"Feelings are like waves, we can't stop them from coming but we could choice which one to surf." 

I'm gonna add my sister SyraTsukiano because I love her- no homo btw. so yeah. 

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Carmen p.o.v

I don't know where to begin. Today, it happened again. I don't know how long i'm going to let this go on for. Journal writing kind of helps because I feel like getting something off of  my chest. But for some reason, I still feel like I'm getting judged. I end up  writing the front and back of a page in my journal. Then, I hear my bedroom door open.  

Syra-  mom is done with dinner. 

says my older sister Syra. 

Carmen- tell mom, "I'm not hungry."

Syra sighs and steps into the room and close's the door.

Syra-Carmen, I don't know why, you don't wont eat. but you need to. 

I roll my eyes at her and I told her.

Carmen- Syra I do eat. I'm not just hungry right now okay?.

She stares at me for a few seconds and sighs again...

Syra- You can talk to me. I'm your sister. Whats up with you?. you're been acting weird lately?.

Carmen- Is nothing.

Syra- You expect me to believe that, do you.

Carmen- Yes I do,because it's the truth.

She stays silent as if she is thinking to herself , and then she nods.

Syra- Okay, I'll tell mom you aren't hungry. 

She leaves the room without saying another word.

***

I walk to school the next day with my head down, not knowing where i was walking. As I got to my locker, I sense someone presence. I look behind my locker to see my boyfriend Atem, leaning against the lockers. 

Atem- You didn't call me yesterday.

He says, without looking at me. I tried my best not to sound annoyed as I am.

Carmen- I'm sorry, I got busy last night.

He turns to look at me and the corners of his mouth curl up into a smile. It wasn't a welcoming one. It's kind of sadistic. 

Atem- Yeah sure, whatever.

He pushes himself off the lockers and waits for me to be finish at mine. When I'm done, he swings his arm over my shoulders and gives me a kiss on my temple.

Atem- Don't let it happened again.

He says into my ear, I nod. We walk to our shared first period class, Algebra 2. I quickly sit in my seat next to my best friend Yami. He watches Atem as he walks to  his seat in the back and turns around before he can see him. 

Yami- I don't like him C. I really don't.

He tape his pencil against his desk as he says it. I look at him for a few second. He turns his head to look at me. 

Yami- I fell like he's bad news.

We keep looking at each other and all i can think about is how he's right. Atem is bad news, but I won't tell Yami that, he really protective of me. 

Carmen- It's okay, if something was going on. I would tell you. 

I hate lying to him, but he can't find out.

***

Atem- Will you hurry the fuck up, Carmen?.

Atem calls out to me, I ran to catch up to his side. 

Atem- I have somewhere to be.

He tightly grabs my elbow and drags me to his car. He pulls open the passenger door and shoves me in. I flinch when he slams the door closed.

Atem- You better hope that I didn't miss the deal. 

I scoff.

Carmen- Why?. it isn't my fault that you're running late.

I knew the minute when I said that comment. I didn't see his fist coming,but it slammed against the corner of my eye,hard. My head fall back into the seat. 

Atem- Don't talk to me that way. are you fucking stupid.

Carmen- Yes, I am.

He pulls out of the school parking lot and speed down the street I bring my head up to home my eyed. I sat speechless, but i'm not surprised this isn't the first time he hit me, but it is the first time he hit me in the face.  We stay silence for 10 minutes until we arrive at a a dark blue house. Atem get's out of the car without saying a word. I watch as he walks up to the front door,and a man in black opens the door. Atem disappears inside. 

Carmen- You could leave him right now.{Shaking my head} not I can't I'm nothing without him. 

He comes back outside five minutes later, he takes a bag of marijuana and throws it into the glove compartment. during the ride to my house, I continued to avoid eye contact with him.  As his car pulls into my driveway, he turns to look at me.

Atem-I'm sorry, for punching you in the face.

Carmen- You say that every time.

Atem- I love you Carmen you know that Love.

He says to me, I nod and he grabs the back of my neck and kisses me gently without speaking and I walk to my front door.

Carmen- Grate, I have no idea how i'm going to explain this. 

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Sorry if it took me long to write this, but there you have it Ch.1 of Savior.

Yami: comment and Vote please. and don't worry Carmen will still keep writing - It was meant to be. story is getting go by the way. and if you have any questions about the story it was meant to be don't be afraid to ask them okay. 

Anyway a shout out to my sis SyraTsukiano for commenting and Voting it was meant to be and another shout out to SerenityNyx for also voting and commenting.

Thank you ladies, Carmen out (peace)