I don't know where I was or how far away I was but I wasn't turning back.

Why was I even born.

I stopped looking around and for the first time I realized my surroundings and I was in the middle of the woods.

I screamed out in pain and with all my breath I screamed as loud and heard as I could because the pain inside wouldn't stop.

I leaned forward with my hands in my arms against the ground.

Stop please just fucking kill me.

I felt my phone vibrating and I pulled it out whipping the tears away noticing an unknown number was calling me I ignored it and noticed I had missed texts and calls from Cry, Luke and that unknown number.

J - Hey I'm staying at a friends house tonight I'll see you tomorrow.

Sky - Alright hun be careful I love you.

I locked my phone and fell to the ground pulling out my wallet I needed to numb the pain.

I pulled the cold blade across my wrist feeling the bite of it and not feeling satisfied I repeated over, and over, and over.

Deeper and harder I dragged it across my wrist not even being able to see it anymore as the blood covered my arm but I wasn't stopping.

I started to feel dizzy and I laid on my back staring at the sky through the trees.

Worthless. Stupid. Freak. Fuck up. Pathetic. Alone. Kill yourself. No one loves you. You won't be missed.

All those words and more kept running through my head but I was to weak to move.

My phone kept going off but I ignored it as my eyes started to feel heavy and I let them close feeling the dark covering me.

The soon my eyes opened they burned and I had a pounding headache but as I looked around I noticed it was dark and as I looked at the sky I saw stars.

How long was I out and why did I even wake up.

I pulled my phone out seeing many missed texts and calls but I swiped them away and looked at the time it was 3 AM.

I don't want to wake up.

I curled onto my side and feel my whole body aching but I ignored it as I stared at the ground.

They will get over you.

I laid there pondering how I'm going to go home if I even should or if I should just end my life right now and make it all stop.

My sister popped into my head and how I saw her crying I felt the guilt as I imagined how painful it would be for her if I went missing and no one found my body.

I started to cry again but soon I felt tired, exhausted from the events of today and I curled into a ball and crying as my eyes started to close and my head began to spin.