I lay down and closed my eyes pretending to be asleep.

"Hey Jess are you okay I'm supposed to check on you." Niall said softly from the door.

He waited a few moments then opened my door and came in. I heard his footsteps beside the bed. I felt the bed dip and assumed he sat beside me on the bed. He brushed a loose hair back from my face.

"You're so beautiful Jess if only you would see that." He murmured.

It took all my willpower to not leap up and hug him or burst out crying because that was so nice of him.

"Rest well." He said he kissed my forehead almost making me flinch. He got off the bed and I heard the door shut.

I opened my eyes and sat up. I can't believe I cut, I thought to myself, I'm pathetic she was right, I can't even stop cutting.

I sighed and got out my guitar it always calmed me down to play. I sat on my bed and put it on my leg. I played little things singing softly.(I know she plays that song a lot but she likes it okay? Ha-ha(: ) I reached the end and sat down my guitar. My stomach hurt and it felt like I would throw up maybe I was actually sick. I went to the bathroom and sat by the toilet just in case. A few minutes later I did throw up. I flushed the toilet and washed my mouth out. My head hurt like freaking hell and my throat was sore. I sat down because I was getting a little dizzy.

"Hey Jess you okay?" Harry yelled. Guess it was his turn to check on me.

"Not really." I said it came out quietly because my throat hurt.

"What's wrong?" He asked. He came in and saw me sitting on the toilet." Are you okay? What happened?" He asked coming over beside me.

"I threw up. And now I have a terrible headache." I said rubbing my temples.

"Oh Jess come here I'll get you a pill."

I stood up and almost fell back down because of dizziness.

"Be careful Jess." He grabbed my arm to steady me.

I nodded not wanting to talk with my throat being sore. He put his arm under my arms to help support me. He helped me walk to my bed and I sat down.

"Here I'll go get you something you stay here." He said looking at me with worry in his eyes. I nodded and he left my room.

I put my head in my hands. I felt terrible I'm glad that I didn't go with the girls not that I wanted to anyway, but that would make Sophia hate me even more. I sighed I stood up using the bed to steady myself and put my guitar away. I sat back down and waited for Harry he sure was taking a while.

"I got it." Harry said coming in with a glass and a pill.

"Thanks." I whispered.

"You're welcome." He  sat beside me on the bed and handed me the glass and pill. I took the pill and drank the rest of the water it helped my throat.

"So what do you want to do since your feeling sick?" Harry asked.

"Sleep." I whispered.

"Okay. Well I'll be out here if you need me." He looked like he wanted to say something more but he didn't. He left taking the glass with him.

I layed down pulling up the covers and closing my eyes. I tried to sleep but my mind kept wandering. Thinking of what to say to Harry. I really didn't want to hurt him or Niall. They both had feelings for me. Which was very bad because I didn't want one of them to be mad at me. I just didn't have feelings for Harry. I turned onto my side and grabbed my phone. I turned on the script and fell asleep my mind finally at rest.

"Hey babe." Jason said walking over to me.

I was shaking and strapped to a chair so I couldn't run or move.

"Now now no need to be afraid." He brushed his hand along my cheek.
I yelped and pulled away.

"Naughty girl you need to learn to stay quite." He said menacingly.

"NIALL!" I screamed hoping he would be somewhere close.

"Stop!" He said slapping me.

I started crying and screaming more hoping someone would hear me.
He started shaking me by the shoulders and saying Jessica over and over again.

I gasped opening my eyes to see Niall standing over me with worry in his eyes.

"Jessica are you all right?" He asked quietly.

I shook my head no and hugged him. He looked surprised but hugged me back.

"Why happened?" He asked softly.

"H-he was t-there." I said crying into his shoulder.

"Shhh it's all right." He rubbed my back trying to calm me down.

"Why did you come in?" I asked him sniffing.

"I heard you screaming for me." He said looking me in the eyes. His clear blue eyes were filled with worry.

"Oh." I whispered barely audible.

"The girls aren't home yet but they will be soon." He said still rubbing my back.

I sighed and rested against him. I didn't want Sophia to come back.

"Do you want to lay down more?" He asked softly.

I shook my head no.

"Okay well do you want to watch something?"

"I guess." I said shrugging.

"Okay."

I let go of Niall and lay back down on top of the sheets. He turned on the TV and layed beside me.

"What do you want to watch." He asked softly.

"I don't care." I said with a yawn.

"Okay I'll just put on some football."

"Okay."

I snuggled into him and he put his arm around me. I drifted off to a peaceful sleep.

"YOU GET EVERYONE!" I heard Niall yell from outside my room. I  shot up and rubbed my eyes wondering what was up.

I walked to the door and opened it. I gasped Niall and Harry were punching each other.

"Please stop." I said crying. I couldn't bear to see them hurting each other. It reminded me to much of Jason.

Niall looked up and met my eyes his were filled with sorrow. They stopped fighting and looked at me. Niall had a black eye and his lip was bleeding. Both of Harry's eyes were black and he had a bruise on his cheek.

"Why?" I asked softly.

"Umm well we got into a fight." Harry said looking at the floor and wouldn't meet my eyes.

"About what?" I asked almost scared to hear the truth.

"You." Niall said also not meeting my eyes.

"What?" I said. Why would they fight over me. I mean I knew they both liked me but I didn't think they would go this far.

"Well Harry saw you sleeping beside me and thought we where together or something so he started fighting with me." Niall said looking at Harry with anger.

"You started it you punched me first." Harry said glaring at Niall.

"Guys please stop fighting." I said." Come on let's go get you cleaned up." I said with no emotion. I can't believe they would be so childish they could have just talked it out.

I walked to my bathroom and they followed me.

"Come here Niall." I said beckoning him over.

He came over and stood beside me. I got out some stuff and put it on his lip he winced. I put it away and sighed.

"Go." I said shooing them.

"Wait can I talk to you Jess?" Niall asked.

"Okay fine." I said.

Harry left but not before shooting a glare at Niall. He shut the door behind him. I sat on the bed and Niall sat beside me.

"I'm really sorry Jess. I didn't mean to I just got really angry." Niall said." Can you please forgive me?"

"Forgive you Niall? I'm sorry but I can't not yet. How can I trust you won't do that to me if you get angry at me?" I asked nervousness in my voice.

"Uhh well I guess you can't." He said looking really upset." I'm really sorry Jess I hope I can make this up to you."

He looked at me one last time with so much pain clouding his eyes and then he left.
I felt so bad for doing that to him. But I honestly didn't trust that he wouldn't do that to me. It's not that I wanted to hurt him I just didn't trust him.

I wondered where the rest of the boys were and why they didn't hear. I decided not to worry and lay down on my bed just relaxing.

"Hey Jess." Liam said from my door." Can I come in?" He asked.

"Yeah." I said sitting up.

He came in and sat beside me.

"So are you okay I heard what happened between Harry and Niall." He said looking at me with concern.

"Yeah I'm fine thanks." I said fake smiling. Inside I truly wasn't fine at all, but I didn't need to make myself anymore of a charity case than I already was.

"Okay if you're sure I just wanted to check on you." He said smiling.

"Thanks." I said. He left and I shut the door after him.

"Nothings all right." I whispered to myself. I thought I was better, I guess not I had no one to trust anymore well except Louis but I didn't want to bother anyone anymore.

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