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𝐒𝐀𝐕𝐈𝐎𝐑 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐗
AND THE FEW MOMENTS OF PEACE
WE HAD WITH EACH OTHER
WERE ENOUGH TO KEEP US GOING

because you want to die for love

you always have

𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐋𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐍 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐎𝐄𝐒
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We have not touched the stars, nor are we forgiven, which brings us back to the hero's shoulders and the gentleness that comes, not from the absence of violence, but despite the abundance of it.

Richard Siken, Crush

look at the weapon i've made of myself.

you want to cut yourself on me, don't you? 

AMELIA SÓNG WAS COMPLETELY ORDINARY.

And she was content in being completely ordinary. She didn't return library books. She stole illegal music off the internet. She lied to her parents. See, completely ordinary. The only thing completely unordinary about her was her power of healing. No, not spiritual healing. She could close skin wounds, weave back torn tissues, bloom a wilted flower. But she didn't use it ─ it seemed like a way to cheat through the pain of the world, at least that's what her older sister used to say. She was the only one who knew. That was until they were in a car crash. Amelia lived, her sister didn't. She had tried to save her, she couldn't. It was alright. It was always going to be alright because Amelia was completely ordinary. She needed to be completely ordinary.

She had grown up burying this ability of hers deep inside her. It killed people, it had killed her sister, it was useless. She found people, too. People like her. She was good at finding things. Gemma Burke and Monika Godfrey. And the three of them could not be any different. Gemma was the personification of autumn sunshine, Monika dressed in head-to-toe black and Amelia was a quiet girl with an explosive temper. They fit together like puzzle pieces, keeping each other's and everyone else's secrets safe.

BUT SOME CHILDREN GROW UP TOO FAST.

With her father's business and her mother a public defender, they rarely ever had free time to spend with her. But Amelia wasn't one for complaining, she never had been. Maybe it was a flaw, she wouldn't know. She had never fought to keep something, never been selfish. Maybe that was the fault, maybe that's what made them lose. Maybe she should have been selfish for just one time, should have not let Peter leave like that. Maybe she shouldn't have fought with him. Maybe she shouldn't have gone on that stupid field trip. Maybe she shouldn't have said hello to him at the party. Maybe she should've just stayed home, like a coward.

But after everything, that was one thing Amelia Sóng wasn't. She might be ordinary, and she might be dying ─ but she wasn't a coward. 

Amelia Sóng would never run away from a fight and she would not leave any of her friends behind.

how do i know i love her?

because i can sleep after i talk to her.

There was nothing more peaceful than hearing her laughter. Peter wished there was some way he could trap the sound. He could record it ─ no, that would be insubstantial. Amelia was not some trinket he could keep locked away behind a four-digit pin. He would revel in the softness of the sound as long as it was happening, as long as she was here. Because if there was one thing he had learned in his time it was that nothing was permanent.

Excerpt from Savior Complex

𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐓𝐒
you are expendable

───── SÓNG, AMELIA
like a name in a fairytale

COMPLETELY ORDINARY

❝ Come back to me. ❞

───── PARKER, PETER
with great power comes great responsibility

SPIDER-MAN

❝ Always. ❞

sometimes it feels like i didn't even exist before that. 

like you invented me.

.&&.

as described . . . . HELEN SÓNG

as described . . . . KEN SÓNG

as described . . . . CONSTANCE SÓNG

𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄

follows the events of civil war ─ homecoming ─ infinity war ─ far from home ─ no way home

── 2016 ── 2017 ── 2018 ── 2019 ── 2023 ── 2024 ── 2025 ──

minor differences (i.e dates of events, ages, birthdays) will exist between this book and the movie

author's note: alright, nwh broke me.

━━ there are going to be some proses and characterizations inspired and taken from maggie stiefvater's the raven cycle. those all belong to her and her only and i do not take credit at al for it. she is the best.

 dedications: evertrbl ARSONY monetoiIe bIoodsongs bIoodbags silvcrsouls circeology cupidsrot Iunarcity scorpiusfilm saqhic georgiathesloth evertrbl zenikks alwyzeasierr crowmourns bipanicbarnes burnfleur judecarden -undomiels holyrollers holyruins stupidfools killersmuse -sunshinelover

━━ warning! this comes with the usual trigger warning surrounding the mcu series. which follow: death, murder, crime, suicide attempts, child abuse/neglect (referenced or otherwise), mental illness, alcohol-abuse, religious conflict, nightmares and terrible family dynamics.