We were walking into lunch when I felt my shirt and hoodie be lifted up behind me to my shoulders.

My shirt was pulled back down and I saw Luke running past us " PAY UP BITCHES" he yelled sitting down at the table.

" What was that for" Evan said looking at me with a raised brow.

" You left marks on my back" I whispered into his ear and I saw his eyes widen and his face go red as he looked back at the guys.

We sat down and everyone looked at us being quite " I told you John would top" we heard Marcel whisper to Tyler.

" So how was it to be top" David said leaning against the table looking at us and I swear if Evans face could it would catch on fire right now.

" I think we all know judging by those marks on Johns back and Evans neck" Luke said and they all burst out laughing.

Evan turned with his head in his hands and put them on my chest I wrapped my arms around him and kissed his head.

" Oh and it felt amazing" I said looking back at the guys and Evan lightly punched my chest.

" Your not helping" he mumbled into my chest.

After a while the guys calmed down and were talking about random stuff and they were eating but something was on my mind and I could figure it out.

I stood up " Where are you going" Evan said grabbing my hand " I need to go for a walk" I said.

" I'll come" he said and I put a hand on his shoulder " I'm fine I just want to walk around the track" I said and he frowned but I gave him a gentle smile kissing his forehead.

I was walking through the hallways and everything was perfect so why did I have this weird feeling.

Come on brain what's wrong.

I opened the doors walking out I saw the emptiness under the bleachers and I frowned knowing exactly what was wrong now.

I miss him.

I put my hands in my pockets and walked past then opening the gate to the track field.

I stepped on and field the rubbery track under my feet shift with each step I took.

I pulled my headphones out and put music on to help me clear my head as the breeze was slow and gently blowing my hair.

I miss Ryan so much he held me when I was hurt.

Evan is fixing me but I already started to fix myself.

Ryan loved me when I couldn't love myself.

Evan just started to love me because I started it.

Ryan loved me from the start.

But I love Evan... Don't I ?