God he is so hot!! Collen up top!

Collen POV 

When I heard what Alexander had said and saw him point to Adriel, I felt this huge ball of anger building and I wanted to kill him. 

"You!" I said and I noticed everyone was in the house now and backed up when they felt my anger in the room. 

"What's going on?!" Skylar asked, trying to get my attention. 

"Ask this mother fucker what is going on." I said looking at Adriel and even though he's this all powerful angel, he looked scared shitless.

"I guess now I should tell you all, Collen is my mate. I knew it the moment I landed here all those years ago. I should have said something sooner but I had a job to do, I didn't think you would actually go and mark someone who wasn't your mate and leave like you did. I regret not telling you Colly. I am truly deeply sorry." Adriel said and I could care less about his words. Everyone gasped and I could feel all kinds of emotions through the family mind link, as they can feel only my anger.

"You didn't think I would go and mark someone else, knowing how I felt about Xavier and forming a bond with him, as my mate? You had eleven years to tell me I was your mate! You knew I was searching for my mate, longing to be with my mate, wanting to feel complete. You knew this whole time, sat back and watched me be with Xavier, about married him and when he found his mate, you still didn't fucking tell me I was your mate! You saw the struggle and the pain I was in, you saw it all and you choose to not tell me! I looked up to you, I thought you were the best person I ever met, you were always there for me so I don't understand why you didn't tell me I was your mate. 

Now I understand why you stopped hugging me when I turned sixteen, why you distanced yourself from me, why you weren't around much, now it all makes sense. You didn't have to hide from me, I wouldn't have known anyways so that was pointless of you to do but I get it, your just a fucking coward. 

I understand you had a job to do but don't you know me by now that I would never stand in your way of you doing your job. I would have been by your side, supporting you, encouraging you, we could have had eleven years together by now and even a family. 

You also went and found new mates when you had me all along only I didn't know it. How could you do this to me? You may be an angel but you sure as hell don't act like one. You, you're dead to me. I don't ever want to see you again." I said all that with so much anger I felt my body shaking and I was seeing red. 

"Daddy, papa, I need to get out of here before I kill an angel. I'm gonna stay at the guest house, you're welcome to join me Killian or stay with your other mates, I just need to get out of here." With that, I turned and walked out of the house, shifting and not caring about my new experience outfit ripping to shreds as I ran away from the house to cool down. 

I ran for a few hours, my family trying to get me to come back to the house but I was so pissed off and hurt, more hurt than pissed. Adriel had eleven years to tell me he's my mate but he didn't. There has to be more than just him doing his job being the reason he didn't tell me. Is that all I was to him, a job? Is the kindness he showed me all this time part of said job? I have no idea what the hell to even think. 

I make it to the guest house and see the lights are on and I knew papa had been there to set things up for me. I shifted back and walked inside, heading to the bathroom in the master bedroom take a shower. When I opened the bedroom door I saw Killian sitting on the bed, looking at me.

"So you did show up." I said and went to his open arms and fell into his hold.

"Of course I did. You deserve to be put first, instead of last. As soon as you left, shit hit the fan and that angel is not liking life right now. Your thoughts about wanting him locked up were heard so Jake had him taken to the security room place so he's not happy right now. The others, they are trying to figure out what went on, why he kept it to himself." Killian said as he rubbed my back.

"Them and me, if it were me, I would have told him the second he was of age. I wouldn't be able to bear the thought of him with someone else, watching him with someone else." I said and tears formed, finally letting the sadness of this situation hit me, and it hit hard. I sobbed in Killians arms and he just held me and squeezed me tight. 

"Shh I got you love, you're ok." He kept whispering as he held me as I cried. I don't know what happened after that, all I know is I woke up alone in bed and the smell of food drifting down the hall making my stomach growl. I groan and sit up, go to the bathroom and take a quick shower and once I'm done, I dress in briefs and walk out into the kitchen to see Killian at the stove cooking.

"Good afternoon." He said and turned around as I got closer to him.

"Afternoon? I slept the rest of the day, night and half the day today?" 

"Two days ago love, you slept for almost two days." 

"Damn. Have you been here the whole time?" I asked and accepted the glass of tea he handed me.

"Yes, I didn't want you waking up alone." He put his hand on my cheek and gently kissed me. I relaxed instantly and moaned softly, just enjoying his lips and body on mine.

"I want to continue but your family is expecting us in an hour. I was asked to wake you if you weren't up by now. They need to speak to you." He said and kissed me again before turning back to the stove to finish the food. I went back to the room and got dressed. I noticed my bag was near the dresser so I pulled out a pair of khaki cargo pants and a blue sweater and my brown boots. After I was dressed and smelling good, I met Killian in the dining room and we ate the pasta meal he made and he also changed and looked sexy in his tight blue jeans and maroon sweater with black boots.

"You're a good cook, that was delicious thank you." I said and picked up the dishes to put in the dishwasher. After I started it we shut the lights off and I grabbed my phone and wallet and car keys before leaving the house. 

"Do you know what they want to talk to me about?" I asked on the long walk to the pack house, I'm glad it's far from the house, it gives me time to think without being asked a million questions which will happen once I get to the house. The snow is thick on the ground, making the land look beautiful. I love the snow, sitting by a window watching it fall from the sky with a cup of hot cocoa, that's a perfect night alone.

"No, I was just asked to make sure your home to talk to them today." He said and I nodded, he squeezed my hand gently and I laid my head on his shoulder, just enjoying my time with him before the other's want to spend time with him.

I still can't get over that he is mated to Xavier, Titan, Alexander and Adriel. They all have a mate, why must mine be theirs too? I'll for sure be put last by him even if he doesn't mean to, it's just the way it will be. He has five of us to share his time and self with, not just me. I can't be selfish but damnit I want to be. 

We get to the house and we walk in, greeting people as we pass and I make my way up to the Alpha suite that my cousin and his mate and now one year old daughter Emlie lives in. I put my thumb in the scanner and opened the door, walking into the family all talking over one another and laughing. 

"Hey!" I said and they all heard me and looked over at me and smiled. 

"I heard you all wanted to talk to me." I said and Killian and I sat down on the couch by papa and daddy. 

"Yes but just wanted to see how you were doing. I'm so sorry about Adriel son, we had no idea." Papa said and hugged me.

"I had a feeling he was someone special to you but son, I didn't think it was him being your mate. If we had known, you would have been told. The other guys even said the same. They looked hurt by him hiding it from you." Daddy said and I can understand that.

"The most surprisingly good thing out of this is that Titan, fucking Blake's dad is mated to my ex. Does Blake know?" I may be hurt but I'm glad it's Titan who is Xavier's mate, he is a good man.

"Mhm he knows, at first he wanted to kick Xavier's ass but after he calmed down, he was ok with it. He was really upset though about you, you leaving and the reason why. Call him when you get a chance. Also, Bailey has done a phenomenal job taking care of your company. You should definitely give her a raise and some much needed time off. She deserves it." Daddy said and I nodded, definitely agreeing with him. 

"I will, I wouldn't have been able to take that job if it weren't for her handling the company in my absence. Thanks for looking out for her and helping when she needed it by the way, I just know you didn't sit back and let her do it all." I said looking at papa and daddy, they smiled.

"Of course. You worked hard for your career, we'll do anything we can to help you." Papa nodded, agreeing with daddy.

"How's my little Emilie been? Where is she?" I asked Phil and noticed he is holding his stomach slightly, as if protecting it. I wonder if he's pregnant again. Emile is a miracle, for some reason it's hard for Phil to carry past five months and the baby making it so they had to deliver Emlie early so she had a chance at life.

"She's napping, she played with her papa all morning and he tuckered her out." Phil said and Brayan smiled at him.

"I did, I was in wolf form playing with her in the yard, chasing her and her little self was just a giggling and running as fast as her little legs would carry her. She just started walking a few weeks ago so she is still a little off balance but she tries." Brayan said with pride in his eyes, talking about the sunshine in his life. 

"I won't wake her then, I can wait. Listen I am happy to be home, I have missed you all so much but I had to get out of here the other day after finding out Adriel has been my mate all along and feeling like I was going to lose it, I just needed to calm down. Where are the other guys? Is Adriel still in the cells?" 

"The others are downstairs in rooms and yes, he's still there. Do you want to see him?" Papa asked, eyeing me. I chuckled and shook my head. 

"No, he made me wait eleven years, I can make him a few days. He is not restrained or anything is he? You don't need to go that far." 

"No he's fine, just isn't allowed to see anyone. We are leaving it up to you on what happens. Son, he does have mates so you can't keep them apart for long." Daddy said and I laughed. 

"That's funny, he's the one who kept himself away from me and you have the nerve to say that?" 

"It isn't right of you to do that to them, they had nothing to do with his choice son, if anything let them see him if you want to keep him there for a bit but don't be like him, be the bigger man." Daddy had a point, no matter what, the other guys didn't know and it wouldn't be right of me to keep them apart.

"You're right, as usual." 

It's been a few days since I woke up and had that long talk with my family, we talked well into the night and I even got to spend time with Emilie.

I have met Alexander and spent time with the guys, it was nice seeing Xavier again. I did miss him but, my assumptions were right, I don't see Killian much as he spends time with them also so I went back to L.A. to get the ball rolling on moving my company home. It's time I moved back home, for good.