Niall’s POV

After “talking” to Bree for the second time, I seriously felt like shit.

She made me realize that I was such an idiot for calling her and talking to her like that. It was stupid of me to cause a scene when I was obviously doing the same thing with Amy. Man, I’m a complete arse. Bree has all the right to be mad at me. Mad is such a weak word though, she must be so pissed at me, but I obviously don’t blame her.

Now how are we gonna fix this?

I can’t help but feel frustrated and confused. I don’t want to lose her. I can’t lose her. But I seriously don’t know what I should do. Right now it’s too soon to call her back. She probably won’t pick up and if she does she will still shout out me. Maybe I should give her some time. Then I will call her and hopefully arrange all this mess.

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“Hey mate,” Louis says as he sits down by my side. We were currently waiting to make an interview at some radio station. Honestly, these past days I’ve in my own little word that I don’t notice what’s going on around me. It’s been almost a week since the last time I talked to Bree. Every time I pick up my phone and dial her number, I immediately hang up because I’m scared of what her reaction might be. I’m scared that she’ll get tired of me and that she might break up with me. I swear I’ve never been more scared in my entire life.

“Hey,” I simply reply.

“Why are you so down lately?” Louis asks, going directly to the point.

“Yeah, you’re not your carefree, happy usual self lately,” Liam butts in. And at this I can only shrug. I’m not in the mood to talk about Bree or our fight. Sure, they know part of it because of Twitter and all those social media sites, but they don’t know the whole story. They probably think that Bree and I didn’t let those things get to us, but boy if they only knew.

“Did you and Bree broke up already? Is that why you’re so down?” Harry jokes, chuckling a bit, making the rest of the boys laugh as well. At this I can only close my eyes and let out a sigh. Where is Zayn when I need him? He is the only one that kind of knows what’s going on. He would also tell the lads to leave me alone when I don’t want to deal with anyone right now. “Oh shit, is that it?” Harry asks in a serious tone after seeing my reaction to his first comment.

I shake my head, letting out a sigh for like the millionth time that week. “No, that’s not it,” I reply. “It has to do with Bree though. We had a fight, and if we don’t talk after today I think she might break up with me,” I finally admit.

“What happened?” Louis asks.

“Can we not talk about it?” I say. “I’m having this battle with myself in my head already thinking of what I should do.”

“But we can help you if you tell us what’s going on,” Liam suggest, the other boys nodding in approval.

I sigh once again. “Fine, but not now,” I reply. “The interview is about to start,” I say, standing up from the couch I was sitting in. “Besides, this is no place for this kind of conversations,” I try to joke, a small smile appearing on my lips.

“There’s that smile!” Harry exclaims, coming to me and attacking me with a hug.

“Yeaaaahhhh!” Louis screams, standing up from where he was sitting and joining the hug.

“Group hug!” Liam shouts, joining the hug as well, which ended up me being tackled by three huge assholes to the floor. I loved it though. It made me feel a little better, and the smile on my face in that moment was real. This is one of the many reasons why I love my band mates.

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After the radio interview, we went back to the hotels since that was all we had planned for that day. I was gonna go to bed and take a nap, but as all four boys followed me to my room, I remembered that I had to talk to them. I was not ready, honestly, but the sooner the better, right? Besides, I don’t think I can go longer time not talking to Bree. I just hope that everything works out.

“So what’s the deal?” Louis asks as they’re all sitting on my bed as I sit on a chair that was in front it.

“Well, Zayn kind of already knows,” I say, trying to tell him to explain the other boys because I was not in the mood to tell the story again. Thankfully Zayn caught on with me.

“Basically Bree went to the beach with her friends. Niall only though she went with this guy and called her and had a huge figh—”

“That doesn’t make sense though. You were doing the same thing with Amy,” Liam cuts Zayn off.

“I know,” I say. “Zayn wasn’t done yet,” I say as I rest my elbow on my knees and look down at the floor, embarrassed as to what’s coming.

“Go on,” Harry says to Zayn.

“So then, Bree found out about that and called Niall and kept on fighting with him, not letting him talk and explain—”

“Because I didn’t let her either,” I add. “In the end she called me an idiot and hung up. We haven’t talked since and it’s been almost a week.”

“Well, she is right,” Louis says after a moment of silence. “You are an idiot.”

“Please tell me something I don’t already know,” I reply.

“Mate, you should just call her,” Liam says.

“Yeah, it’s been a week already, maybe she got over it by now,” Harry adds.

“That what I told him,” Zayn said.

“So why don’t you do it?” Louis asks.

“Because I know Bree,” I say, standing up from the chair. Maybe she won’t continue shouting at me, but she will act very indifferent towards me. She won’t want to listen to what I have to say and maybe she’ll even break up with me,” I add. “And that really, really scares me. I don’t want her to leave me.”

“Wow, I never thought you were actually this in love with her,” Louis says.

I just shrug. “That’s not the point, Lou,” I reply.

“Right, sorry,” He replies. “Look, we also know Bree, she’s our friend too, and we can tell you one thing.”

“She’s never going to break up with you,” Harry says.

“I know that she’s always so distracted, but look at you. You’re distracted as well because you can’t see that she’s so in love with you as you are with her,” Liam says. “She’s never going to break up with you.”

“We don’t know how the rest of the conversation will go,” Zayn says. “But we can assure you that you can stop worrying about that.”

“So just call her, mate,” Louis says, throwing his cell phone at me.

“I can use my phone, you know?” I say, taking out my phone from my back pocket.

Louis shrugs. “I know, I just wanted to be more dramatic, or whatever,” He says, making everyone laugh.

“Ok, here we go,” I say, dialing the familiar number. I put the phone to my ear and wait for Bree to pick up. Thankfully, she does after the third ring.

“Hello?” She answers. She doesn’t sound excited, obviously. She doesn’t sound mad either though. I knew she would be like this. Indifferent. And I think that hurts the most.

“Bree,” I say, walking away from the boys to have a little more privacy.

“Niall,” She replies.

“H-how are you?” I ask.

“I’ve been better,” she says. Yup, this hurts so much.

“Look, I just wanted to apologize,” I say. “I’m so sorry for everything I said. I didn’t mean it, I was just really mad. And I’m extremely sorry for not letting you explain,” I say. “Can we please have this conversation again. I want to know what really happened, and I really want to tell you what happened with Amy.”

Silence.

That’s all I hear.

For a moment I think she hang up on me, but when I look at the screen to make sure, the call is still going.

“Bree?” I ask, making sure that she’s still there.

“I’m here,” She replies,

“So, can we please talk?” I ask.

“We are talking,” She says. At this I close my eyes and sigh.  I knew it. I knew this would happen and she doesn’t know how much it’s hurting me. I guess she has the right to do it though because I guess I hurt her too.

“Bree,” I say.

“Look Niall, is really late here and I’m tired. I have to go. Bye,” She says.

“Bree wai—” But I’m cut off by the disconnect tone. “I knew this would happen,” I say to the lads.

“At least she didn’t break up with you,” Harry says.

“You’re not helping,” I say with a sigh.

“Sorry,” He replies.

“It gets worse every time, I seriously don’t know what to do,” I say, raking my hair with my hands, getting frustrated.

“Calm down, mate,” Liam says. “We’ll figure this out,” He adds.

I seriously hope so.

I don’t know how much longer I can go like this.

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