gosh sorry Jess. Why are you wet?" She asked looking at me curiously.

"Oh I was holding a cup of water."  Apparently she didn't hear me about the water.

"Oh, I'm so sorry." She said." I'm so stupid." She got out of bed.

"No,no it's fine." I said getting a towel from the bathroom. If only she knew my intentions ha!

"How late is it?" She asked yawning.

I  looked at my phone." 9:20."

"Oh wow! I slept in so much! How long have you been up?" She asked running her hand through her wild morning hair.

"I've been up since 8:30 I just got back from a run."
"I feel like such a loser." She said laughing.

"Eh don't I totally understand considering how late we stayed up."

"Hmm very true." She said raising her eyebrows.

"Oh and Niall is making breakfast so..." I said trailing off.

"Ooo yummy. What are we waiting for let's go!" She said grabbing her phone of the nightstand.

"You aren't gonna change?"

"Nah I'll stay in this." She said striking a pose in her PJs, well my PJs.

She started laughing and I laughed along. We went downstairs together. Something smelled delicious it smelled like bacon, but I wasn't sure.

"WE HAVE ARRIVED!" Eleanor shouted she started running and slid into the kitchen on her socks, while doing jazzy hands.

"I see." Harry, who was sitting at the table, said raising an eyebrow.

I walked in behind her more timidly.

"Is breakfast ready?" I asked looking around the kitchen. Niall was frying something, Louis and Liam where sitting on the bar stools, and Harry was sitting at the table.

"Just about." Niall said turning around and giving me a smile.

I smiled back and sat beside Harry at the table. Eleanor went over and sat beside Louis on a stool.

"What's up boys?" Eleanor said giggling.

"The sky, the stars, the-" Louis started.

"I get it, sheesh you know what I meant." She said shoving him.

"Of course." Louis said kissing her cheek.

I looked away and frowned. If only one day I could have a relationship like that.

"What's wrong?" Harry asked probably noticing my sudden frown.

"Oh, nothing just thinking." I said smiling a little.

"Okay." He said turning back to his phone.

"Breakfast is served!" Niall said placing what looked like sausage and eggs on plates.

"YUMM!" Louis yelled jumping up and grabbing a plate. He grabbed a fork and started eating right away.

"Someone's hungry." I mumbled with a smile.

Eleanor walked over more calmly and got a plate and fork. I walked over and picked up a plate.

"Thanks Niall." I said smiling.

"Your welcome, hope you like it." He said looking nervous.

"I'm sure I will." I said winking. Woah, I just winked at a guy. What was he doing to me?
I sat back down beside Harry who was still on his phone. Niall came over with a plate and sat beside me.

"Harry, anyone in there?" I asked waving my hand in front of his face.

"Yeah, of course." He said getting up to get himself a plate.

I took a bite and enjoyed the flavor. It was so good, he had used some kind of flavor in the eggs that was absolutely delicious.

"These are amazing." I said looking at Niall.

"Thank Jess." He said looking up at me then blushing and looking back down.

"Your welcome." I said continuing to eat.

"So what's the plan for the day?" Liam asked.

"I was going to go for a walk in the park." I said. I was planning on bringing my camera, which I hadn't used in a while. Sometimes I sold my photographs for some money. It was never a lot, but it was money. Anyway I really enjoyed photography.

"I'm going to meet up with my sister." Harry said his eyes lighting up.

"Oh, that's amazing." I said I was happy for him he didn't see Gemma often.

"Yeah." He said smiling.

"I'll probably go somewhere with my Eliboo." Louis said hugging Eleanor.

"And I'll probably be bored." Niall said laughing.

"Fun." Liam said." We have a show tonight an hour or so away so we'll have to leave around 4:00."

"Okay." Everyone said.

Louis and Eleanor took their plates to the sink and went upstairs. I finished off my eggs and rinsed my plate in the sink.

"Do you mind if I come?" Niall asked softly from behind me.

I jumped and immediately apologized.

"Don't be, you don't need to apologize all the time." He said standing beside me now.

I shrugged." You can come if you want." I said rinsing his plate for him.

"Okay!" He said sounding excited.

"I just need to change quick." I said, no way I was going out in public like this. Not to mention my shirt was still a little damp.

"Why you look fine?" He asked.

"Because." I said turning around and looking at him." I look like shit."

"Don't say that."

"It's true. Let me go change and then I'll be ready, thanks for breakfast." I said leaving before he could say anything.

I changed into a pair of leggings and put on a lacy long-sleeve shirt. It was light enough I wouldn't get hot, but it also covered my arms. I put my sneakers on and grabbed my camera and a extra battery. Come to think of it I hadn't used my camera since I had moved in with the boys. I guess I'd been so caught up in other things I'd forgotten.
I went downstairs where Niall was waiting by the door.

"Ready?" He asked looking at me and smiling.

"Yep ready."

"You have a camera?" He asked surprisedly.

"Yep, I haven't used it in a while, but I love photography." I said as we walked out the door.

"That's so cool. Could I see some of your pictures sometime?" He asked looking at me with his georgous blue eyes.

"I guess." I said giving him a little smile. Like most things about me I was also I insecure about photos I took. I know it's stupid I just didn't think they were that good.

"Yahh!" He said like a little kid.

We walked to the park mostly in silence. We arrived and I snapped a shot of two trees with the sun shining through. I looked at the photo, and changed the aperture before taking another one that turned out better.

"What do all the buttons do?" He asked as we walked along.

"Mr. Curious I see." I said teasing him.

"Maybe a little." He said poking me.

I rolled my eyes at his child likeness.

"Okay first off, this is the shutter button." I pointed to it.

"Okay I know that much." He said sticking his tongue out.

"Well I should cover everything." I said giggling.

I continued to tell him what the buttons did, and by the end I think he knew more about photography then he cared to. Although he did listen intently the whole time.

"Can I take a picture?" He asked.

"I guess, just be careful with it! Or you will be buying me a new one and let me tell you they aren't cheap."

"Okay I'll be careful."

I handed it to him and he put it up to his face.

"Go stand over there." He said holding with one hand and pointing over by some trees with the other.

"I didn't say you could take a picture of me."

"Can I? Please!" He said with puppy eyes.

"Okay fine." I said smiling how could I say no to his adorable face.

"Thanks! Can you turn slightly sideways and tuck your hair behind your ear?" He asked.
I had no idea how this would come out good, but I did as he said. I heard him snap a few before he put the camera down.

"Perfect." He said looking at the pictures.

"Let me see." I said running over.

He showed me and I had to admit they where pretty decent. The way the sun was shining you couldn't see my features clearly, but you could see some details. There were flowers surrounding me and it looked pretty damn good. Especially for being his first time taking pictures like that.

"Wow I like it." I said smiling.

"Really?" He asked biting his lip.

"Yes really!"  I normally didn't like pictures of myself but this one was beautiful.
I took my camera back and hugged him. He hugged me back and then we started walking towards a bench.

I checked the time after I sat down. It was 11:00 already. I couldn't believe how fast the time flew by. He sat down beside me and put his arm around my shoulders. There was nobody in sight and it was nice just the two of us.

I didn't want to ruin the mood, but I had promised Louis that I would tell Niall about cutting myself. I took a deep breath and gathered up the courage.

"Niall, can I tell you something?" I asked my voice catching at the end.

"Sure what is it?" He asked looking at me with his adorable smile.

"I-I c-cut myself." I managed to stutter out. I looked down ashamed.

"What Jess are you serious?"

He didn't say it with anger instead he said it with pain. It almost broke my heart when he said that.

I nodded and he held my wrists gently.

"Why?"

I looked into his eyes and looked away just as quickly they were filled with pain and question.

"Because I'm never good enough." I said softly.

"Jess, you are more than good enough." He said letting go of my wrists and pulling me into a hug. I pressed my face against his chest breathing in the smell of his cologne. I blinked back tears that were threatening to fall.

"Jess, look at me." He said softly pulling away.

I looked at him and crossed my arms across my stomach.

"You are the most beautiful, amazing, kind, funny, talented girl I've ever met. And it kills me if you feel like you aren't good enough and have to take it out on yourself. Because no one deserves to feel that way."

"I know I'm sorry I'm not strong enough." I said looking down as tears started falling.

"Jess." He said softly." Don't be sorry, I'm not mad or anything just please don't do this again. Come talk to me okay?" He wiped my tears off my cheeks.

"Okay." I said so softly I wasn't sure he heard.

"Thank you for telling me." He said after a few seconds of silence.

I didn't say anything, I had probably just made a charity case of myself just like Sophia had said.

"You know this doesn't change anything right?" He asked." We're still friends."

"Yeah... But why do you want to be friends with a weirdo like me?"

"Jess you aren't weird. You're hurt is all, it makes me want to be friends with you even more knowing this. I want to help you so you don't do this again."

"Oh," I whispered. I finally looked up into his eyes. We were close and I could feel the heat from him. His eyes were full of warmth and he smiled at me.

I allowed myself a small smile back. He leaned closer to me with a dreamy look on his face.

Oh gosh he was gonna kiss me. Did I want to kiss him? I asked myself. I decided yes, but I was scared.

I took a breath closed my eyes and leaned closer to him...

Sooo... Another chapter as promised!
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