Laila

Finally, the day has come which I have been waiting for Abba Jaan is coming back today and the day after tomorrow is Alaya's nikah everything is falling in place I was so happy and jumping since the morning I even woke up early today since it's Sunday I don't have college which means sitting at home enjoying my time, I'm going to write in my diary cause it's been long plus Danish Bhai bought me a new one and I cannot wait to write in it.

Everything around me was good but the weather was gloomy the sky is turning black slowly the clouds were indicating the rain is going to come or maybe a bad storm looking at it gave me a bad gut feeling which I don't want dwell on so I went back to my room Danish Bhai is at party office but he must be coming for lunch Ammi is making everything Abba Jaan likes.

"Ammi what are you doing let me help you?" I said entering the kitchen.
She looks at me astonished because I hardly help her in the kitchen though I know how to cook"are you okay?" She asks.

"You are coming with me" Danish Bhai yells entering the kitchen.
"Why do you need me for?" I ask hopping on the counter.
"We have to pick the watch for Abbu, the dress of Alaya and your plus Ammi wants some veggies for the dinner so you are coming with me," he says grabbing a glass of water.
"Okay fine, but on one condition we are having choco-chip ice cream," I tell him in a warning tone.

I have been jolly all this week because everything is going perfectly, we had our test which went well, and so far there are no threats no one has spoken about me getting married and I'm not even getting any nightmares which is a good sign, maybe from next month, our exams will start.

We reached the boutique picking up the dresses we went to pick up the watch, then later we went to have ice cream, just then my phone starts to ring "Hello?" It was an unknown number.
"Kaisi hai meri Noor-e-Jaan?" It was Abba Jaan.
"How do you think I will be when you are not here?" I reply trying to sound angry at him.
He let out a laugh" I'm coming home soon Noor-e-Jaan then you are going to tell me everything" he says, I share everything with Abba Jaan people say girls are the princess of their fathers I am too, but usually, girls don't share stuff with their father but I do and I'm more close to him.
"Of course please come soon, " I tell and hung up the call because I couldn't find Danish Bhai where did he go.

I look around then saw him talking on the phone his ice cream melting it started to drizzle the sky turned murky damn we didn't even have the umbrella I walked towards him"Bhai let's go it's about to rain"I tell him, he hastily hangs up the phone and we left for home, till the time we reached it started to downpour "don't be out for long Laila" Danish Bhai says, he knows me well, he knows I love rain and would love to sit out in the porch with my diary of course.

I grinned at him quickly running off to my room getting my diary I came out and sat on the swing, my hair flowing in the air as the cool breeze gives me goosebumps this is my tenth diary I guess well who keeps a count of it this is my new friend and its time to introduce myself, I start to write down the words.

Dear Diary,

I'm Laila Ansari a girl who loves to dream, hope believes in magic, fairies, vampires, pirates, and what not I believe everyone should believe in such stuff because it makes your life a bit easier and less complicated. After all, when you live in your imagination like me things become less complicated just like mine.

But yes, you shouldn't turn yourself into an insane person while imagining you should be sane too, believing is different, and getting obsessed with such stuff is insane and we should never look for something which is a myth but it's not bad to believe in it makes life slight interesting knowing even something like this can exist in that same world you live in, I did my research on Vampires I'm not sure if it's true or just a rumor but they have been sighted by people in New Orleans, I would love to visit once if I ever get a chance.

Anyway enough about that so now let me introduce my family my brother Danish is going to be working as a politician he has completed his studies and my Abba Jaan is in the army who will join along with him. I'm happy today because finally after a long wait Abba Jaan is coming back I'm going to enjoy it so much I will go out every day will try everything and Danish Bhai is going to die because of jealousy anyway he is a Mamma's Boy.

"Laila, andar aa jaaye beta bht baarish ho rahi hai" Ammi yells from inside pulling me out of my thoughts.
"Thodi der aur Ammi" I yell back still writing in my diary.

(Laila, come inside it's raining)
(Few more minutes Mom)

Just then my phone starts to ring it was Alaya, unaware of the chaos which was about to happen, and I won't be able to do anything, I was going to lose everything that, I hit the answer button "Assalamalikum Alaya Begum".
"Walikumassalam you picked my dress or not?" She asks jumping straight to the question.
"Yes I did, and it's beautiful she made it exactly you....before I could continue I was thrown out of the house deafening me because of the sound behind me or should I say the blast which happened I was on the floor trying to get up but couldn't because my whole body was stopping me from moving, I looked at myself bruises can be seen I felt helpless and powerless as I saw my house burning down I shouted.

"Ammi, Danish" but no one replied to me I try to crawl back towards the house, but everything was burning down as the fire making it's way to the whole house in just mere seconds all was remaining with me was ashes. My phone was ringing somewhere I can hear it but my body lost all the strength to get up and pick or call anyone to inform.

I yelled at the top of my lungs "Ammi, Danish" hoping someone will come out and reply that they are fine but no one came all I can hear was the flames making their way to everything I love I somehow got up limping walked towards the house but the one last blast which blew my whole house into nothing made me fall on the ground hard, I can hear the sound of sirens of the fire brigade, people yelling at me to stop but at that moment all I cared for was my mother and brother who were inside there and probably alive they cannot leave me, they cannot leave Abba Jaan, Ammi and he were supposed to be together and Danish Bhai was supposed to be with me.

"Ammi, Danish Bhai" I shouted again my throat felt scratchy because of yelling but I couldn't give a care about myself right now.

What I'm supposed to tell Abba Jaan, how he will handle all of this he was coming to see his family this cannot happen, it can't.

Allah won't do this to me, he won't take away my family from me, he won't punish me this way for not listening to what Danish had to say or what Ammi has to say this cannot happen I slapped myself this is all a bad nightmare, I need to wake up it is just like that dream of mine where I feel like I'm falling and always wake up with a jolt, I slap myself again no no no this cannot happen, I look up at the sky raining has stopped but the dark clouds are still looming over as if indicating there is worse about to happen.

Someone grabs me from behind I look up to see Alaya "hey, shh calm down" she whispers.
"Shut up, Ammi and Danish are in there I have to go and get them out" I snap back at her.
"No Laila, you cannot," she says as tears roll down her cheeks.
"No, I can and no one can stop me " I try to get out of her grasp but she was holding me down tight.

The firemen using extinguishers to contain the fire "please let me go they are in there I can save them" I yell at Alaya pushing her away from me.
"Laila listen to me we need to go you are hurt, okay, we need to get you to the hospital," she says making me look at her.
What is she talking about I'm fine its Ammi and Danish who needs to be taken care of and I have to bring them out I cannot lose them why doesn't she understand, I look at Khaloo who was standing there holding Khala getting out of Alaya's grasp I ran towards Khaloo"we need to save them Ammi and Danish are in there". I tell him pointing towards the house which kept burning.

The house which Abba Jaan built with everything he had and Ammi made it home with her presence we cannot lose it, they are the people who kept me sane even though my nightmares made me think I'm going crazy.

He looks at me with tears flowing down his cheeks" stop crying and help me save them " I yell at him.

"Laila stop there is no chance...it was Zain he trails off " don't you dare Zain I will kill you my mother and brother are in there and they are fine we just have to get them out" I yell at him whilst slapping him, tears flowing down my cheeks profusely wiping them off I ran towards the house before I could go further Zain pulls me back.

"Let me go, let me go" I stomp my feet but his hold was too tight for me to get out of it.

"Please Zain let me go " I mumble, Alaya comes and pulls me in a hug.
"We need to take you to the hospital, Laila," she says.
"No, no I have to go Ammi hiccup and Danish hiccup are in there," I tell her slumping down on the floor suddenly my head starts to spin, I can feel my body becoming heavy I felt like thousands of needles pricking all over my body, a lump forming at the back of my throat making hard for me to breathe, my stomach turning into knots.

They cannot leave me, how can this happen to us, how can my perfect life turn into ashes just like that everything was supposed to be okay, Abba Jaan is coming back he will break knowing this, how are we going to survive this world?

No matter what but every kid needs a mother in their life I know I have Abba Jaan and everyone but Ammi and Danish Bhai are also everything for me, doesn't matter how angry I am at them but can never overcome the fact of them being hurt, and now this happening is making me lose all my faith.

I looked around with my eyes drooping the fire was contained and some people brought out two bodies they were burned in such a manner that no one can even recognize them, they cannot be my Ammi and Danish. Suddenly, my whole body started to feel as if someone tied a rock to my body and I'm drowning no one will come and save me I will drown and die.

Abba Jaan where are you? This is all I can think of right now. My life is turned upside down and I had no idea what to do, I was falling into the dark abyss of nothingness and no one is there to save me.

Because little did I know that this is not only the worse thing happening in my life right now, someone conspired worse for us it already started to happen and no one even knew. I didn't know that I was going to lose everything I love and it all will destroy me in the process leaving me with

Ashes.

Emptiness.

Darkness.

Broken.

Nothingness.

It's just not my Ammi and Danish died, Laila Ansari also died with them, the one who hoped, loved, dreamed, and believed that everything is perfect when you have your loved ones by your side there is nothing or no one who can hurt you or do anything to you but what you do when you lost them. I lost my shield and I don't think anyone will be ever able to mend those pieces or as a matter of fact will be able to bring me back, because I was just like a broken vase that broken once cannot be fixed no matter how hard you try.

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Hola Peeps, how is everyone doing?

I know you guys must be expecting a long update but you know me guys I only write that much I think is necessary for one chapter because dragging it makes it boring and makes me sound idiotic which I'm not.

So it finally happened I hope I did justice explaining her emotions, the sadder stuff will be coming in the chapter along with other feelings so the actual story is going to start now.

It was hard for me to write this chapter for some reason maybe because this is something new to me I mean I have written sad stuff in my books but still, I always doubt it because I believe that's how I will do best for my coming stories or the coming chapters.

So what do you think about Laila?

I feel so bad for her, but unfortunately, this is not the end something more is coming for her and I want her to be strong and be ready for it. As you have the idea now that this book doesn't have just romance but there is more to come.

Now time for some unrelated questions though I should've asked this one earlier🤭
Anyway as we all know probably no one uses their real names here everyone has different usernames so I would love to know your names so here goes

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What kind of books you guys like? Mine are thriller, action, and romance are favorite.❤

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