" Sorry I forgot" I said turning and keeping the box hidden in my hand " John" he said lightly and grabbed my arm.

" What are you actually holding" he said and I looked at him trying to hid my emotions " Nothing it's a mouse trap and I thought I heard Kino so I came in here first I'll go get rid of it" I said turning around.

I felt a hand on my arm and he spun me around looking me dead in the eyes " John I know your lying, you aren't going to do something are you" he said stepping towards me and I backed away.

Fuck... figure out a lie and fast.

Before I could think I felt my back hit the wall and Evan was now in front of me " Show me" he said reaching a hand out and grabbing my arm I was hiding the box with.

" Its just a dead mouse" I said and he didn't buy it due to the look on his face " John..." he said pulling my arm " Its gross you don't want to see" I said.

He pulled more and raised a brow when I fought back " Please don't" I said and he forced my hand from behind my back looking at the box of razors in my hand.

He gave me sad eyes before taking it and throwing it across the hall way before putting a hand on my face, I tried to look away but he made me look at him.

" Please stop your better then that" he said and I noticed just how close we were to each other.

Go on fall for him and get your heart ripped out.

" Evan please" I said trying to push him away but he grabbed my hand pulling it away and pinning me to the wall.

" John" he said and I looked back at him with tears now in my eyes " Please stop hurting yourself" he said rubbing my cheek with his thumb.

" It's not that easy to stop" I said looking down but he pulled my head up and looking into my eyes " Then let me help" he said.

My heart was racing and it only got worse when he was slowly closing the space between us.

Is he doing... yes he is... do something idiot he's about to kiss you... wait no he wou- yep he would.

Our lips met and I was froze at first until I felt his hand move to my neck and I relaxed more pushing into the kiss I wish wouldn't end up killing me.

He pulled away to catch his breath and I cleared my throat " Um we need to get ready or well be late plus... Cry is waiting for me" I said and he gave me a sad look before backing away.

He grabbed the box before heading into my bathroom again as I made my way down stairs and put my boots on.

You really know how to fuck things up don't you... you just had to mention Cry when the guy close to your dreams kissed you... no he was only caught in the moment probably because he thinks kissing me will make me stop... wrong it only hurts worse, he don't like me he's just using my emotions to get me to stop.

Once at school I was putting my things away and I felt arms around my waist " Morning" he said kissing my neck and I turned around facing those green eyes.

" I hope you slept well I have to go now I have detention" he said pulling me into him and kissing me, except I didn't fully kiss back I held back something felt wrong.

He walked off and I turned meeting Evans eyes who looked pained, I grabbed my books and made my way to the class wanting to just put my music in and block the world out.