Song is Far Away by Nickelback lyrics are as followed

*warning, chapter contains rape, read with caution!*

This time, this place misused, mistakes

Too long, too late, who was I to make you wait?

Just one chance, just one breath

Just in case there's just one left

'Cause you know, you know, you know

That I love you, I have loved you all along and I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go

Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees I'll ask, "Last chance for one last dance?"

'Cause with you, I'd withstand

All of hell to hold your hand

I'd give it all I'd give for us

Give anything, but I won't give up

'Cause you know you know, you know

That I love you, I have loved you all along and I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go

Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

So far away, so far away

Been far away for far too long

So far away, so far away

Been far away for far too long

But you know, you know, you know

I wanted, I wanted you to stay

'Cause I needed, I need to hear you say

That I love you (I love you), I have loved you all along

And I forgive you (and I forgive you), for being away for far too long

So keep breathing, 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it, hold on to me and never let me go

Keep breathing, 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it, hold on to me and never let me go

Keep breathing

Hold on to me and never let me go

Keep breathing

Hold on to me and never let me go

Collen POV

Who knew mating and my spell breaking would cause so much trouble for whoever has me. I was complete and happy for a fraction of a second after I marked Xavier last when suddenly I was taken, right out of their lives into thin air. That is when my hell began.

I hurt, my whole body hurts from my hair to my toes, I hurt. I can handle the torture and beatings but when they started raping me days ago, that's when I gave up, that's when I started to feel all the pain they've caused. I hate feeling not in control of what is happening to me, I feel like dying, I feel dirty and used and my mates aren't going to want anything to do with me now.

*flashback to the first rape starts here, skip if you want to*

I was on the verge of breaking down but quickly hid my emotions when the door opened and in walked four men, each all bigger more scary looking and evil than the one in front of them. They didn't speak a word, just used some kind of magic to take my clothes off and me on my hands and knees, not able to move. I wanted to scream at them to not do this but I know how evil works, I won't give in no matter what they do to me. My mouth opened on it's own and two came and stuck their nasty smelling and looking cocks in my mouth, chocking me, causing me to vomit and they didn't care, they just kept abusing my mouth and I felt a horrible pain in my ass and felt two inside me, tearing me apart. I felt the ones behind me start to whip my back and ass as they raped me, felt them cut my back with some object, trying to make me scream but, I wouldn't do it. One of them stopped abusing my mouth and walked behind me to join the other two. I wanted to die when he entered me and all three pounded so hard, my arm broke from holding myself up but I still didn't scream, I won't do it. The one in my mouth came and I was forced to swallow and I gagged, getting sick again but he just kept thrusting in my mouth like nothing happened. One of them behind me came and switched places with the one in my mouth and god I wanted to not have taste buds cuz well I don't like the taste of crap in my mouth, at least my mates would be clean when I'd go booty diving. I threw up I don't know how many times from the taste alone and from the vomit, disgusted and humiliation is all I feel. I have no idea how long they abused me but I woke up, sore all over, bleeding, torn and in my own fluids. I want to die.*

*End flashback*

I don't even want to think of how my body looks, I know it's disgusting because I feel blood and fluids all over and inside of me, on my thighs and it makes me sick, I wasn't strong enough to fight them off, all of them.

I know my mates can feel it, they must be so disgusted with me, hell I'm disgusted with myself for letting them rape me. I just hope my mates can forgive me for cheating on them because not only are they feeling my rapes, they feel the pain of betrayal each time and I can't handle that.

I have no idea what day it is or how long I have been here, wherever here is. I don't know who has me either. I just know it's someone or something powerful enough they don't need actual chains to restrain me, it's an invulnerable force of some kind. I don't even feel Lazarus so it's something that's even making him weak because they haven't injected me with anything nor poisoned my food because they haven't fed me or gave me anything to drink since I've been here.

I'm an emotional person but I have not cried since I've been here, I won't let them make me show weakness, they won't get that pleasure from me no matter what they do. I don't even beg them to stop because it's what they want and I'm not going to give them what they want, they'll have to kill me before I say a word or shed a tear.

"It's funny seeing the two Angel's fly around trying to find you when you are so close but they just keep on going." The voice of my first rapist said. They don't show themselves, they speak through a speaker that's in the room. They only show themselves when they beat, torture, and rape me.

"The one looks more worried than the other though, it's cute. We know they are all looking for you, all over the world, the sea, the sky, even Hell and Heaven. They'll never find you, Collen, they will die before you are found." He taunted again and the only thing on my mind is Adriel and Alexander are so close, if only I had a way to mind link Alexander, to let him know they are close. That has to be the worst torture of all, knowing they are so close but can't find me.

The door opens and in walks, my main torturers and they have things that make my skin crawl but I hold an emotionless expression, not showing I'm scared shitless, even though I have been since I was taken.

They chain me to a fence and begin whipping me with thorn whips and pouring silver into my wounds slowly killing me. I don't scream in agony as I will not give them that satisfaction. I just want nothing more than to be set free. As if that wasn't enough they attach jumper cables to the fence turning on a generator and walking away without any remorse.

It was about four days later that they took the jumper cables off, I can no longer feel my wolf wanting him to surface so we can try to get out of here. The slightest touch has my muscles ache, nausea, and muscle tenderness has set in and I'm beginning to lose moments in time forgetting my mates, my family, it scares me to know I could lose myself.

It's been about a month and two and a half weeks since I've been in this hell. I found out I wasn't the old supernatural here. From what I've seen some were worse off than I was. The power coming from them was suffocating, how did powerful beings such as them, get taken by humans. Their scents are also changing... almost like they're being impregnated. I felt my stomach and sighed in relief when I didn't feel anything. I really don't want to be an omega, I know I come from a long line of Alphas turned Omega or Omegas turned Alpha. I just wanted to be a normal alpha and claim the title.

I heard two girls crying from the vents and it broke my heart. I felt like I had to protect them but there isn't anything I can do.

Callahan POV

After returning to the pack shit hit the fan. We were interrogated for hours because everyone thought it was suspicious we left right after Collen disappeared but Calder and I aren't used to being a part of a team or being asked what we thought. When he was taken we just acted on impulse and did what we thought was best at the moment. After much explaining to Collen's parents and family, we were freed from the cells and reunited with our other mates. I have been on edge the last few days especially after finding out what all has happened to Collen, we haven't felt anything given our castle is protected from things like bonds, magic, and spells so we never felt anything until we left the barriers. I really didn't want to bring up the past but if the bastard who took me and my innocence when I was thirteen then hopefully it could help narrow the search even just a little bit. I looked at Calder and he nodded.

"I wanted to tell you that this happened to me but I don't feel comfortable sharing any graphic details about it right now...I was raped and tortured by a family member we thought was on our side" I took a deep breath trying to stay calm. Even after ten years it still affects me.

"We care about you and here to listen or help in any way we can." Jake said and I saw something in Connor's eyes and then that's when I remember our uncle telling us about a wolf pup who had been through what I had and we should find him and befriend him because we could probably help him with our powers.

I didn't want to trigger any memories that still remained.

"All I can remember is we weren't in America and it was super hot. I also remembered them speaking a different language, it wasn't English."

"That helps a lot thank you, Callahan." Jake hugs me and I hug back. We're so close but I know we still had a long way to go. We'll find you, Collen, I swear it.

After everyone left I saw Connor in the kitchen deep in thought. "Penny for your thoughts?" I giggle at how old I sound.

"You remind me so much of Eric, it's kinda amazing that my brother has a mate like you." He looked at me and I saw the pain in his eyes.

"When I was four, the town got attacked during an Easter egg hunt and I was taken. I was away from my family for three years, the things that happened to me Callahan, they were brutal and I thought I was going to die. I was five the first time they raped me and I can still after all these years feel that pain. I was on my deathbed when my uncle had found me and I had to have help going to the bathroom and I had HIV from a human. I hadn't turned, being so young so I got sick and took medication and when I met Skylar, a prayer was said after a ritual was done and I got cured. Look I had a hard past, you did, others did and now Collen is missing and who knows what is happening to him but Callahan, when we find him I promise you that he will not be the same, be there for him. I pushed my family away but they never gave up on me especially daddy, he helped me more than he realized and no matter what I said or did, he was there so the only useful advice I can give is to be there for him no matter what he does or says. It will take time, maybe a lot longer than it took me because he is an adult and will remember every single thing. I don't remember my whole time when I was there, I'm thankful I can't, I don't know if I'd be strong enough to know everything. If you need help on what to do, talk to my dad's, they can help you best because I'm sure they know more than I do. We will all be there for all of you and be there for Collen of course, you aren't alone, none of you are." After he was finished talking, I was speechless and wanted to cry hearing his tale. I'm sure there is more and he gave me the PG version but I don't need the gruesome details, I'll know plenty of Collen's in time and have my own.

"I'm so sorry Connor, I understand what you said and will do everything I can for Collen, just as I'm sure the other's will too. I hope and pray we find him soon and if what we feel is just a little of how he feels, he isn't going to make it."

"Daddy said something like that to me when I was old enough to learn what happened to my birth father. He got killed by my uncle's mate, long story there but he said the pain he felt was like his skin was burning and it knocked him on his knees and you know my daddy is strong so I understand how you all feel, I felt Skylar's pain when he was taken and I'm not trying to be insensitive but thank God he wasn't raped, I know that can't be easy to feel on top of the pain of him 'mating' with someone else even though that isn't the case, the bond doesn't know any difference, it just feels things that can't be explained. If you need to talk please don't be afraid to come to me, we're family Callahan and being there for one another is what we are best at." I couldn't hold it in anymore, I broke down and he hugged me while I cried, trying to comfort me but nothing will, not until our mate is home, with those who love him.