18 days.
That's how long it took for you to change.
432 hours
Thinking about what the fuck i did wrong
25,920 minutes
Spent in agony
Wondering if you'd change your mind
And just come home.
1,555,200 seconds
Wasted on the idea you'd love me again.
But here i am
Drunk in the basement
Watching you two caress
Even he can't be my crutch
When my eyes see double the pain.
Why does it hurt so much?
i grew up a kid
Attracted to and by everyone
Forcing myself into the world of love
Yet never feelimg the entry requirements.
i think i'm going crazy.
That explains everything
And i keep saying you should love her
Because you two are so much better for each other
Than i can be for either of you combined.
And it's true.
So why can't i accept it?
Why do i need to swim in dizziness
To even fucking feel something
i think i need to buy a new feel box
You can get everything on amazon nowadays
Everything except an attraction
And i want nothing more
Than to steal her away out of spite.
But even if i could
She'd never crave me like you.
i  could never nearly satisfy her
Her human cravings overpower my energy
And her energy excites me
i could get over myself
If i could just attach onto a source.
You were it
But you weren't pumping enough
i can't feel my own skin
It aches too much to feel yours
My hands have been so empty lately
And compatibility with other humans
Sits on the edge of a cliff
Staring off into the abyss
Where did my mind go?
i think it fell out of my pocket
The second i decided you believed me
That i love you.
i stopped proving it.
And you stopped loving me.
So here i sit
Drunk in the basement
My mind flicking on and off like the light above
Where did i go wrong?