~(Y/n) POV~

It's completely black...I can't smell, see, taste, touch or hear anything but the blackness. And it feels like I'm drifting. Like I'm deep underwater near the bottom of the ocean where fish lurk in search of prey in the dark.

This thought fills me with fear, and with the fear comes a sound. A beeping, to be exact. Sharp and obnoxious, and fast but consistent. The beeping means I'm not underwater, and it makes me feel safer, and the consistency slows, to a normal beat, and I'm suddenly aware that it is beeping at the same time my heart beats, and slowly, I realize where I am, and I wake. The last thing on me to work is my eyes, and when they finally open, a pain stabs my eyes from the clean, sharp white of the hospital room, and my eyes flutter as I attempt to keep them open.

There's a hand in mine, and I slowly sit up, the cot creaking under me.
Looking over, I see Jhope, with red eyes, blotchy red spots on his face under his eyes, and a scared and depressed expression on his face, he looks so vulnerable, and the emotions are so pressed into his features that it scares me as well.

"Jh-Hoseok..." I murmur and shake his shoulder, trying to wake him, worried he may not wake, my heart monitor quickening with my anxiety.

But he groans and stirs, sitting up slowly. I sigh in relief and I hear my heart gradually slow again as Jhope's eyes flutter.

"...(Y-(Y/n)?? You're awake!!!" He cries, and latches onto me in a hug, giggling from pure relief, and I even see tears glistening in his eyes, which only brings tears to my own.

He really cares....

I smile as he holds me close to him and his warmth is soothing and comfortable.
"I'm sorry..." I murmur quietly, the apology seems to hush the room.
"What? You did nothing wrong." He says strongly, now holding me at arms length and looking me in the eyes with a fierce expression.
"You saved our friends, why would you be sorry? I'm not happy you're hurt but...at least you're alive." He says, his eyes softening and he jumps as the door opens suddenly.

"(Y/n)!!" Six emotional voices cry in synchronisation. And I'm bombarded with hugs as Jhope, and everyone else wraps me in their arms at once, even Suga, which surprises me.
Multiple people ask me if I'm all right in scared or worried tones, a few sound like they're crying they're so relieved, and I can't even tell who through the blur of faces moving and speaking all at once. The only person who is still, is Jhope.

"Guys...guys!!! Calm down! Let him have some room!" Hobi cries out, and slowly the mass of Bts bodies moves away some, but not far, and I see Kookie and V are crying and Jimin, Jin, Rapmonster and Suga are all worried.

"He just woke up, calm down, we don't want to scare him." Jhope says mediatingly and people nod and slump beside me, a few people in the chairs, like Rapmon and Suga, but everyone else is crosslegged on the floor beside my bed, as if they're scared if they go too far, I'll disappear.

Jhope still holds my hand, making me blush and my heart pound, and the beeping attracts everyone's attention and quiet engulfs us as they stare at my heart monitor before their gazes fixate on my blush.

"(Y/n)...why are you blushing?" Jin asks quietly and I see V's eyes light up as gears click in his head and he stares me dead in the eye, his red from tears, and I know hes put it together.

How my "boyfriend" is never around, how he was never mentioned after what happened with Got7, and how even now, when I'm in the hospitsl, he is nonexistent.

I stare at my hands, letting go of Jhope's and I see a scalpel beside the hospital bed that I can use if my confession takes a turn for the worst.

"Guys...I have a confession..."