It's been forever since Henrik has stopped by. He did say he was getting busy at work. He's tried to get out of a lot of it, but he said that isn't really working.

I'm trying to stay positive, although I can't really do much to do that. I've mostly just been creating worlds in my brain, pretending I can do things.

The most frequent of these are me flying around with Jackie and my kids.

Thankfully today wasn't like the other days. Henrik came in today to chat.

"Hey Chase, we got a couple updates about your kids. The police think they know where they are, they just have to search and confirm. There's some good news."

I didn't move externally, but internally I was smiling. This is the first good news I've heard in days. I'm so glad they have a trail to follow.

"Thankfully they have a good lead, we think they could come home within the week."

Henrik started talking about his day, but I zoned out thinking about all of the things I wanted to tell my kids. The first minute I get something to think about and I ignore everything. I should pay attention, but I want to say something to my kids, and that's all I can think about.

I feel like I'm tearing up, but of course it's only on the inside. I feel my throat close up, and I can feel the tears welling up behind my eyes, but nothing happens on the outside.

I can't move. I can't say how grateful I am that Henrik keeps visiting me even though he doesn't know I can hear him. I can't say how happy I am that my kids might be found. I'm helpless.

I want to move. I want to eat something, instead of this stupid I.V. tube I have in my stomach. I want to feel cold water go down my throat on a hot day. I want something other than this silence I've been forced into. I want something other than the silence that fills my room on a daily bases.

I want something other than this.

I can't speak.

I can't breathe.

I can't eat.

All I can do is think, and hope that my thoughts reach someone when I think...

Please, someone get me out of this.

Have this