(GUYS. I CONFESSED TO MY CRUSH LAST NIGHT. LIKE. "I HAVE VERY MANY OF THE HOMOSEXUAL FEELINGS FOR YOU I ADMIT I AM EXTREMELY GAY TOWARDS YOU AND I SHALL EXPRESS MY VERY NOT-STRAIGHT FEELINGS TOWARDS YOU." THATS WHAT I SAID LMAO.)
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(-Third person limited- Yuri-)

Yuri had woken up in a cold sweat, reaching for his glasses quickly. Instead of resuming the before dream of the strange kingdom, he had a nightmare. Of course it was. The poor Japanese boy just couldn't seem to get a rest.

The boy glanced at the two Russians laying near him. Victor had a leg up against Yuri's. When Yuri noticed, his pale face instantly turn a dark shade of red. He moved his foot away gently, hoping not to wake the silver-headed beauty.

Yuri began to stare at Victor. The younger boy inspected every aspect of him. His long, shiny eyelashes. His perfectly formed nose, with a slight red tint. The strands of silver hair  that rested on his soft face. And his light pink glossy parted lips, gently breathing at a calming pattern.

Victor shifted and groaned slightly, causing Yuri to tense and lay back down quickly to pretend to be sleeping.

Once Yuri confirmed that Victor was just shifting his body eased.

Yuri wiggled his way out from under the covers, not noticing Victor waking up.

"Yuri?" Victor rubbed his eyes and sat up, holding his Makkachin plushie in his arms.

Yuri froze. "Y-yes?" He uttered as he slowly turned towards the yawning man. "What're you doing up?" He turned to the clock. "At 3:30 AM?" Victor stared at Yuri with confusion.

He had no reason to lie.

Besides the fact he didn't want Victor to think he's a baby.

"I-um. I had a nightmare.. I was going to get some water." He felt the churning in his stomach, immediately regretting that.

The boy straightened his glasses.

"A nightmare?" Victor asked, sounding more awake now. Yuri nodded, waiting to be laughed at. "Hm. Mind if I ask what was it about?" Victor tilted his head, a bit of concern in his words.

Yuri had noticed the concern but easily knocked it off as his coach wanting him to not be distracted during practice.

The raven haired boy shifted awkwardly. "I don't really wanna talk about it.." he muttered. Thinking it'd be weird to tell his coach he was dreaming of him.

Victor nodded with an understanding face as Yuri stood up and walked out to get a glass of water.

When he came back Victor had fallen back asleep. He sighed in relief, not having to explain anything and stepped over to his drawer to change into some not- sweat drenched clothes.

~Timeskip brought to you by my friend who dedicated a fanfic of a sock under a bed in love with it's owner to me so I have to write a Sockathan fanfic now :')~

Yuri's brown eyes fluttered open once more. It was almost 12 in the afternoon.

He'd expected to wake up later. After Yuri had drank his small cup of water, he took a quick shower- in the other bathroom as to not wake the others. He cuddled under the blankets, but sleep didn't seem to come to him.

The jet black haired boy began to think of the dream. About him leaking his big secret. Victor had left after that, as he was too disgusted to couch Yuri anymore. He had let Yurio beat on the Japanese boy, too. Yuri hadn't been disowned, he was just frowned upon now by his family. His sister voted to kick him out now that everyone knew, but his parents said they could use the extra hand and just have Yuri wear a mask or something.

Yuri was heartbroken, even in his dream. The fact that almost no one accepted him. And that his parents shunned him when everyone found out.

The boy felt his eyes watering up and wiped them away quickly, rushing over to a dresser.

(-Yuri Plisetsky-)

"Yurio, can you go check on Yuri?" Victor took another bite of his food. Since I was in a happy mood I just nodded then got up, began to walk down to Yuri's room. I was about to barge in, until I heard sobbing.

(Trigger Warning)

I stopped in my tracks at the sound. Could the pig be crying?

Slowly, I made my way towards the sound. The bathroom door was open and I peeked inside, my eyes widening as I did so.

Yuri ran the blade across his pale wrist, flinching every now and then. "I'm just a.. Stupid.."

One quick cut.

"Fat.."

Another.

"Unwanted, worthless.."

Two cuts.

He stopped, his lips quivering to say the last few words as he dropped the blade, resting his head in his shaking hands.

After a moment he took a deep shaky breath.

"Get it together.. Yuri. You have practice today and can't have the others noticing.." He sighed as he stood up shakily, beginning to wash of his arm.

Yuri..you..

I felt sympathetic for him, and I suddenly realized what that clinking sound really was..

Yuri sighed as he stared longingly into the mirror. "Hmm.. I think maybe just a granola bar will be good today." I watched as he pulled out a thumb sized bottle of pills and dropped one out in his hand. Yuri poured himself a glass of water and dropped the pill in as it fizzed out.

"I hate these." He dropped the bottle, bandaging his arm and washing his face. The bottle rolled towards me. Fizzing diet pills?

(idk if those exist but it's a book and if I wanted Yuri could grow wings out of his butt and suddenly turn into a girl. So.)

I watched as the Japanese boy drank down the water and continued his routine. After that, I snuck out of his room. Having still been wrapping my head around the situation myself, I gave him a moment.

I knocked on his door. "Piggy, breakfast is ready."

I kept my normal nickname, he would obviously know I knew something.

(Third person)

Yuri got off of his bed unwillingly. He groaned loudly in response. The blonde headed Yuri just grunted back and walked off, secretly hoping he hadn't hurt the boy to make him hurt himself again.

Yurio didn't know what to do about that. If he should tell someone or talk to Yuri. Or, maybe just act like nothing happened.

He knew that if he stayed quiet, that would do nothing but let Yuri continue to harm himself. And he hated to admitted, the Russian had come to care for this pig already. Even if they've barely spent any time together.

Yurio didn't know why he did, but he was doing a great job in hiding it.

Yurio sat back down, still thinking about what to do about the situation. "Yurio! Are you ok? You look like you've seen someone dying." Victor joked. Yurio looked up at Victor, a slight scowl playing on his lips. Yurio hid his feelings deep in his shady eyes, still a bit of sorrow in his eyes.

Victor wondered why he'd suddenly seemed so fragile. As if at the lightest tap he would crack like an egg. Yurio noticed the concerned glares from the elder and shot him a glare back. "What're you looking at old man?!" He growled, quickly pulling Victor out of any suspicions of the blonde.

Yuri walked up, greeted by Victor first. Everyone ate their breakfast, accept for Yuri. Who'd claimed he'd eaten something when he got up in the middle of the night.

Yurio knew that wasn't true, but didn't retort. He continued to eat his own food, acting his normal self, for the sake of Yuri.

Victor, on the other hand had no idea what was happening to either of them. But, he did have his mind on something. The silver haired Russian had wondered what Yuri's dream was, and why he seemed so uncomfortable when Victor asked.

Victor didn't put much thought into it though. He knew he needed to establish trust, a bond, and honesty in his relationship with Yuri. But, he also knew he couldn't force his way into Yuri's life. He'd have to slowly work his way in, then when he gets there, do everything in his power to keep himself there.

Victor definitely wondered what it would be like to be friends with someone like Yuri. An introvert. He wondered if he'd have to stay inside more often. He could imagine the three running around town on a shopping spree and smiled to himself.

"Victor, you seem happy." Yuri gave Victor a soft smile, which Victor returned the gesture with his signature smile. "Yes! Is that bad?" Victor joked, still smiling. "No no! I was just wondering." Yuri laughed slightly, resting his head on his hands.

~Timeskip brought to you by last night when I was playing with some of my siblings and my older brother was dragging me around on his leg bc I wouldn't let go of him~

Yuri skated around the ice rink calmly, waiting for the other two to arrive. He had already stretched and he was excited to finally get on the ice and join the other two in training. He'd been practicing some of his jumps, knowing some of them had been his weaknesses.

Yuri didn't notice the door opening as he skated elegantly across the ice. Victor hadn't seen him skate like this during his performance. His performance was well, but was stiff to Victor. Like Yuri was forcing it to be there.

Victor and Yurio watched the boy for a while. Yuri skated with elegance and grace, even with the simplest of motions. But still, something seemed.. missing from his performance.

Yuri finally noticed the two. He'd been lost in thought and the feeling of eyes watching him became overwhelming at time. Yuri stopped skating and turned towards the two. He waved awkwardly.

"Um. Hi." He spoke, forcing an awkward laugh at the end.

"Yuri, why don't you skate like that in your performances? You have so much talent and yet you become stiff when you're in a competition."

Yuri seemed baffled. Victor had just gotten here, and was already getting lectured?

"Oh-Uh, I dunno. I just kinda.. tense." He spoke calmly, looking curiously at the oddly quiet Yurio who glared back at him. Yuri couldn't quiet see from that distance. So he couldn't really 'read' Yurio's eyes.

After the others had put on their skates, Victor began to speak.

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gUYS. DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW DIFFICULT IT IS FOR ME TO WRITE THIS. IM HURTING MY BABY.

Anyways, I'm gonna be on a train for 12 hours today so I guess I can pre write a few chapters and start a few other books.

The last chapter had exactly 2000 words and idk it was just satisfying.

So ye.

Fun.

(SOMEONE JUST YELLED 'WERE ABOUT TO MAKE HISTORY' ON MY LIL BROTHERS TV SHOW RIGHT AFTER I PUBLISHED THIS LMAO OK BYE NOW GUYZ)

WAIT SO HAVE ANY OF YOU HEARD OF THE GAME MY HORSE PRINCE?!

WELL.

THERES A SCENE LIKE THIS AND I NOTICED THIS.

IM PISSING WTF DOWLJDOQPBXMNN

LIKE THEY LOOK ALMOST EXACTLY THE SAME

ANYWAYS HERES ART

THIS IS MY BACKGROUND TBH

sCREAMMM

IS IT WEIRD TO SAY HE LOOKS SOFT IN THIS??

LIKE RLLY

*Insert leny face bc in too lazy to get one*

Yurio tho

bc memes

MY LOCKSCREEN

MY PFP

OK GUYS DID U LIKE THIS CHAPTER? NO BC IT WAS SHIT? OH. OK WELL IM GOING TO SLEEP NOW BC OH.