The I saw the veins in his arms and started to trace them as I saw his muscles and then I met his eyes again only to feel more embarrassed but yet I couldn't look away because he already saw my blushing.

Ok he can get off now I already know he's never going to talk to me again.

He smiled and I lost all thought because just looking at him calmed me down the guy was breath taking and he didn't look creeped out or anything even the slightest.

We stayed there staring into each others eyes for a while until his expression changed and I got nervous.

Why did it change did he finally realize what's going on.

My heart started to speed up and he looked at my chest and back to my eyes.

Shit he probably noticed how badly I'm breathing and my heart.

I went to move but he put a hand on my chest and pushed me back down gently and I coulda swear I saw his face a slight pinkish color.

I put my hands on his collar and went to push him off but Kino jumped on his back as she was passing by and made him fall on me.

Oh god please can this just be a night mare or someone kill me right now, Kino I swear you are not getting cuddled tonight for this.

He wasn't that heavy but my hands curled around the collar of his shirt and his hair tickled a bit but I didn't mind it and I could feel his face warmer then the rest of him because it was against the side of my face and buried into my neck.

Yep he's defiantly never going to talk to me again.

I felt his sigh and I grew more nervous but he picked his head up slowly and propped himself up on his elbows this time keeping his body right against me and my hands were still clung to his shirt as he turned his head and opened his eyes meeting mine.

There was something different in them then I realized how close he was to my face.

What is he doing and why am I not fighting this.

I held his shirt tighter and he gave a small smile then leaned in more slowly and even though everything in me was saying fight it and get him off I didn't want that to happen because something told me to let it.

Im going to regret this.

I closed the space between us and I could taste the mint on his breath and he was tense.

Hes kissing back!?

I couldn't believe what was happening because Evan was on top of me and I kissed him expecting him to freak out but he was kissing back and he leaned in more making our kiss deeper.

I almost kissed Cry.

Once that thought popped in my head I stopped and he pulled back his face was beat red and he looked concerned but said nothing.

" Im sorry" I said softly as I tried catching my breath " For what" he said and I just looked away sighing " For kissing you... you can hate me now I know I..." he cut me off making me look at him.

" You didn't fuck anything up" he said and tried to kiss me again but I stopped him and he looked puzzled " Are you even bi" I asked " I've never felt anything for a guy and I don't find myself attracted to them but".

Wow what the fuck was this then.

I pushed him off cutting him off before he could finish his sentence and running back inside and into my bathroom slamming the door shut.

I am so fucking stupid I actually enjoyed that and it was nothing I'm so stupid he doesn't even like men.