-Wonwoo

Entry #1

I'm going to keep a diary now. But, I prefer to call it a notebook of thoughts.

I really appreciate Mingyu and everything he does for me. But, I don't want him to be held back by me. I mean, he's a young, healthy guy. He must want to go out and do things with his friends, or have sex. And I can't give him any of that. I can't help but to feel like I'm taking his life away from him. I mean, he's always taking care of me and he's always with me. But I can't do anything in return except for say thank you and give him a light kiss. A light kiss. That's all I can ever give him. And I feel really bad about it. Because I know that eventually he will want something more, and I won't be able to give it to him. Basically my point in saying this is, I'm sorry Mingyu. I really am.
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Yes, I'm starting diary entrees.

It's because when I can't think of a full chapter of content, I can aleay think of a paragraph. So it's kind of a writer's block+laziness thing. I Also think that they're great for describing emotions. Because for me, it's hard to fit emotions into the chapter. Also, I don't know if this is true or not, cause you guys are the ones reading my writing, but I feel like my writing is better in the "diary" style. Probably because I can't describe surroundings well, but I can write a page full of dialogue easily. But like, you guys are the readers so which style do you think I'm better at?

Also, in the entrees, when I use "and" and "but" in the beginning of the sentence a lot, I know it's not technically correct. Just go with the flow y'all, it's on purpose.

This a/n turned out way longer than I was expecting lol sorry