3 months later

2:00am

Y/n PoV

"All I want. Is the taste that your lips allow."

"My my. My my-I. Give me love."

I quietly sing whilst stepping under the running shower water. I have over 8 hours of club sweat on me. Tonight's shift was awful. I've never had to deal with so many rude customers. Not to mention I got caught between these two woman who were hauling drinks at one another, hence why I currently smell of pink gin.

"You're home."

At that voice I turn my head, surprised to see Jungkook standing there in nothing but sweatpants. God damn his body seems to become sexier everyday.

"You're up?" I say back. Normally he's sound asleep by the time I get in from work.

"I missed you too much to fall asleep alone." He says; and it brings a smile to my lips. As I focus my attention on the bar of soap I begin to rub myself with, I don't even realise my boyfriend undressing at the side of me.

We've been doing this a lot recently, showering together, so much that I actually get lonely when I'm in here by myself now.

Like usual, I lean to rest myself against his chest and he takes the car bar of soap from my hand and gently rubs it across my chest.

"How was work?" He asks.

"Tiring." I sigh.

"You should quit there already."

"I will soon."

"Good. Because I've just noticed something."

I look down when feeling the boys hand cupped over my tummy.

"You're showing." He says, and I smile when noticing the slight bump. Oh my gosh little baby, you're growing so fast already.

"Do you still think it's gonna be a girl?" I ask.

"I'm not so sure. You've had this amazing glow recently."

"How does that effect the possibility of gender?"

"Well there's a theory. When a woman is pregnant with a girl, she takes all the beauty from the mother for herself. But if she's pregnant with a boy, she gets to keep all of her beauty."

"That's such a random theory." I laugh. No clue who he's heard that from. Normally when Jungkook tells me one of his theories, it's always backed up with evidence that just reminds me of how intelligent he is.

But this. This one's a little strange even for me.

"It's an interesting theory though." Jungkook smirks, now taking the soap and gently circling it over my tummy. He's always so soft and gentle, I almost fall asleep at times it's that relaxing.

"You tired?" He asks me, and I nod.

Noticing my response, the boy reaches for the shampoo bottle on the shower shelf. He pumps a blob onto his hand before using his beautiful long fingers to massage it into my hair.

Ugh. Now this is what I call heaven.

"You're already husband material Jeon."

At my words he chuckles.

"Oh by the way I said we'd baby sit Nini for Jin tomorrow."

"Yeahhh about tomorrow I'm actually seeing a friend."

"Nice try Jeon you have no friends except the people that live in this house. You're babysitting with me."

"Why is it so important to you that I spend time with Nina?"

"Nini." I correct him. I then turn myself around to face him whilst the shower water pours down on my hair. "And it's important to me because we're having a baby soon. And I've still yet to see you bond with a baby."

"Bond?"

"Yeah you know. A relationship between people or groups based on shared feelings interests or experiences—."

"I know what bond means so you can hold back the dictionary mouth."

Scrunching my face up I playfully flick his nose, but he remains in a sulk.

"I just don't get what more you want from me with Nini. I've changed her diaper. I've heated up her milk bottle and I've put up with her screaming."

"Kooks I don't doubt that you can take care of a baby. I just...well...I wanna know that you're gonna enjoy being a dad."

"...and what if I don't?"

"What?"

"Well what if I don't bond with them? What if I don't feel that connection straight away or worse. What if they don't love me as much as you?"

Snaking my arms around his neck I flash him a warm smile. "Think you're starting to overthink and that's silly. My darling, why panic yourself over something that's supposed to be great."

"Because I don't wanna let you down."

"Okay. Listen to me now and listen good."

"There is no way we are gonna get this parenting act right the first try. No way in hell. In fact. We're probably gonna make mistake after mistake but none of that matters because those mistakes will just be memories we can laugh at in the future."

When Jungkook sighs, I just look at him in question.

"How is it you always make me feel better after 2 minutes?" He speaks.

"Well that's because you're the worrier. And I'm the comforter. We're the perfect duo."

My body shivers when the boy brushes his fingers up and down my waist.

"Just promise me something though Y/n."

"When the baby comes."

"We're still gonna have sex right?"

"Because we haven't in a while."

"Oh that can't be true didn't we last do it—."

"2 months ago." He blurts seriously.

"...oh."

If I'm honest. I've felt a little weird about having sex whilst pregnant. The thought of a baby being inside of me whilst I'm getting my brains fucked Jeon style seems. Well.

I dunno I just feel weird about it.

But I do feel bad for putting Jungkook in such a dry spell. If I'm totally honest I've been missing the sex too. In fact it's another reason for why I want the baby to come quickly; I'm having serious withdrawals...

"Trust me Jeon. When this baby arrives, I'm gonna be all over you."

"Good. I'm pretty sure this is the longest I've gone without having an orgasm."

"Well. That doesn't seem fair." I say, and I can see the intrigued look in my fiancés eyes as I slowly reach my hand down. "Unless you don't want me to—."

"Don't tease me."

That deep and needy voice is the encouragement I need to continue. I've never done this before. Made the first move. But being naked in the shower with him has just put me in that kinda mood and he doesn't seem to have a problem with it :)

"Dear god." He breathes heavily as I slowly pump his dick in my hand, head rolling back and showing me all of his exposed neck which just seems way too tempting to ignore.

Jungkook PoV

When her lips hit my neck I feel myself lose it.

"No one else is ever gonna get to have this except you." She tells me, and I couldn't be more turned on right now. Y/n knows me so well, and if there's one thing I love during sex, it's her telling me she's all mine.

"Say more things like that."

I feel her lips curve to a smile against my skin before she trails kisses towards my chest.

"P-please." I beg.

"I'm only ever gonna want you Jungkook. You're the only one I'll ever kiss this way."

I drop my head when feeling her kiss down my abs. Yes. God yes please do it Y/n you have no idea how needy I am for you right now.

Y/n PoV

His moans grow louder as I take him in my mouth. I always feel so confident when Jungkooks neediness shows.

Slowly I move my head back and forth, using my hand to touch the rest of his length. I've given head before but never have I known Jungkook to react like this. His hands are tangled in my hair, tugging me forward so much that I almost gag.

Just when I think he's gonna loosen his grip he pushes more on the back of my head. I allow it at first, but soon it starts to become uncomfortable.

I mutter for him to stop but he doesn't, not until I push back from him. And to my surprise he growls out in anger, chest heaving heavily before his face turns to shock.

I stand up, and he looks me dead in the eye.

"I'm sorry." He breathes, but I don't say anything back, I'm simply too shocked and confused.

He's never been that rough with me before...

"It's been a while Y/n." Is all he says.

I watch as he frustratedly runs his hands down his face.

So this is what happens when he doesn't have sex? He goes back to his old ways?

"So it's true...you really do need sex to function."

At my words he looks at me, and I can tell I've hurt him by saying that but I couldn't help it, it just slipped out.

"You know I'd never hurt you though Y/n."

At my silence he begins to panic.

"You do know that right? It's why I stopped myself from getting carried away—."

"But you didn't stop yourself Jungkook. I had to."

"I just git a little carried away it's no big deal—."

"No. You treated me like one of them."

"So what? You saying you can't handle me being a little rough now?"

"Rough is when you pin me against a wall or push me back onto the bed. Jungkook what you were doing just then is ignoring my want for it to stop—."

"I'm sorry." He interrupts me, and I can see the sparkle of tears in his eyes.

Yes he slipped back to his old ways for a brief moment. But the old Jungkook never felt guilty for being rough. And he definitely never cried because of that guilt.

"It's okay—."

"I-I really didn't mean to hurt you."

"Kooks you didn't hur—."

"I-Im sorry Noona I didn't mean to hurt you I'm sorry I-I-I—."

"Hey hey it's alright." When I step to hug him he collapses into my arms; head resting on my shoulder as he panics. "Shhhh it's alright my darling I forgive you."

"I was d-doing so well." He whimpers.

"And you still are. You just had a little set back that's all, please don't cry over it though you're breaking my heart."

"I love you so much Y/n I would never want you to feel like I don't."

"I know you love me."

"P-promise."

"I swear it."

Jeon Jungkook will never be without his past. There will always be cracks in the foundation.

But I knew this was going to be a reoccurring issue. And until the day comes where he stops being able to tell right from wrong, I'll always love him for who he is.