I woke up at about four o'clock the next morning to go on a run. I quickly wrote a note and put it on the fridge then grabbed my ear buds and left.

I searched through my songs until I found the perfect one to run to.

Never win first place

I don't support the team

I can't take direction

And my socks are never clean

I felt my feet pound against the concrete and my feelings melt away.

Teachers dated me

My parents hated me

I was always in a fight

Cuz I can't do nothin' right

Every day a fight a war against the mirror

I can't take the person staring back at me

I felt my eyes well with angry tears as I pushed myself to run faster.

I'm a hazard to myself

Don't let me get me

I'm my own worst enemy

It's bad when you annoy yourself

So irritating

don't wanna be my friend no more

I wanna be somebody else

I turned down a street heading to the park. I was so glad nobody was out this early as a hot tear slid down my cheek.

LA told me, "you'll be a popstar

All you have to change

Is everything you are."

Tired of being compared

To damn Britney Spears

She's so pretty

That just ain't me

Doctor, doctor, won't you please prescribe me something

A day in the life of someone else

The slope began to gradually go uphill. I had to push harder to maintain my speed. I found solace in the sharp smack of my feet against the ground. In the way my legs ached from pushing them so far.

Cuz I'm a hazard to myself

Don't let me get me

I'm my own worst enemy

It's bad when you annoy yourself

So irritating

Don't wanna be my friend no more

I wanna be somebody else

When the song ended I had wound up on the beach. I had hot, angry tears streaming down my face.

I kicked off my sneakers and socks and dropped my phone next to them then walked over to the water.

The water felt great on my feet. I hadn't realized how much this run had physically taken out if me until I began walking to the water. I was mainly focusing on the emotional aspect.

When I was about waist deep in the water I dove into a wave. I stayed under water until I felt like my lungs were going to burst. When I came up and sucked a large gulp of air in I felt better. I felt alive.

Some might think it stupid to stay under water for that long, even say it's suicidal. But it made me feel alive.

After doing this a few more times a waded myself out of the water and made my way back to my stuff. When I noticed someone was standing next to it.

That someone being Crowley.

"Crowley, I'd really appreciate it if you left. I'm not in the mood for you to talk shit on my family." I frantically tried to cover my soaked wet body that was only covered with spandex running shorts and a black sports bra.

He handed me his hoodie and I quickly put it on. "I'm not here for them." he watched the ocean as he talked, "I'm here for the view. Running into you is only a bonus."

"How so?" I asked curiously as I slipped on my shoes.

"I know what Azazel is doing." I stopped in my tracks. Nonononono. Not okay. "He likes to brag about it to me. He told me everything he's done when I saw him yesterday. And it's not fucking okay." I get tears in my eyes and I struggled not to let them go. he turned to make eye contact with me, "I don't believe in your families life style choices and I don't particularly like you as a person but nobody deserves this. And I swear to God, if he lays one more finger on you I will personally beat the shit out of him."

I couldn't help myself. I wrapped my arms tightly around him and began to sob. And he stood there comforting me for almost half an hour. "Thank you..." I said as I finally pulled away from him.

"Don't mention it. No, seriously, don't ever mention this. I still despise you. An if you ever bring this up at school I will deny it." he said with a wink before walking off.

I stood watching the ocean for a few more minutes before finding another song and starting my run home.

I'm lyin' here on the floor where you left me

I think I took too much

I'm crying here, what have you done?

I thought it would be fun

I can't stay on your life support,

There's a shortage in the switch,

I can't stay on your morphine,

'Cause it's making me itch

I said I tried to call the nurse again

But she's being a little bitch,

I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can

To the middle of nowhere

To the middle of my frustrated fears

And I swear you're just like a pill

Instead of makin' me better,

You keep makin' me ill

You keep makin' me ill

I haven't moved from the spot where you left me

This must be a bad trip

All of the other pills, they were different

Maybe I should get some help

I can't stay on your life support,

There's a shortage in the switch,

I can't stay on your morphine,

'Cause it's making me itch

I said I tried to call the nurse again

But she's being a little bitch,

I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can

To the middle of nowhere

To the middle of my frustrated fears

And I swear you're just like a pill

Instead of makin' me better,

You keep makin' me ill

You keep makin' me ill

Run just as fast as I can

To the middle of nowhere

To the middle of my frustrated fears

And I swear you're just like a pill

Instead of makin' me better,

You keep makin' me ill

You keep makin' me ill

I can't stay on your life support,

There's a shortage in the switch,

I can't stay on your morphine,

'Cause it's making me itch

I said I tried to call the nurse again

But she's being a little bitch,

I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can

To the middle of nowhere

To the middle of my frustrated fears

And I swear you're just like a pill

Instead of makin' me better,

You keep makin' me ill